I can't even describe how much I've cried today. He was such a lovely person, I just can't believe it. On every account he has, I just felt that we would just come out and say, "JUST KIDDING" and that it was all a lie. Like, no, he can't just leave me. Not this way. I can't even think of how hurt his family is or his brothers, SHINee, they are all obviously hurt. I can't even imagine a stage without this ray of sunshine. This year was so hard for everyone, and to be hit with tragedy, I can't believe it.

We all obviously need some time from social media, but I just wanted to record how I feel while it's still fresh. And honestly, I don't think I could write anything SHINee without Jonghyun. I'm not giving up writing, because Jjong wouldn't want that but I'm not doing any more SHINee fanfics or fanfics at all. I'm sorry. I posted something today, but that may be my last. Again, I'm sorry. I can't do this anymore.

I wish everyone happiness, and farewell.

- NINA AUTHOR-NIM