That night as Selina lay in bed,she have been thinking about what Jiro said.To go with him and leave Alex.She hope it is easy,but deep in her heart,she knows it is never easy.Marriage is a complicated thing.You just don't walk away with a single mistake,you have to try and try to make it work,until there is no more hope left.Is there any chance for her and Alex,anything at all.Is it really over?Or there is still a glimpse of hope to reconsider.

There is also a matter of Samantha.She knows Jiro will love Samantha as his own,maybe more than Alex but the fact still remains that Alex is Samantha's Father and not Jiro.But the blood relationship will be more than enough than a true loving relationship is?Thus affinity by blood is enough to make you closer or make you love more the other person than the other.And will Alex just give up Samantha,no she does not think so.Much less allowed Samantha to live in States away from him.That will be too cruel.He may be at fault here but he does not deserve to be away from his daughter, admit it or not,Alex has been a good father to her.He may not be the ideal one but he loved and adore that little girl.

In her heart right now,there is no question,Jiro is the one on it right now.Will it ever change?Just like before when she have Alex there now replaced by Jiro.Is Jiro her one true love?The intensity and the level of love she have with them is different.One cannot be compared by the other.Can she live with Jiro without feeling a sense of guilt,knowing she gave up her marriage for him....

So many questions,so many things tangles.It is not easy to divorce some body.There are people involve her family,his family, their friends,her job that she have worked for and Samantha's friends and school.

Give this all up,everything,just to be with Jiro?What about Jiro,he is still young.Am I not robbing him off for his own chance of happiness, for a better or more suitable girls for him,single and without extra baggages to carry ,like a kid.Is it fair to saddle him with responsibility at this early age.My case is different ,it is of my own doing,but him..just because he happens to love me....It does not seem fair for him..He is still young,there is a lot of open doors for him.He needs to enjoy life ,not get stuck with her.I don't want him to have regrets later on.

He will forget me,in due time he will forget me.Although the chance of forgetting him is still...up in the air...maybe in due time.They said time heals all wounds.Maybe she will or maybe she wont....How come it hurts so much?It hurt so much that it almost crippling her.It hurts more to part from Jiro,than the fact that Alex betrayed her.How come she feels like sometimes,she does not feel like living anymore because she can't be with him.How come her emotions are so strong.It is not right and it is not logical.Who say that love is logical,it is always impossible and illogical,that is why the world is in chaos.Like her life is in chaos.

Tears started to come again,when will this thing stop.Once you cry,they won't stop,until you are all dried out,until they squeezed the last drop of you.She hated herself now for being so weak.Where is the strong and confident Selina that used to exist?She hoped ,she did not go to oblivion.

Jiro lays in bed,thinking about Selina.thinking about his proposals.Seeing Alex with Cindy really angered him.He gave up Selina thinking she will be happier with Alex,with Samantha,with her own family.And what did Alex do,he just threw it all away.He can't leave her now.He can't live in the other part of the world thinking that Selina was unhappy and lonely and alone.She just have to say yes.I will make her happy.I can make her happy,more than Alex can.

How did he ends up loving her,loving her more than his life itself.He does not know.It just happened,and we never planned it this way.How can loving someone hurt so much?It hurt so much now,because he can't hold her in his arms at night and he will be waking up in the morning,without her face smiling at him.Maybe just maybe ,she will say yes,maybe this pain will go away....maybe they will have a chance for their own happiness....