Yoongi the lamp in his room and throwed himself on his bed. He was really tired,mentally and physically. Everyday he should face numerous amount of test for his preparation on national exam. He just wanted this to end quickly. He wanted to chase his dream quickly. Why we have to go through this? He thought,frustated. He hated it. He hated all of this uncertainty of his future. He can’t be sure he can graduate from this school. He can’t be sure he can get into the university he wants. He tried to be optimistic,but when he faced the reality,he just... can’t. The competition in his school is just too much,making every day felt painfully slow to him. His body was tired,his soul was tired. He needed a break,even if it’s just for one day.

Suddenly he felt a vibration in his pocket and reached for his phone. It was from Seokjin. He picked it up lazily,”Hello,Seokjin?”

“Yoongi,I’m on the way to your house now. I bring some food for you. My mother cooked your favorite sweet and sour chicken!”

“Really?” his gloomy face lighted up,”Walk faster,Kim Seokjin. Bring the food to me. This instant,” Yoongi jokingly ordered him around.

“Hey,am I your servant now?” said Seokjin with a fake offended tone.

“Just hurry uup I’m hungry~” he added aegyo to his tone,making the latter went ‘eeeww’ on the other end. ”I will be there in any minutes,be sure you unlock the door for me alright?”

“Yeah,yeah,”

“Okay. See you,” he hung up. Yoongi hummed excitedly. It was very kind of Seokjin,bothered himself to come to his house eventhough he must be exhausted too from school. It has been a week since the last time they ate together. It’s not that long,but he missed the warmth if someone come to his house. The meal will taste better if he eat it with someone. Eating while joking around,talking about their days. Yoongi and Seokjin are really close,like inseparable twin brothers to the point Seokjin’s mother treated him like his own son. Yoongi really cherish them,they are like his second family,a place where his heart lies.

Ding dong

The house bell rang. He rushed to the downstairs to unlock the door. He found Seokjin playfully waved the bag where he kept the food in front of his face the moment he opened the door. The delicious smell tingled Yoongi’s nose and made his stomach growled. It reminded him he hasn’t eaten anything since breakfast.

“Sorry for the long wait,” Seokjin chuckled upon hearing Yoongi’s growling stomach. Yoongi quickly let him in,and they walked together to the kitchen. “Let’s warm it up and eat them upstairs,”

“Sure,” Seokjin put their dinner on the plate and placed them in the microwave. While waiting,Yoongi took a glass of apple juice and gave it to Seokjin.

“How’s your day at school,Yoongi?”

“...I’m sure I don’t have to answer that question of yours...” Yoongi answered with a slight sarcastic tone and pouted his mouth. Seokjin watched his back as he prepared the eating utensils. Those petite length of his shoulders looked heavy,like he beared so much burden on them himself. He looked so tensed. He needs to be more relaxed,Seokjin thought.

“It has been hard,isn’t it?”

“Un...” Yoongi lowered his head,”The only thing we think about is how to survive,we have to think each other as rivals... It’s hard,”

Seokjin felt it too. He had hard times on school,he sure it’s not just them,but the entire third years felt the pressure. They have to fight each other. But wether they wanted it or not,they have to go through this stage.

“Ain’t you lose some weight,Yoongi?”

“Huh,am I?” Yoongi checked his body,”I think I am,since I forgot to eat sometimes...”

“...When’s the last time you eat today?”

“This morning... I think?”

“Aiiish,you,” Seokjin instantly approached the microwave, luckily the food inside was already warmed up,”You always eat like a kid,you won’t eat if no one telling you to,” Yoongi just grinned like an innocent kid hearing Seokjin’s lecture. “You will regret it if you get sick on D-Day. I bet you also didn’t sleep last night,did you?”

“Un...”

“Yoongi,” Seokjin turned his body facing his friend,”It’s good to work hard,but you shouldn’t neglect your health. Sleeping and eating are also part of hardwork,” he said in a serious tone. He’s quite irritated by Yoongi’s careless attitude towards himself.

“I understand,I understand,I will eat well,mom,” Yoongi helped him to place the plates on the tray. Seokjin glared at the way Yoongi just called him. Yoongi grinned even wider,showing his eyesmile making the latter sighed,couldn’t win against that and laughed it off,”Let’s eat and refresh our mind a bit,”

~

“I’m full~” Yoongi huffed,leaned his back on the wall,”Thanks for the food,Seokjin!”

“Anytime,” replied Seokjin while cleaned up the plates. “Oh,no no,don’t bother. I’ll clean it up later. Just rest,” Yoongi quickly stopped him. Eventhough they’re best friends,Seokjin is still his guest,he can’t let him do all the chores. Seokjin did as Yoongi told him,because he also tired himself. They’re tired and stuffed,and now sleepiness began to creeping them. They let the comfortable silence embraced them.

“Hey,Seokjin...” Yoongi broke the silence with his gentle voice. Seokjin hummed as the respond.”Are you... confident enough to face the exams?”

“I can’t say I’m totally confident...” Seokjin smiled and closed his eyes,”But I’ve worked hard,and I believe your results won’t betray your hardwork,trust me,”

“But what if...”

“No. Stop. Don’t think about negative things,Yoongi. All your hardwork will be in vain,”. Seokjin catch a glimpse of fear on Yoongi’s face. He too,was scared,but he won’t let it influence him. “It will be alright. You will be alright,”

Yoongi smiled slightly hearing Seokjin’s words. It calmed him down a little,”Yeah. Thank you,”

“There’s nothing to be thanked though...” said Seokjin with sorrowful eyes. Yoongi who noticed that frowned,”What’s wrong?”

