YG is making me stay at the awards. The rest of the members are leaving because they all have schedules except me. Dara has to fly out to the Philippines for a photo shoot, Bom is currently going to a therapist and she was advised to go back home, Minzy is flying out to New York for her dance classes, so I'm left here to represent 2NE1. We say goodbye and as I'm hugging Dara, she whispers in my ear, "He was looking at you the whole time." Who? I start to ask her who it was but our manager quickly pushes her away so I'm left with gnawing curiosity. I head to the tables and as I climb up the stairs, I am met with bowing heads and nervous greetings. I bow and walk over to Taeyang's table. He's sitting with Jiyong in a round table. Jiyong looks up at me and raises his eyebrows in surprise. He didn't know I was going to stay. He quickly gets up and we bow awkwardly. I sit down in between him and Taeyang and feel a tiny hint of friction. Someone touches my shoulder and I see Mino's friendly smile. 

"Hey! How are you guys?" I greet Winner, Bobby, and B.I. 

They bow and stutter a "Good." They smile at me and their eyes are b with excitement. They remind me of me when I started going to award shows with 2NE1. Unfortunately, it's not always fun and games. The MAMA awards are known for giving the awards to those who participate and it's getting old. Jiyong and I use to talk about this and to this day, we still agree. I look over at Jiyong and he's looking straight ahead, ignoring my existence. I sigh and try to pay to the performance. Sistar is performing 'Touch My Body' and I start dancing with Taeyang who's acting like an idiot. I grin at his happiness and he catches me looking. Instead of turning away, I touch his shoulder and jokingly mouth, "Touch my Body." His eyes widen a fraction and he pretends he's going to kiss me. The fans behind us star