When your best guy friend finds out you like him and has started becoming closer with you yet you don't feel the same anymore. Isn't that just a sad feeling? Falling out of love. I can't believe it's been 4 years since I met him. I will never forget it. As cliche as it may sound, I'd say it was love at first sight. It was just the special connection and the feeling of deja vu. I still remember our first encounter and it was when he tried to "kill" me. To hide my feelings from him, I constantly bicker with him and we literally argue every time we talk, but we do have our deep and sentimental moments.

I will never forget the time you were upset and you came to me for comfort. That made me feel so special you don't even know. When you told me that I made you feel better after reading my "Open When..." letters, it made me smile. When we have our accidental skinship moments like K-dramas, my heart flutters and beats so fast. I won't forget that time you accidentally kissed me on the cheek after we were pushing each other. I won't forget the time when you grabbed my phone because I was taking a picture of you and we ended up holding hands, after I landed on your chest. I won't forget I promise. Just don't forget me and remember that I had feelings for you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qvis0D9wYTg

Whenever I listen to this song, it brings back such bitter sweet memories with him. There's so many girls around him that I feel like I'm a small piece of dust floating in the middle of nowhere. It's harder when one of your close friends likes him too. He's also so close with the one girl that hates me so much, it's better to just distance away. The girl who hates me keeps bringing up the one time I hurt him deeply but if she really cared about him, she wouldn't bring it up once again to hurt him just to get back at me. I don't want to make him choose between us, even friendship wise. Because I don't want to put him in a difficult position and lose my best friend. Man this is like some K-drama LOL but too bad I won't end up with the guy. >.< That's all for today! Love you guys <3 (please don't mind my dramatic and long story about my life)