hatred

it's all I can feel

toward myself

i want to die

and be born again

as someone else

they say my name is Ryeowook

but i don't know who i am anymore

deep down in my soul

i want someone to come

and save me

but till now there was no one to stay

i push people away

because i want to see who will say

'i won't give up on you'

and maybe someday

there will be someone

who will say that

and just stay with me

i just hope

it won't be too late.

~

Kyuhyun woke up suddenly and sat straight. He had these dreams again. His hand brushed his hair as he slowly stood up and made his way to closet. He had to take a walk to clear his mind, he told himself. But that wasn't it.

Kyuhyun tried to ignore anxiety in his heart.
He just had to go somewhere, because he felt like something dreadful might happen.
And back then he didn't know how much he would lose if he decided to stay home this cold, January night.