Without care of my feelings

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In Gi Kwang`s house..

Gi Kwang brushed the back of his hand along Rainie`s arm and rested his chin on her shoulder, lying behind her.. He smiled to himself

'Mmm.. I feel soo good.. I want her to be mine .. she is so nice with me.. We have so many things in common.. Like we were meant to be together.. Like everytime when i smile she smiles back on the same way.. The joy in her eyes is the same like in mine.. Her lips match with mine.. So..? What im still waiting?' he thought and patted Rainie`s arm

She looked back and smiled "Whats wrong boo?" she asked and frowned a little
"Do you want to be with me?" he asked and kissed her shoulder
Rainie`s eyes widened "What? You.. You want us to be together? Really?" she asked and grinned "Sure.. I want..."
"Really?" he grinned too and wrapped his arms around her "You will be my girlfriend.. i told you, right? Ha.. Now i can see.. that you are mine" he said and lightly bite her shoulder
Rainie giggled "Ahh... Dont be so confident... I can say ' no'"
"And you will end , dying in the pool.. are you still confident about saying 'no'?" he asked and lifted his eyebrows
"Aishh..." she mumbled and turned herself against him "You will kill me huh?"
"Yeah.. why not?Who will understand.. you are foreign girl who just came here for fun.. No one knows you here" Gi Kwang said and winked at her
"Ahh.,. But... You wont kill me right? Couse im good girl.." Rainie said and blinked few times sweetly "Cmoon baby... dont kill me.."
"Mmm.. Let me think" he said and rolled his eyes on the ceiling "I`ll say.. okay"
"Yeii" Rainie shouted and laughed "so... We are together huh? Its.. Its cool.."
"Yeah.. very cool" he replayed and looked back at her "and you will stay longer here , right? Couse i think that when you go back i Taiwan.. you will dump me"
"Dont think about that now... Im here right? Thats important now... Soo... Just kiss me" Rainie said and smiled
He nodded and leaned to her face "I will do that most of the time.. dont worry baby" he mumbled and placed one soft kiss on her lips
Rainie grinned and hugged him "Mmm... I agree"
"Okay .. lets go in the pool now.. i will teach you to swim" gi Kwang said and sat up "Prepare to die now"
Rainie laughed "Im ready boo" she said and stood up

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Next day...

Hye Kyo went in one shop and started walking forward , looking for some stuffs

'Hm.. Eun Hye likes chocolate.. she will became fat if she continue eating candies.. But if that will make her happy.. i will buy her everything' she thought and sighed deeply 'I feel sooo tired from this.. i cant even write in my diary anymore.. couse i dont have time for myself.. i surely look ugly right now.. but whatever.. no one watch me'

"Can you reach the chocolate for me ,please" she said as she felt someone`s presence next to her
"Of course lady" one boy said and took one chocolate "Your welcome" he said and handed it to her
Hye Kyo smiled and looked up to see the person and her smile frozen.. she stared at Jun Hyung who didnt notice her and frowned
"Thanks" she said coolly and stared up at his face
Jun looked down at her and tilted his head.. He slid down his glasses and smirked "Hye Kyo... What a great meet"
"Mm.. right" she replayed and gulped

'Im stopping myself from hitting your stupid face right now.. so its really a good meeting' she thought and took the chocolate from his hands

"So.. how are you?"
"So.. Im cool.. What about you?" Jun asked and smiled to her
"um.. Im not feeling very well, because of some .. But im cool" Hye Kyo said and lifted her eyebrows "Its early.. i thought you are one of the guys who went in clubs, get drunk and sleep till afternoon.. you surprised me" she said and smiled too
Jun Hyung laughed "So... Not every night is party Hye Kyo... There are some days for work" he said and smiled "Im going to my job... But im starving"
"And you will eat chocolate? or other candy?" she said and laughed
"Heeey... I love candy.. Dont make fun of me..." Jun said and shook his finger in front of her face "And.. yeah.. I will eat chocolate... But i dont know what exactly to buy.. Show me something good"
Hye Kyo tilted her head and nodded