“You know... everytime I think about we’ll graduate soon...” Seokjin kind of hesitated to speak it out,”I miss our choir club...”

“Me too. I want to make music again. I want to sing together again. I want to win some competitions together again,”

“Do you remember when we got a 3rd prize on national choir competition last year?”

Yoongi nodded at his question. Of course he remember it,and  always will. It was the most unforgettable experience in three years he become a member of choir club. They practiced real hard,everyday they’ll practice after school until late at night,they also practiced on holidays. They are determined to do it,until some of them lost their voice. They got panicked and worked together to recover their voice by making some healthy beverages. Yoongi also included in ‘those-who-lose-their-voice’ group. For several days he could only speak in whispers,he totally lost his voice. Right after they recovered,they practiced again. They repeated that routine everyday. Not only that,they have to balance their practice and study. They looked like a zombie every morning because they pulled all-nighters to do their homework and study. But they were not bothered by it,they enjoyed it. On the D-Day,they got all nervous and tensed  because it was their first time singing on national level competition. Their conductor told them to calm down,just sing like how they always did in practice,and forget all about the competition,just enjoy their performance. On their way back home,with smiley faces,they brought the 3rd prize to their school. They’ve never thought they’ll worth the 3rd prize.

“It was so fun,wasn’t it?”

“I want to sing together with the first years. It must be fun,” Seokjin said with glittered eyes. Whenever he thinks about that again,he really wanted to bring the first years there,to let them know how fun and thrilling a competition could be. Of course it’s not just about having fun,but also to measure how far their abilities are. Yoongi smiled weakly,he thought about the same thing. The 3rd years only got to met them for several months on the beginning of semester. Once they hit the second semester,they have to retire from the club.

“Do you remember when the first time we met the newbies?” Yoongi grinned,”They were all awkward and shy around us 3rd years... especially you,President,” he teased Seokjin who was an ex-president of Choir Club. All the girls will suddenly stuttered or lost their ability to speak whenever Seokjin talked to them,making him confused and asked ‘are you okay?’ which made the situation worsened. Seokjin throwed him with a pillow,embarrassed. But Yoongi didn’t stop teasing him, “You even get the most letter when we retire,”.

It had been a ‘tradition’ in choir club when the 3rd years retire,the juniors have to write a letter to one of the seniors they like,but they shouldn’t write the sender’s name,it has to be anonymous. The content is up to them,it could be apology,gratitude,encouragement,or even confession letter. And as Yoongi said,Seokjin got a handful of letters on the end of the event.

“Aiiiish this kid,” he grumbled while touched his reddened ears. “Didn’t you get some too?”

“Of course I did,” Yoongi smiled proudly,”I kept them in my dresser and re-read them sometimes,”

Suddenly Yoongi recalled something. He turned himself to face Seokjin and looked at his eyes intensely.

“What?”

“Speaking of letters... I found something today,” Yoongi reached for his bag on his bed.

“What is it?” Seokjin widened his doe eyes,full of curiosity as Yoongi taking out something from his bag.

“A letter... I guess. It’s anonymous,”

“Where did you find it?”

“At the corridor near teacher office,”

“Why did you took it?”

“Because... I found my full name on it. I haven’t read it I swear,” Yoongi made a ‘V’ sign with his hand. Seokjin took the envelope from his hand,”You sure it’s your ‘Min Yoongi’?”

“I’m not sure myself. But you know... I was kind of blank and speechless the moment I saw my name on it so... I unconsciously took it with me...?”

Seokjin stared at Yoongi,making ‘shall we open it’ expression. They were both curious,so Yoongi just let him. Seokjin opened the letter and scanned it with his eyes. Seokjin put down the letter with an unreadable expression.

“It’s for you,Yoongi. Totally for you,”

“How can you be so sure about that?”

“Read it yourself,” Seokjin handed him the letter.

Min Yoongi

I may not the right person to talk,but in case you’re feeling insecure,nervous,stressed,or pressured,I want to tell you something.

Remember what you have done in three years. You have been fighting for three years,which is not a short time. Well... not a long time either. Don’t let your hardwork,your tears,your pain,and your effort go to waste. I know you can do it. You can kill the test. Have faith in yourself. I want you to face the test without a single burden on your shoulders. I’m sure your hardwork will pay off. You will graduate with no regrets.

I also want to thank you for all the memories we have shared together. Though it was a short period of time,but it was precious. I was happy by just talking with you,seeing your face,seeing your smile,or listening to your beautiful voice. Especially when you praised me and encouraging me. It totally made my day. Thank you.

This may will never reach you,it’s not like you know about my existence anyway. But I hope you know about the fact you are precious and you are loved. You are important. You are needed in this world. You are our beloved senior. Keep that in mind.

Do your best

I wish you luck.

Yoongi quietly turned his head to face Seokjin. They both have questioned looks plastered on their face. “Do you recall any 3rd years with the same name as yours...?”

“No...”

“So the recipient of that letter...”

“....is me....”

“.........”

“.........”

“Wha...What should I do now?” Yoongi asked with trembling hands. There was a tint of pink on his cheeks. Seokjin chuckled in amusement seeing his reaction. Yoongi’s happiness was beyond compare,his heart might explode. He was so touched by how the sender bothered to waste some of his/her precious time to write him a letter. Seokjin secretly happy for him too. The letter came in perfect timing,just when Yoongi needed some words to keep his spirits up. The sender also told him about how precious Yoongi is in this world. It has been a while to see him looked that happy,like a child who just received a present on his birthday. Seokjin really want to thank the sender.

“The only thing you can do is believe in yourself,like how the letter said,”