I think the reason why I love "Spring Day" so much is because the lyrics are relatable in my sense and many other people too. To me, "Spring Day" is about waiting to see someone you love and care about, no matter how long it takes and in the music video, BTS seem to already find that after all the tough times and sadness. They've found their person. But for me, I'm waiting for something that isn't gonna happen but I have that little piece inside me that holds onto hope. Like honestly I understand why BTS is so popular. Their music isn't always about being hurt by a girl and love. It's about your dreams, struggles, youth and friendship. It's more than just a song. It's a story. Their stories. They taught me to never give up on my dreams. To always fight for them. They taught me that it's okay to lose. I'm still young. Sometimes I ask myself what I'm even doing with my life. And the answer is--I don't know anymore. But they taught me that I don't have to be rich to be happy. They taught me a lot. But this song, is the one song that touched me the most. It's spring now, and the song just brings back so many bittersweet memories as I'm listening to it. A whole year has passed, along with the 4 seasons, and the spring weather melts away all the coldness I've been for the past months. I see flashbacks in my mind and smile a bit, but stop to realize that those memories won't ever be relived again. 

To my ex-best guy friend,

I know you'll never see this, but I want to say I miss you a lot. I'm writing this for some closure for myself because I'm lying to myself and telling myself that things will go back to what they once were. Whenever I see your posts with your "best friends" on Facebook or just pictures of you in general, the knot in my heart pulls tighter. I don't know if I should hate and resent you or just be happy for you because you let go of me. I should've held on right? Even after we've stopped talking for 7 months after our first fight, I held onto you and our friendship. During those 7 months, I spent my time all alone making a book about our memories for you and writing letters to you. I pulled 2 all nighters and wrote until my hand fell like falling off. You accepted it and we made up. But it wasn't like old times. Those times when you would just randomly call me or text me because you wanted to talk to me. The times when you show me I was appreciated. The times that no one would be able to replace me in your life. The times when I was your best friend. When we made up, I thought we would value each other more, but you've chosen to give up. I don't blame you for that. But when sometimes I hear your name, I can't help but to hurt a little inside. People look at me when your name is brought up. You think I'm doing fine, that I'm always happy, but inside, I'm slowly dying. I wish you knew how I felt for once.  I can't stop but to wonder where we would be right now if none of this ever happened. Would we still be friends? Best friends? Still close? I toss and turn when I try to sleep. I knew that I'll be very hurt if we weren't like how we used to be..but I believed. I believed we had a stronger bond than that. When I look at the trash, I just want to jump in because I feel like I belong there. I don't know how to describe the feeling but it just isn't right. How could I have meant something to you before if you're treating me like this? For a moment I wondered if I should belong in this world. Just once I thought about it.

Outside we were like the perfect friends, friendship goals, but on the inside we were a bubble ready to burst. I'm a person who never shows how she feels. I'm a closed book with a lock, but when I open up, I'm 100% trusting you. I hide how I feel because the only way not to get hurt or your heart broken, is to pretend you don't have a heart at all. But the truth is, I miss you a lot. Those sudden memories just pop into my mind at the most random times when I'm trying to sleep, and the memory of you, I'm trying to hold on, but it seems like it's getting farther and farther away. Sometimes I stop and wonder if you hate me. Because I never did. I was trying the hide the fact I still cared. I know that things are different now and things have changed, but even as life moves on, one thing has never changed. You are still my best friend. Or were. We were best friends. That is one fact that you could never change. Thank you for all those memories. All those inside jokes, laughter and funny moments. I hope you'll always be happy, and find someone that deserves your love and loves you just as much as you love her. Don't go back to your ex again. You love her but her kiss is a lie. I promise you, I'll never, ever, forget what we used to have. Because the moment when we were still together as friends, was one of the most beautiful moments in my life. 보고 싶다.