what's handsome...

opening song:

well, since (the day before)yesterday's opening song was Ladies oppars debut song, i have to follow up with JMGBand(now, MoonBand) oppars debut song back in 2013 if not mistaken...wait...doesn't this mean both oppar bands debuted same year omg...(although JMG already debut solo in 2010 or sth) they're so underrated that music like this only has 30k views after over 3 years...but at least i can be proud that these views are from various ppl who enjoy their music n not just a swarm of crazy fandom putting it on repeat just to increase the views....yep, i am a proud fan of oppar's music. ;)

(TLDR: this post is just yet another excuse to post some more of oppars songs/perfs, though nothing new....xD...so you can skip the talking n just check out the songs if you want to...)

so...today will be short...haha...yeah rite...by the way...notice there's no question mark in the title? so yeah it wasn't meant as question...despite the structure...

i was rereading my previous post...what....don't tell me you don't read your own post? well, too bad cuz i'm my biggest fan so of course i read my own posts...haha...

and it got me thinking...the oppars in that post weren't what considered handsome in the looks based society...no matter how you preach bout everyone's beautiful or beauty in the eyes of beholder blabla generic preaching...you still go after the conventionally handsome/'hot'/pretty ones right? don't bring up your popular idol oppars that are so called not handsome/ugly...don't bring out my inner sarcasm please....it's not that deeply hidden at all....just don't...i beg u...

well, so...my oppars weren't ugly...far from it...just....not conventionally attractive by superobsessedwithlooks society which probly explain why they're not popular despite their crazy talents n passion...

i personally find their charisma n passion makes them super handsome...like especially when they're performing...i find them really handsome...but if i have to choose between them and a conventionally handsome idol/actor that i like...who would i choose to meet/spend time for an hour or two at their concert/fanmeet/etc.....?

the thing is...i don't view any celebrities romantically...at least not now...so definitely i'd choose oppars since i'm dying to be graced by their super passionate n charismatic stages and awesome songs. no more no less. an idol oppar i like might sing songs n show cool perfs, but certainly not the kinda songs/passion/charisma/music i can get from oppars...and actor oppar might just sing a couple songs at most at fanmeet...i'd rather get tons of songs i love than fanservice galore...i always find fanservice session kinda...boring. then again, this is personal choice n in no way undermining idol/actor oppars.

but it also brought me to a fanfic idea....which i probly won't pursue(90% sure)...since i'm already letting it out here...as you probly know...i tend to end up writing ideas i never shared...while the ones i shared most definitely end up not being written afterall...for whatever reason...not intended...just happened n by now i've gotten n understood that sign already.

Anyway...back to the idea...here goes....

a guy without the conventional good looks falls for a girl(maybe we can make her an actress/singer to elevate her status and make his confidence level drop further)...and he meets a someone(who? a devil?) who can grant wishes(whoever, plot device purpose lmao) and ask for chances to exchange his physical appearance for a set number of times(maybe maximum 10, 20, 30, 100?) with any existing guys with the looks that would appeal to the girl...and the transformation will stop when he got the right face to win the girl...so in other words...he would like...exchange face&body or sth like that with handsome idols and actors(according to who the heroine meets and find handsome...haha)...which means i can throw in a ton of whoever good looking male celebrities i like in the fic...yay time to gather all the oppars in one fic lmao...xD...but the idea sounds kinda creepy right? (like omg...what would happen to the guy whose face our protagonist exchange with if he ends up taking their face for good?) and it's not the most original/fresh idea too probly...and this kinda stories usually have predictable ending that can't be helped....so as of now it remains an idea that most likely won't be written(but still, don't steal my idea if you're gonna ruin it or use it on some already popular guys pretending like he's ugly n nobody likes him for his looks)....i already have the female character in mind(who else lol? my current girlcrush unnir would be perfect!)....but for the male...it's a tie between mr jo n mr park since it's a blogpost abt them that gave me the inspiration/idea for this. although it'd be hard since i don't find them not handsome(just not enough to compete in supercompetitive market based on looks). in fact, you can easily find guys who'd flat out be called ugly compared to them who are probly just more on average side....but the fic most likely would be from their pov...the male character...so it's not about how i see them....but about how they see themself in the fic...issues of self insecurity(yeah...this is like some of my common themes)....even if i am to write this....it's so freaking hard to choose between the two oppars. both are very appealing candidates. or should i combine their traits n features to be made into an OC? T^T...one thing for sure...no matter which one of the two oppars i choose as the main character...this would mean i would have no reader...haha...again. but again, is that new?

