I actually feel better. I haven’t completely healed, I’m still aching, but the pain is gradually going away and I’m thankful for that.

I let out some of my heart’s contents to bapbigbanglover (thank you! ^^) last night and I had a great day at school; had so much fun during P.E as the first period with my chaotic classmates and the last period of math was spent in the library for some reason and I had my head wrapped around Me Before You. My teacher also gave us a really touching talk during literature – hit me right in the heart. I managed quite a few hours without sinking into my polluted mind, which, to me, is a good sign.

So though I can’t exactly get rid of my anxiety, I’m glad that my depression is subsiding (even if I know it’ll come back anytime soon). At least the demons in my head wouldn’t be as noisy and I wouldn’t drown in my dark thoughts anymore.

Will start writing again immediately and I’m gonna spend my weekend with my family (and watch Bon Voyage and probably put Agust D on loop for 20 hours, nbd). I’m gonna be okay.

One human being that I really have to thank from the bottom of my heart is Min Yoongi. Of course, I’d been anticipating his mixtape for years so the excitement is natural and genuine, but I hadn’t known how much of an impact those 10 tracks (especially track number 7) would have on me. Yoongi’s voice is one of things that pulled me out of my drowning – Agust D should be renamed as Blessing.