Author's Note:

I always see Song Jae Rim as Kim So Eun's protector... so writing his POV had been easy for me. I must admit that he earned my admiration not because of his coolness as a man but more of as him being himself. He is dorky at times and sometimes he does and says things that are a bit off yet he doesn't care because that's the real him. 

I don't know if i can ever right a fanfic about SoLim again. But i had fun writing this.

Thank you to all that have read and commented. 

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Song Jae Rim’s POV

Watching her on the side mirror of the motorcycle we were riding at, I couldn’t help but smile.  I like seeing her like this, all smiles and happy. 

She’s screaming on top of her lungs… releasing all her stress and pent-up emotions.

It’s good. All good.

~~~

“Nugu-ya?”

I cringed while watching on television how jerk I could have sounded. Working on entertainment industry, I know that I should have make myself more aware of the people within this industry, be it sunbaes (seniors) or hoobaes (juniors).

Living in a culture wherein seniority, formalities and rankings are important… I knew that people might perceived me as a snob.

“Forget it.” She jokingly answered when I apologized for not recognizing her.

From those two words… that single statement… she has saved me from further embarrassment and digging my own grave.

Right then and there, I knew that she is not your typical girl.

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 As I waited to pick up our ramen, I have a good view on her from afar. Her eyes are staring into nothingness.

Her profile is more relaxed now, unlike the past few months when we started this show. I know that I puzzled her. That my actions might be confusing.

It did cross my mind if I’m burdening her with my advances.

Shall I step back a bit? Am I being too aggressive?

But I can’t. Sometimes I can, but most of the times I can’t hold myself back from being straightforward and touchy… because that’s what I am. And I want her to see the real me.

I wanted to be accepted as who I am. As what I am.

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“Sometimes I do wonder… what is the real you.”

Hearing her say that, I couldn’t help but feel anxious. I do admit that some people see me as having a 4D personality. And that’s how I am. It made me feel worried as she’s already seeing the real me.

Will she stay? Will she accept me?

~~~

While she’s changing as we prepare for the next filming, I played with the ring on my finger.

SoLim 9.11.14

The day that I will always remember as I met the woman that I will forever be grateful for.

I didn’t know when did I start seeing her differently.

Is it when I saw how she looks so sophisticated on the dress that she wore when she visited me at the hospital?

Or is it when I saw her how she looks so domesticated while she’s slaving over that Kimchi soup or stew, as she wanted to call it?

Is it when she didn’t mind looking silly on that oversized couple shirt that I’ve brought or when she still looked so stylish despite that unflattering striped shorts?

Or is it because I saw how she didn’t mind me being myself?

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“Yaaah!”

I instinctively wrapped my arms around her, as the hot air balloon we are riding hit the ground, not so gently.

“Are you okay?” I asked her worriedly. My heart is beating so fast as fears clouded my brain.

“I’m okay. Are you?” She said softly.

I am as long as you are. Those words are the words I wanted to say at that moment. But I chickened out and I let those words left unspoken.

~~~

I know how my actions are very bold and expressive. People appreciate me being so straightforward and showy.

But I know, I won’t be this cool namja (man) if not because I’m with the perfect yeoja (woman).

The first time I hear from her the things that people are saying about her character… my protective side has been activated.

How I wish that I could protect her from being judged… how I wish I could shield her from the harshness of the people.

But she is one tough cookie. Regardless of the unfair criticism and judgment towards her… she continued being herself.

I know she can handle her detractors well, but it doesn’t stop me from wanting to protect her.

Because that’s what husbands do. Moreover, that’s what I wanted to do.

~~~

I couldn’t help but get worried as I read articles and comments about her dating scandal. I cringed as how harsh and mindless could people get.

I was jealous, of course. I was in doubt.

I won’t say that I’m not affected. I’m not a hypocrite. Seeing the article is like a punch on my stomach. Somehow I couldn’t breathe.

But I wanted to listen for what she has to say. She didn’t have too, of course. But I wanted to be selfish and think that I deserve some kind of explanation.

And then the phone rings. It’s from her.

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“Oppa?”

I didn’t realize that I was staring at her beautiful face for a while now. Our filming has ended a couple of hours ago and we decided to sneak out of the villa to enjoy the night view by the sea.

“Things won’t be easy, So Eun-ah.” I said to her. “Some people would still doubt us, some people would still judge us. Whatever we say or not say, whatever we do or don’t do… some people would still placed meanings and put suspicions upon us.”

I look at her and her eyes are once again misty as she held back her tears.

“I’m not sure how smooth or bumpy the roads ahead of us will be. I might act strong but I’m afraid that I might stumble and fail you once in awhile. Will you be ready for that?” I asked her.

“I have doubts and fears…” She started saying. “Because I know that the world we live could be very harsh towards us.  Just like you said earlier… we don’t know what’s ahead of us. But someone dear to me had once said, he loves everything about me and he trusts everything that he doesn’t.” I blushed hearing that familiar words that I’ve said.

She sighed then continued. “I’m not good with words. I always felt that I’m always lacking in expressing how I really feel. But I wanted, no… I needed you to know that, I also love and trust everything that I know and don’t know about you.”

She held my hand and pressed our hands together. Our rings aligned.

“I don’t know how far we can go but I am willing to take all the risks, so long as I could be with you. Until now, I’m not sure if I really deserve you. You have given so much to me, I don’t know if I’m enough. But I am selfish.  Because now that you’re here, that you’re on my side, I won’t let go. I will do my best to be that girl for you... the girl that you deserve.”

She held my cheeks and smiled tenderly. “I will be your wife, your lover, your friend and your soulmate… and I hope I can be that person whom you can say that is worth your four years wait.”

Hearing her say those words while looking at her beautiful eyes… glistening under the moonlight… so much love has gripped my heart.

I slowly descended my face and I saw her close her eyes before I close mine as our lips touched for a searing kiss.

“So Eun-ah… I might not say this now… but for me, you’re more than enough. That on 9.11.14, the day we’ve met, I already said that I’m glad I’ve waited… for you.”

END