the story would be meant as a self discovery journey to find what's handsome/pretty/beautiful...or what makes you handsome/pretty/beautiful. what???

this?

excuse me...that's just an excuse to bring up my favs again(pretty sure i've shared these but who cares, i'm repetitive haha)...out of all idols that debuted solo...Park Jung Min has music style/taste closest to what i like so far especially with his releases in Japan even though his Korean releases earlier were awesome too...right from the explosive debut with Not Alone till now...i love most of his music(though i didn't like Beautiful that much at first)...save for his ss501 remakes which don't impress me as much as i expected, he should stick to his own songs cuz they're all fabulous enough...and then there's Handsome People with their super catchy music that is life...they need to come back with another supercatchy song like rite nao. i didn't know how i came across their debut song Shall We Dance...but i was impressed right there and then n decided to stalk their other releases. but their Beautiful is just my fav...the lyrics are pretty badass too...xD n i adore their name. handsome people. xD

ok end of oppar advertisement.

back to the story....

the idea is nothing revolutionary...but i like how it can be very relevant in looks based society/world. (which reminded me of a random memory from a time i did some teaching and a kid...yes a freaking kid offered to help me put on makeups since i didn't have any on most days, yes...even until today...i walk around bare faced the real ver not the celebrity ver...i mean i'm not really that confident of my looks...but i guess in a way...some might consider me confident for not bothering to put on my best look and just go around as i am tho many might consider it laziness...but really i'm really just lazy...to be bothered keeping up with the ever increasing beauty standards. i'd rather ppl see me as ugly if they want to from the getgo by seeing who i am...than them praising me for beauty that's not even mine n one day see my bare face and freak out...pls be noted that i don't consider myself ugly just for not wearing makeups or taking care of my appearance...i'm just saying from the standard perspective of majority,...like...when i go around the internet...i always see ppl calling a food looking delicious when it's filled with toxic colourings to make it look pretty...and once my sis made some cookies and her friend told her it'd be more delicious if there's colour...i'm like...whaa??? that's the beauty standard. even in food. and i've seen a girl who don't normally put on makeup lots did so once, n end up looking like zombie...other girls all gushed to her telling how gorgeous she look that day...and here i am like wow...methink that girl look so much better on her regular days' look...then again...it's all a matter or personal take on beauty standard...unfortunately...when majority agrees on an opinion...they insist for it to be treated as fact, and not a neutral opinion without any superior value)

back to the story idea again, since i'm not miss ~~drop dead~~ gorgeous or even miss conventionally pretty myself...i feel that it won't be too hard to get into the shoes of this character. and empathize with their insecurities and way of thinking...

ahh...should i or should i not...

i still have two ongoing new fics that needs to be completed....well, the voice sequel will take longerrrr to finish(if at all) but at least i can try my hardest to finish the other one before thinking what's next....

i hate how my ideas/inspiration are so greedy for me....

eh....that doesn't sound right...lmao.

but yeah...every single day a new idea would come bugging me...i'm just sharing them whenever i feel like it...since i still have a lot of things to blabber about lol.

but as usual....i guess since i already shared it here, this is probly the first n last of it...

maybe.

honestly...times like this i want to drop everything and just write poems since that's so much more easier and it allows me to express myself more, and no burden of commitment or worries of neglecting or living up to self expectation....the only thing i hate is how many completely silent readers i have for my poems...i'm really tempted to get rid of 'em all...haa.if you have no interest to read n share your thoughts even for once,...just click that unsubscribe button...that'd be better.

since we started with jmg oppar....why not end it with ladies oppar...i really wanted to share their own song since they have more awesome ones i haven't shared...but i decide to show them in action instead cuz it's worth showing off...even with just another cover perf. besides...i just realize the song i wanted to share wasn't even uploaded on youtube....-_-....