So,

Lately, I find myself procrastinating more than I should. I would wonder off while studying and I can’t get anything inside my head. I feel blocked, unable to do any progress. It scares me, because I don’t know what I want to do with my life; hell, I barely care. So far, three people from AFF and facebook told me that I might be depressed or too anxious; it’s like being tired and scared at the same time. I’m scared of failure but I have no urge to be productive whatsoever. Whenever I feel like I should tell someone about it, it occurs to me that no one will genuinely care, that’d be called a drama queen, so I keep the drama to myself lock myself in the bathroom and cry for a couple of seconds while the water runs to cover any sound. It happened more than twice this month. I’m afraid that if I tell someone it will come out raw and ugly. I do talk a lot, I smile a lot, and try and make others smile too even when most of the time they think I’m not funny. I’m really tired.

That is why I decided to pour everything inside me here, on AFF, on blog posts and stories; it makes me feel light somehow.

So, after I’m done with my exams (they make me cry too), I will write as much as possible, talk to people as often as possible, I’ll probably work this summer… so I will be back, probably next week. Wait for me! (That is so cringe worthy, but I don’t care)

Recommendations:

Do you guys watch red band society? It’s a really good show about sick kids and broken hearts etc.

For a good movie, I’d definitely watch Harry potter again, or the lord of the rings

And as far as story are concerned, there’s been this really good one, BTS’s jungkook is the main character, it’s called ‘Sillage’

So I guess that’s it?!