I'm writing this here because I have friends who follow me on my social media that I don't want to see this opps. But I needed to say something about this because it's been really bugging me and it's something I myself am getting in the habit of doing and wish that I could stop.

So first off, iKON have offically debuted!! This makes me so happy to say as I have been following Team B ever since WIN. Now I don't rember why I decided to watch the show. I think that a lot of people on my tumblr that I had back then were all discussing it so I decided to check out it out and immediately fell in love with Team B and wanted them to win. So for two years I followed these boys as I waited and watched Mix & Match. All the while, I had one friend who was into kpop as much as I was and I remember casually mentioning the boys and how I was watching the show and she let me rant to her about what would happen like a true friend. But she never got into them because frankly there wasn't much to get into besides the shows and she doesn't watch variety shows let alone heart breaking survival shows. 

I remember sometime after Mix & Match ended I decided I really wanted to try to get her into them. Not force her of course, but try to show her their performances with the intent that hey, these guys are cool and I think you should consider liking them. She didn't seem too interested but said she liked Bobby and Hanbin. 

Flash foward to about a month before iKON's debut and I was just beyond hype and excited that I couldn't help but play videos in front of her. And suddenly she was interested and now a month before their debut, she was talking about how she couldn't wait for their debut. I was happy about it for a while but then I started to do the thing which I always casually brought up the fact that I had been waiting two years. I think it started off as, "but dude imagine how hype I am I've been waiting two years" and now I just find myself being over protective and becoming one of those "I was here first" type of fan with my friends.

I made another friend at the end of last year who grew to love kpop at the beginning of this year. She mentioned to me that she wished she could have been there from the start with her groups she was currently listening to so I told her "there is this group ikon and they haven't debuted so technically you could try to see if you like them and support them from the start". And part of me thought that you couldn't exactly call it being their from the start because she wasn't around to witness the survival shows but she would be there for their debut and she did find out about kpop late. She ended up loving them and picked Chanwoo as a bias. Suddenly she was calling herself one of Chanwoo's biggest fans and even though I was the one who introduced them to her I started getting protective after a while. The other night we were having fun and "claiming ikon members" and when she was told me that she wanted Yunhhyung too, I straight up told her that I had loved him longer. 

I don't know why I'm suddenly like this. I'm usually not one for the "well I've been here longer" thing and it irks me when others do it but when it comes to my friends I just can't help but continue to establish the fact that while yes, you guys are their fan too, I've been their fan from the start. Maybe I'm mad they didn't have to go through everything like I did. My second friend told me how much she loved Wait For Me becaue it was written for the fans and told me how emotional it made her and I got frustrated because she barely had to wait. 

This is really long and stupid and pointless and I'm not even going to bother checking for grammar right now but I just had to write this out. I know no one will actually read this but I'm going to try my best to change and instead of being bitter being happy that I got two people to support my boys. That is all. Peace.