I go to my room after Kookie go to the shop. My phone vibrate.' Im at home...i miss you already..' he reply. I know. I had a crush on him but i force myself to forget about it. Im not gonna see him after this and he also dont want me if im like that? I just look at the screen without reply. I take the calendar. In this christmas, i will had my first surgery. Its maybe take a long time to keep this secret from Tae.

 Im crying alone. Im scare if my world will be alone again after this. My vision is blurry. I cant see anything sometimes." Noona...dont cry.. Ur vision will be keep blurry if you crying..", jungkook hug me." Never mind Kookie...im fine...", i push him slowly." I can be alone now...even tho my vision is blurry..", i go to my drawing room. I look at the canvas. There was picture of Taehyung. At the beach while hold someone hand. Maybe the girl its not me. I start to draw something with my imagination. I take a black fabric and tie it around my eyes make me doesnt saw anything. I rub to search my brush. I just make the brush inside of the colour. I dont know what colour. I draw slowly on the canvas.

After it done. I open the fabric and look at the canvas. My vision is blurry. Its more blurry then before." Kookie...", i call him." Yes Noona..", he answer." Can u help me..tell me what im drawing just now..", i said." U cant saw it?", he ask." Its blur...", i said." Again...", i heard his smirk." Its Taehyung...", he said." Really?...what about it?", i ask." Its just Taehyung's eyes....", he said. I stop. Eyes...im speechless." I...will leave u alone, Noona...", he leave. 

Suddenly my phone rang.

I cant saw the name on screen so i just answer it." Yebeoseyo?", i ask." Its Tae..u dont save my number?", he ask." Owh...no..i save it..why?", i ask." Can i ask u to teach me how to the math works? Im of it....", he said." Owh...im sorry Tae.. Im busy today...", i look at the clock. Its 7 pm. At 8 pm i will have a appointment with a doctor." Owh okey then....tomorrow i just copy yours...",he said. We hang up. Im feel weird when i speak with him right now. I think he could never choose me if im blind.

I wear a jeans and a blue jacket." Jungkook... U not going with me, right?", i ask. He was doing his work but suddenly look at me." Where?", he ask." To the hospital...", i said." Owh..im forget..its okay if u alone?", he ask yes im okay..",i said.

I go to the hospital. I dont know why but if i saw something bright, i will like dizzy." Kira...", the nurse call me." Dae?", i ask." Doctor Jeon is waiting for you as usually...", she smile." Thanks..", i bow a bit and go to the room." Annyeong...", i said." Owh Kira...sit here...", he said. He check my eyes. After that he gave me some advice.

Suddenly he ask." Kira..are u orphan?"." Yes i am....", i ask." Where was your parents? U had a brother or not?", he ask." I heard that my parents die and i leave with my aunty until im 15 , i work and at 17 i buy a house...yes i have a brother...", i said." Owh i see...about ur fees surgery...i will pay it...", he smile." But...kenchana..i will pay it by myself...", i said." Release ur tention and get some fresh air...i will pay it..okay? Now..go get ur medicine...ur next apppointment will be on the next friday.. ", he said." Gomawo..", i bow and go to take my medicine." Should i pay it?", i ask the nurse." No..doctor say ur medicine is free for you..", she answer. I put it in my bag and go get some fresh air.