Lack of Love
Description
Jung Soojung is an adopted child of the Jung family which is famous for being one of the richest families in South Korea. They are looked up by people in different fields. They own hospitals, malls, research facilities, a university, and other huge business enterprises. But the Jung couple failed to conceive a child of their own. Mrs. Jung already had two miscarriages and decided to give up on trying to have a child. Mr. and Mrs. Jung decided to adopt a daughter from an orphanage and that is Jung Soojung with an American name, Krystal. She was adopted when she was just six months old. This was kept a secret to the world and everyone recognized her as the firstborn of the Jung family.
But to Soojung’s luck, 7 years after her adoption, Mrs. Jung conceived a child and eventually gave birth to Sulli. Soojung was well provided with everything and even studied in a prestigious university but her parents never loved Soojung as much as they loved Sulli with all their heart. Sometimes, Soojung gets beaten up by her parents for just petty reasons. Her parents were very regretful of their decision of adopting her because later on, they finally conceived a daughter of their own.
The family wants to marry Soojung off and take her off from their house. The only way to do this is through an arranged marriage proposed by their partner company headed by the Kims. They thought this arranged marriage would like be hitting two birds in one stone. Soojung will be out of their house and will be scratched off from their responsibility and this will serve as a new merger for the two companies finally creating an empire business in South Korea.
“I’ve been living a life full of misery----a life full of pain, a life full of lies, deceit, anger, fear, hatred and a life lacking in love. I am just a mere “object” to my parents who do not care for me as much as they cared for my younger sister. I will have to work my off and strive hard in order to please them and earn their appreciation but to no avail. Why you may ask? It is because I am a mistake; a wrong decision which cannot anymore be changed. I am adopted prior to my younger sister's birth. Someday somehow I wish to find love because all my life, I have been seeking that feeling of being cared of and being truly loved by someone and not just for a give and take relationship reasons.” --- Jung Soojung a.k.a Krystal
“I am living my life to the fullest. I can get whatever I want, hit on any girl and earn their trusts and hearts in a jiffy. Looks, cars, mansions, girls, friends, family, job; name it--- I have it all. Out of all the girls I have hooked with, I only loved one girl. I am ready to spend my whole life with her and throw away everything that I have just to be with her but she broke my heart so hard when she just left me without a word. I no longer wanted love. I think love is just plain bull. I don’t want it and I don’t even need it. The only people that I will love will be just my family and my friends. I just spend my time working my off to be the best company heir my father wants me to be. I will do anything for the happiness and comfort of my family.” --- Kim Jongin a.k.a Kai
Will Jung Soojung finally find love? Or will Kim Jongin finally give in and be ready to love again? Watch out as their marriage life unfolds.
(a/n: Hi guys it's my very first fanfiction. This is also my first time writing a story so please bare with me. I am not new to fanfiction though. I have read them for about five years already so I think I can manage. Feel free to comment and add me up! I don't bite. )
Foreword
Soojung’s POV
Journal entry number 1999.
“When my parents told me I am getting married to a stranger, I just felt nothing. I mean, what’s new? I’m just a mere object in their eyes, merely just a chess piece waiting to be moved by them whenever and wherever they want me to be. I wouldn’t be surprised if one day they would just get rid of me and throw me somewhere far. I know they won’t even bother whether I die or become crazy and whatnots. I sort of figured out that this marriage thing is their way of getting rid of me without the public knowing how they are really itching to throw me out of the household.
I am thankful though that they gave me something I can hold on to in case one day they decide to just throw me out and cut all connections with me. They provided me with good education and I now have a degree in medicine.
Although I have nothing against this marriage, I am also not good with it. I mean, how do they expect me to be in the same house with someone I have never even met and spend my entire life with him? Okay scratch that, maybe I wasn’t thinking of a lifetime commitment since this marriage dawned upon me. I have trust issues okay? I don’t even know how to interact with this person because I don’t even talk much and socialize. Friends aren’t even an item to me because I grew up with the idea of friends being just merely business associates since the “friends” I knew from childhood until now are just a bunch of rich brats forced to talk to me because I am part of this “family”. Daily acquaintances and conversations I have in an entire day would just be for formality reasons and it is my way of being civil to everyone. I talk with the staff in a coffee shop, talk with the teachers when I was still studying, talked with my classmates and colleague for projects and other activities, and discuss with my patients. That’s it and that is how my social life looks like. Quite “fun” huh? You talk, I answer, I ask, I get answered back and the conversation is over. “
Okay back to the marriage. The worst case scenario would be me initiating a divorce after the marriage because my parents would kill the hell out of me. That would be a huge disgrace for the family and of course the company. But on the other hand, even a heart as cold and monotonous as mine is slightly hoping that this marriage would work and maybe experience love perhaps? I know I have a strong exterior but deep inside me lays a fragile girl who thinks that she is solely baring the weight of the world on her tiny and weak shoulders.
Author’s POV
Soojung keeps a journal ever since she was in high school after discovering that writing her heart out will keep her sane and composed. Her journal is her only friend in this cold and selfish world. She thinks that while writing, she could be free of pretending to be okay and all civil when she actually wants to break of and let loose of all her frustrations and complaints about the life she had. It is as if she is talking to someone who won’t judge her because all this time, all she needed was someone to listen to her. Only to her satisfaction, that someone turned to be just a mere object which is her diary. She doesn’t update entries daily.
She writes when she feels like it and she brings it everywhere she goes because there really are times when she just wants a good release to the feelings she is bottling up inside. Up to date, she now has four volumes, of her journal entries including her recent one which still isn’t full.
How will she cope up with this marriage? Will this be her ticket to find love or will this bring her more misery than what she has already experienced? Will she be able to keep up with her strong front or will she end up crumbling into pieces? Will she finally allow people in her world or she would just continue living her life lacking in love?
(a/n: some parts will be from Soojung's journal entries and this fanfic will be mostly from Soojung's POV)
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