The mushroom is back! (Legit mushroom bcs I opted for full fringes!)

Have you ever found yourself in complete discomfort because of idleness? Well, I don't mean idle as in doing nothing, but maybe not doing things you used to, especially those you used to enjoy. I've been off the internet lately and now I feel so awkward and new all over again. It's like I can't talk to most of my mutuals anymore or make my presence known at all. Not only have I been off the internet, I've also lost my touch in writing. I feel like I can't put up any words and events just don't add up anymore. I can't blame school work for this because I know I can make time for all of the things I want. Also, I dropped the traditional way of making fanfic posters (I can't generally call it graphics because I've moved on to digital drawing). Sometimes, I'd just tell myself to drop everything I can't manage, and after I stop I'd miss it a lot, the only thing worse is when I try to come back to it, it just doesn't click. It doesn't feel right doing it anymore. It scares me that what if I'd give everything a try and retire from it, nothing will feel as good as it used to.