well...as i was blogwalking looking for interesting posts to comment on...and sometimes checking profiles n seeing their karma points...it brought me back to bitter reality of how i lost my karma points...

i used to have a decent amount of karma points...(not that many but fair enough since i'm not a silent reader so i collect karma through my genuine comments-not the 'update soon' kind...writers i sub to would know...)

then one day i did a collab project with a friend n she wanted to advertise it using her karma she bought...n i thought it isn't fair that she has to bear all the cost even if she said it's fine for her...so i jumped in n started buying karma points too to help since you need lotssssssssssssssssssssssss of karma points to advertise n win the bid...

i know it's kinda ridiculous to spend money for such thing but hey...to each their own i guess...at least we don't cheat or anything...it's an available option we took...

so after a few times buying/coughsyouknowthisthingcalledaddiction/...one day i felt burnt out and wanted to get away from everything...particularly...everything in aff...but i didn't want to lose all my karma points n i wasn't sure at that time if the karma would be safe if i deactivate(it will, so don't worry bout it, if you're wondering)

i made a new dormant account to dump in my karma points for whateverthehell reason...

and that's the mistake...well, one of it...

when i got in again...i've forgotten my password...i even forgot the password for the email i use for that account...i tried n tried many combinations but failed...(well, by now i can't even remember the username anymore)

and there goes my thousands of karma points...-_-

actually, afterwards...i feel like i wanted to continue my aff life, but in a new account...so i made yet another new account n transfered all stories i wanted to continue write there...but then...it didn't feel right...it didn't feel quite like myself...i felt so uncomfortable that i abandoned the new account too...

this time i remembered the password thank goodness.

finally i decide no matter how scared i am to face back everything i left in mess with sudden deactivation n removing of many connections...i would come back to my original account...bcuz this is me...and here i am...back to getting karma the hard way...i even had to buy a little more karma just to transfer back my stories to my original account...ugh what a waste...all for indecisiveness...

well, i learnt the hard way...

now this is not meant to be sob story for you to donate karma to my account cuz i wanna 'change name' or whatever else excuse...just something i suddenly remembered while blogwalking...my pride is quite important so i'm not gonna ask for something people work so hard to earn and something that can be earn on your own through effort rather than asking for free...so please don't donate any karma to me...sorry if this post somehow misled my intention...i really don't need any karma points right now...i'm just calmly collecting for rainy day needs in the future if any...

the point of the story: nothing. lol. this is not fanfic, it ain't need no plot/point. just sharing random experience.

the moral of the story:

1. don't forget your password(and username/facepalm/). at least jot it down where you won't lose it...

2. think the rest on your own n keep it to yourself...:p

3. listen to Weather Forecast oppars...heheheh...