Before You Leave
Description
Scandal upon scandal, lawsuit upon lawsuit. It's clear that SMentertainment's stocks are taking a massive blow. Desperate and blinded by greed, they ask for the reappearance of a girl whose talents could possibly pull them out of their rut. When the ex-SM trainee reappears from seemingly nowhere, all of SM is on their toes. Not only has her appearance collected envy and curiosity from the SM rookies, but has brought past scars and secrets back to the surface. After her hasty debut, soaring fame and fast growing popularity, tension grows between old and new. Even more so when she is instructed to play the part of DBSK's Shim Changmin's loving new girlfriend for publicity's sake. Cool, calm, collected and strangely charming, she’s everything any girl could possibly want to be. Or is she?
"I Never asked you to love me. I only asked you to play your part."
Foreword
I never wanted to be a lover. Love was something I’d never thought much about before, something that was just there. Not that I’ve never loved anything. I love too many things to count with just my fingers and toes. I just never wanted to love someone I didn’t have to love. I knew myself, I knew who I was, and I love me. I was just fine with that. It was all I needed. All I wanted.
But being with him, having him, changed me in a way I’m scared to acknowledge. In the morning when I awake, I reach out to find him even though he might not be there. And the moment I open my eyes, I look for him, even though I might not find him beside me.
Truthfully, when I catch myself searching for him, I become more and more frightened. It’s not something I’ll ever say to him, or to anyone, but I’m scared of needing him, wanting him. I know myself, I know who I am, and I love me. I should be fine with that. It’s all I should need. It’s all I should want.
So when he tells me he love me, tells me how much he needs me, I hide my transparent heart in my hands, swallow the truth, and tell him that I don’t love him.
Pray he may never know my lie.
A U T H O R ' S N O T E
Warning, if you are weak hearted and cry easily, this is not for you. Expect tear jerking and frustrating scenes where you'll want to yell at the screen. Feel free to pretend that you're the female lead if you really want... Wow, I'm boring. With that, I'm out.
With Love,
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