Time pass very fast....faster than it should

 I thought by this time we are together or even have  child , but here I am sitting beside you crying over my lost dreams drowning in your love without strength to stand up and pick up all the wreckage you left behind........ I think you are strangling me with your hand.....crying with love.

 I don't know why you left me stuck between the sky and earth, but you are living in every part of me and you are still eunjung that I know.

 You think we could open new leaf, a new beginning…… but this a new beginning it just a lie....... lie we tell ourselves over and over until we believe in it ,to create a new hope to lighten our darkness, But in reality it's just a drug we inject our selves  to lessen the pain and to be relieved even if it last for second....hhhhhh .... I didn't realise how pathetic it sound , until I said it out loud.

 I blame you.......I blame you  Hahm Eunjung for all what happened to me..... to us.

 I love you more than I should ,and you loved me less than I deserve.