As I stood in the middle of the road, I hold my phone that's attached to my ear with my right hand, my other hand lies on my mouth, preventing any sound of my sobs. I listen intently to my best friend on the other line, cheerfully telling me how happy he is to be together again with the one he loves. 

I just listen while my eyes produced a liter of tears, my heart hurts like it is being stab by a dagger. Soon, I know I need to produce some words, but can I?

" Hello? Areum-ah? Still there?" Kai asked on the other line.

I was awaken from my trance. With every last strength I have, I managed to produce some words.

"I am...Happy for you...Kai." It stings like deep wound. Indeed, I am wounded on the inside. Every word cut so deep I can't continue to listen any longer, so I cut the line and turn my phone off.

I collapse on my knees and cried my lungs out. Tears continuously pouring. Why must I suffer like this? why can't he just notice me for once? why can't he be mine?

And like a thunder, the answer to my questions popped in my mind.

"Because you are his best friend. And that's how it is."

I then smiled bitterly to myself.