I go to the mall today. Just walk. Without knowing what to do. I think im still okay..then the others girls..but i think i cant stand it too long..i keep crying without reason. Did i miss him? Did i jealous? I cant.. if i love him, i must let him go. I want to saw him happy..so i must move on.

Then i put my earphone. I just play random song. Then i stop. Cause its painkillers song by t-ara and more. My tears start to fall. Everyone look at me. I didnt care. I just walk while cry.

Can i have some painkillers?

When will things be okay? When will the sun rise again? Are all farewells this painful to death? Im chokep up, i cant breathe, time goes by but its no use...please heal me,  so i can smile for a little.

Im sobbing while wipe my tears. Then i bump into someone. I open my eyes and its V on the top of me! I close my eyes back." Ya!!", taeyeon shout and help V get up. I stand." Nayeon ah!! He is my boyfriend!! What da heck are u doing?! He was mine!! Dont dreaming that u can get him!! U idiot!! U just a slave!", she push me. I step back. She slap me." Dont look at him anymore!", she shout. I cry." Ya! Dont slap her! Im bump into her..please...dont mad anymore..im sorry, jagi..", V said. Taeyeon smile and glance at me." I go...",  i bow and go. I keep touch my cheeck. Its hurt.

At home. I go to the kitchen take some water snd go back at my room. Suddenly V was on my mind." He...kissed me...", i said. I was hold a small glass. My tears fall down." I cant..forget about you...", i cry. I didnt realize that i was grip the glass so hard and it crack." He lie..", i said. The glass break in my hand. My hand bleed.  But i didnt feel any pain." I love him...", i sobbing while my hand bleeding hard. I take some sleeping pills and eat it. 

Next morning.

" na yeon...i think its too early but...", ji hoon stop." But what?", i ask " i like you...", he said. I gasp. I could hear V also gasp. I look at V. My tears came down and i stare at him and he stare at me." I like you too..", i lie. He hug me. But i realize...it wasnt tears of happiness. It was tears of... broken..hurt..sad..

This is the way to make me forget about him. Can i?

Rest.

I go to the canteen with him." Owh u should smile, babe..", he said. I nod and chuckle. But not happily. I know..its fake. How to make him give an attenttion at me? Of course he cant cause he has taeyeon.

" ji hoon..i want to go to toilet..u go to class first..", i said. He nod and go. I go to the toilet. Before i get in there was about 3 guy block me. I let out a heavy sigh when i know who." Hey silly...", jimin smirk. I silent." Hey are u okay?", jungkook ask. I nod." Why with u?", jhope ask." Since when u want to know?", i ask." We friend remember?", jhope said." No...u just can hurt me more now...", i said." Hey...why with ur hand?!!", jimin shock. I hide my hand. I wrapped it." Hey!! Who hurt you?!!", jimin shout and they pinch me to the wall. I cry." Hey..dont cry...", jungkook said. I cry heavily. I couldnt tell. I dont know how to tell cause i never shared it when im hurt even tho.with baek.

Suddenly they all come. But not with V. I sobbing." We here if u need a help...", they said and about to leave. I grab jimin's hand." Stay..", i whisper cause i dont have so much energy. He nod.