The cold air feels good.  Feels like it might help stop my heart from racing.

I’m not sure I’ll ever understand what really happened back there.

Hyung wasn’t warning me.

It was almost like he was asking me not to.

It doesn’t matter though.

I promised myself a year ago that I would be the friend, the man, that Daesung deserves.

What Hyung said today – that it’s me, always me – was more than I ever expected to know.

He may not be in love with me.  But he loves me.  He relies on me.  He needs ME.

What more do I need?

Certainly nothing I can think of.

I do know one thing.  I’ll never let him down.  I’ll always want to be there for him.

If that means letting go, once and for all, then that’s what I’ll do.

Enough.