exactly a year ago, july 27th 2014 at 1:08 p.m., i made a decision that changed my life.

i chose to stan bangtan boys.

at that precise date and time, i typed down their group name, stage names and real names in hangul in my notes; that means i made an effort to get to know them. and well, i'm glad i did because it's been exactly a year since my life got a whole lot better.

tbh i don't even care if nobody reads this, i just want to let it off my chest and i just want to make my love for the boys public.

so some time in like, may? june? kids at my school were practicing their k-pop dance performance for teacher's day celeb and at the time i only knew mblaq and running man and was starting to get into 2pm ????? so then this hella crazy good song came on that everybody was like "AHHH" and dancing too and my first thought the moment i first heard it was "where has this song been my whole life" it was THE jam i mean shSHH and then after a while i was reading doom dada's comments and one of them said "only top can rap the alphabet and hakuna matata" smth like that and a reply said "boy in luv" and i was like aYe ain't that the channe channe song so i watched the mv listened to the song properly baM life ruined smh

ever since then, ever since born singer (i was sooooo in love with the raps, i was still new into the hallyu world and had never heard such great rapping lulz) i slowly let myself be infatuated with the 7 boys i think i took a few months to differentiate. but at this time, i wasn't that deep into them yet, but i was at the beginning level. i watched tids and bits of rookie king and listened to their old songs because after all, their music reeled me in. sigh.

then august 2014 came around. i was watching some video of them when one of the videos in recommended (or was it featured...?) was the dark & wild teaser and i confidently told myself "ah an old album i shall listen" then it was namjoon rapping dAmmit and at first the beginning disappointed me because i thought they decided to "abandon their swag" (wth) but then mY MAN JUST WENT SO HARD AND I WAS NASNOFJNEOIO ALL OVER THE DAMN LA PTOP IM. then i listened to the teaser for danger and when the mv came out i was like oooooffffffff and yea.

until this year, i don't admit that i'm an army because last year my friend warned me to "not like them" since i always brag that i only like one(?) group and i was a kpop anti when i was younger lulz wat and i told her that "i won't ever like them" and... just... look at me now... i kinda feel guilty towards her i guess ?? but anyway yea now even her herself would say "gosh, can't you admit you're an army already??" but i'm like sigh cause idk, i'm just scared if i admit i'm their army there will come a bad time that i leave them and that sorta pact would be broken just like that... ok im not making sense but yeah whatev.

this is my first bias aka the guy who stole my heart FIRST aka ma prince charming, seokjin. he's so lame but that's ok because i'm lame too lame-r in fact and he's just so bEAUTIFUL INSIDE OUt and i wANT him to cook me food dammit sigh

this man right here is the reason why i want an older brother and his sass is my everything gOODNESS GRACIOUS and yoongi gives me good mixed feelings tbh like on moment i'm judging him the next i'm squealing over him and the next i feel the second-hand bUrn

i am not even gonna say anything about hoseok because i might get too carried away and probably start crying blood tears while typing the first word (let that be a separate post) so aw this cutie...

omf my boyf material right here, he giveS ME INTENSE FEELINGS AND HIGH EXPECTATIONS IN MEN DAMMMMMMN ;;; my friends say i look and act like and basically resemble him in a lot of ways and i just admire and look up to him so much and gawd

zIIIMMIIIN my october baby who i have so much in common with and who makes one of my life goals to pinch his cheeks bc he damn cute man. oh and his existence is everything goodbye life

the guy who made me watch boy in luv the second time (but i confused jin for him so jin became my first bias instead of him) and idk i just have this sense of overprotectiveness over him and his smile is my legit sunshine cAN I CUDDLE HIM PLS

and here is the biggest life ruiner aka best bias list wrecker aka mY HEART BREAKER. when i first knew bts i didn't pay much attention to kookie because i thought he was overrated and mainstream (shoot my old self pls) but then... sigh... starting this year i have a thing for guys with bunny teeth (like same bRUH WADDUP) and everything went downhill from there like thx so much jeon tHAnk YOU 

so eventho i know they'll never read this, i hope my love and support will always reach them. i'll love and support them for as long as my heart allows me too and for as long as the boys go on. they'll always have a special place in my heart and mind and i'll always want the best for them. they are truly my everything, a reason i smile when i'm feeling my worst, a reason i cheer up when i hate myself. they're there for me when noone else is without even trying. i'm very blessed that god made me like these guys because honestly, i can't ask for anything else.

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here's to the boys and here's to the one year mark of me being a whole lot happier. ♥