There’s always one moment in your life where you fall. Not fall like in love and also not fall like the literal, but fall like your emotions and soul wants to stop being what it was because everything is just not nice. You want to give up because life is being so unfair and nothing from what is happening is right. Like God poured all the negativity in you in a glimpse and there’s no way out.

I tried to be happy. I tried to forget. This pain is so hard to endure. Feelings and memories are my worst enemies.

I’ve been a total disaster for 2 years. I don’t even know my purpose for being alive. They were the reason why I am here.

But they’re now gone. Where should I go?

 “Find a reason to live. You only have yourself now. Everything happens for a reason and this is only just a beginning of something exciting for you.” I slowly stretched out my hand to touch my mother’s face but then I woke and it was only a dream.

After that dream, I decided to try and live anew.

Just like what Yvonne Pierre said, “Use what you’ve been through as fuel, believe in yourself and be unstoppable!”

A new life might be a great opportunity for me.

                For someone who just moved into a new place, I’m a pretty relaxed person. I don’t know, this new place is so new but still feels like home. The sheets of my bed are still the same, black polka dotted, my white guitar is still placed beside my bed, I still have with me stacked in my desk the books  I read since I was twelve.