'you are acting cute.. I wonder how you can make me laugh after what you did to my best friend..' she thought and sighed deeply

"This one is cool" she said and pointed at one kind of chocolate "Its with strawberries .. If you like strawberries you should buy this one"
Jun nodded and smiled "If you said that its good.. I will taste it" he said and took one of the chocolates "Thanks"
"You have to buy bunch of these to feed yourself well" she laughed and took another chocolate and handed it to him
"Mm.. right" he said and took it "Thanks again" he winked at her and smiled.. Jun looked at his wristwatch and lifted an eyebrow "Do you have some work?"
"Well.. I think i have to relax.. so no.. i dont have" she said and smiled
"Cool.. couse i have time.. So.. Do you wanna go to drink some coffee?" Jun asked and lifted an eyebrow
"Why not" Hye Kyo replayed and turned her back to him "Lets go"

'My first meeting with him after the disaster.. So.. He is acting very nice.. i bet this is part of his game' she thought and screw her eyes

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In some cafe...

"So.. I didnt see you from long.. Whats happen with you?" Jun asked and smiled to her "I think.. I never talk with you"
"Thats your problem.. Im talking with everyone who is nice with me.. Just like now with you" Hye Kyo said and grinned
Jun nodded "You are right.. Its my problem... So... Sorry for this.. Just im little lost in my mind sometimes"
"Mmm.. Its good that you recognized me then" she said and laughed
"Of course.. I know you well...Just im not talking much with you" Jun said and drunk from his glass "So.. tell me something about you?"
"Im very calm and i dont smile much.. I dont like cold people and i like smiling boys.. They look cute" Hye Kyo replayed and tilted her head

'So.. I have to smile much' Jun thought and smiled

"Thats cool... Aaand.. Why you dont like to smile?"
"i dont have reason to smile most of the time.. i cant smile like crazy.. and i guess my life is too boring or i dunno" she said and frowned a little
"I think you just didt find the right person who will make you happy... Thats your problem girl.. You dont have time for searching" Jun replayed and nodded "Just look around... There is so many people who surely are fixing their looks on you, waiting you to understand what you want"
"Yeah.. Maybe" she said and smiled "Thanks for the advice"

'But i will think about it.. Couse after all.. its comes from your mouth' she thought and lifted her eyebrows

"Oww.. Hye Kyo.. Its so cool to talk with you but i have to go.. Maybe we can go out some other time?" he said and smiled at her
She nodded and grinned "Of course..We will.."
"Cool.. " Jun said and stood up "Bye now couse im really late" he said and started walking out of the cafe.. He took out his phone and dialed Gi Kwang`s number

"Do you know who i met? No? I will tell you.. Hye Kyo.. This still doesnt know me well.. So.. she will get used with me.. Couse she is really hot.. Yeah.. I will her.. From where i know that she will do it with me? Ahh.. You still dont know me well... " he said and smirked "She will be mine..."

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After 2 weeks

Meisa was sitting in front of her Tv staring at some show... From 2 weeks she didnt meet with Doo Joon and somehow.. she feels very well from this...The last conversation with him was awful and Meisa didnt want to remember it...
Now she just wanted to relax after everything... All of the information was from Rainie who now was girlfriend of Gi Kwang...

"Dont watch this .. Give me the remote control" Gi Kwang shouted at Rainie and frowned
"No in way.. I told you.. I like this boy... Meisa too.. So.. You will watch it" She said and giggled
Meisa stared at them and frowned "Ahh.. kids.. can you shut up... Its interesting.." she mumbled and stared back at the TV
"Yeah.. ers who just show cool bodies.. and this is interesting" Gi Kwang replayed pouting and rolled his eyes away from the TV
"Shht boo.." Rainie said and kissed his cheek
"Im going to eat something" he said and stood up "now you can tell Meisa how cool is the guy with the black shorts" he mumbled and walked away
"Dont be jealous" Rainie shouted after him and laughed
Meisa rolled her eyes and sighed deeply "How is your relationship?"
Rainie gave her a look and smiled "Cool.. I think he likes me more than i thought"
Meisa nodded "Cool.. I think.."
"Yeah.. its cool.. What about Doo Joon? Does he call you?" Rainie asked and frowned a little
"Yeah..But i still dont want to talk with him.. Everything that he told me ... It makes me feel awful... And i think.. i dont want to see him for now" Meisa said and looked at Rainie
"But... What about the plan? If you dont want to see him then how he can fell for you?" she asked as her frown deepened
"Calm down.. I will do it.. Just i need more time.. to forget... Couse it was... it was scary.. For a second i felt like i was Eun Hye.. Like i hear everything that she heard and... And i just dont want to see this cold face again... Not for now.." Meisa said and rolled her eyes on the Tv again "But.. For her i will do it... Dont have doubt of me"
Rainie nodded "Okay..."

