My schedule was packed, I bearly had time for myself and relax. I see my band members every so often to catch up. I feel more relaxed around them, and feel like I can act like myself with them. They are the closest people to me, besides my mother, but I feel like I'm missing something. Sometimes I feel like I'm searching for something, but I'm not sure what. Maybe I should just stay busy, i think after, maybe it's better to keep a distance, maybe it safer for me, I don't want to get hurt like before...

   Sure I act goofy and cute sometimes for the fans, not to mention around my other members because I want to break the tension. Everybody is just soo busy and stressed all the time from work and I just want to help them. They are my dongsaengs and I do worry for them sometimes. I want to relieve their stress and let them enjoy life as they should.Today I'm happy I will finally meet up with my dongsaengs after the fan meeting-- 

   "TOP! We have to go! We're going to be late!" Screamed my manager suddenly from downstairs. 

   "Aish here goes another busy schedule." I sigh as I turned away from the mirror and walk downstairs. "Ya! Ya! I'm coming already!" 

   I get into the van and where my team is already waiting for me, since we're running late my make up artist does my make up along the ride. I close my eyes and sit still as can, I feel her hand movements, swift and quick she is finishing in a few minutes. Luckily I changed into my outfit before I left the house, if not that would of been to awkward for me, since I am too shy.

   We arrive and I am immediately ambushed by paparazzi trying to take my pictures, I put on my shades and walk into the building where 1,000 lucky fans get to meet me and get my autograph. They were chosen from a big group of VIP's as winners from a contest my entertainment company, YG, held. I'm not sure why I did this though, I love my fans and all, but I just felt like hiding in a hole today. 

   Their screams sorround me and some begin to cry, it feels weird often when they do that, I'm still trying to get used to that I guess, being famous and all....

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A/N: Hi! So the first chap is up! Honestly guys tell me what you think?! 😊😓 Sorry if it's short! This TOP pov mostly, but I will occasionally switch to girl pov~ I wanted yall to get a little taste what the fic will be like, I'm gonna try to wait a bit before I update again till I get more subscribers 😜 So please share with others, comment and subscribe! Gomawo! 😁💕 Oh once i get this fic all up and running ill probably be updating it once or twice a week~ 🙌 Kkkkk I'll try to do my best oh and I'm updating from my phone so sorry if it looks weird or if there is any grammar probs too tnx 😜