"Rainie? I cant find anything cool.. Come and make something for me , pleeeeeeeeeaseee" Gi Kwang shouted sweetly from the kitchen
Rainie giggled and shook her head " I will go"
"Okay.. go" Meisa replayed and move up the volume
Rainie stood up and started walking to the kitchen "Im coming boo"
Meisa sighed deeply and closed her eyes for a second

'Ahh.. They looks happy.. But they dont have to be,., Couse that is not real... Thats something fake... So.. Maybe i dont have to look at them like something very sweet and happy... Yeah.. for sure..' she thought and looked at the TV again ' Ahh.. Even this show cant make me happy... I feel really stupid after this conversation with Doo Joon.. He is really mean... Iv never seen such hate in someone`s eyes.. So... maybe i can see if i look at myself in the mirror... Couse surely i hate him more than he hate Eun Hye... So.. Soon i have to go back in the game.. Couse now i loose more time... ' she turn off the Tv and leaned back on the couch... She heard laughing from the other room and that made her to cover her ears ' them' she thought and sighed deeply
Suddenly her phone vibrate and Meisa looked down at it.. It was message from Doo Joon,... again...She shook her head and throw her phone aside 'Not yet.. Im not ready yet..'
Her phone vibrated again.. and again.. Meisa rolled her eyes and shook her head
"What you want" she shouted and took her phone

~I dont know if you still have my number..
but i will keep doing this..
Mei Mei.. please dont be so cold..~

Meisa rolled her eyes and shook her head 'How ? Ahh Doo Joon ,you fool... How can you be so rude... you' she thought and opened the second message

~Hey.. its me again..
I just wanted to tell you that im in the park
where we were in our first date..
One kid came to me and told me that i look gangsta..
She wanted to walk around with me but her mother rejected her..
She is crying right now.. Thats why i thought about you..
Again.. and again.. Where are you Mei Mei?~

Meisa bite her bottom lip and looked aside 'Mei Mei huh? It sounds cute...Ahh... He is crazy.. What he is trying to do? To take me back?' she shook her head and opened the last message

~Hey you.. i keep thinking about you..
I miss you Mei Mei... i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
i miss you.. i miss you.. i miss you..
and.. i just miss you :(~

Meisa`s eyes widened.. She gulped and throw her phone aside
'No .. he is crazy for real.. Surely i have to be happy couse it seems like he is felling for me.. But why im not? I feel stupid.. Like he is hurting me... I dont have to feel like that... I dont want to... Maybe my relaxing days are over... Maybe finally i have to go back in the game.. Couse this is making me crazy for real.. This message... Its... Its so sweet... I feel like i know that he is lying me.. But from where i can know that... Its stupid.. And no one have to understand how i feel now... Couse if Hye Kyo understand.. She will say that im stupid to believe in him.... And thats true... So... I wont show anything and i will do everything like i thought from the start... For Eun Hye... For her..' she thought and took her phone again...

~So... These days im thinking about you...
And your words...
Maybe im not right to be mad at you...
Couse after all... You are not telling these s to me..
And yeah.. i miss you too...
And... Go and hug this kid...
She need it..~

Meisa send it to Doo Joon and leaned back on the couch

' me.. '

Her phone vibrated again and Meisa looked at it .. It was Doo Joon again.. She opened the message and sighed

~I did it.. And her mother take her away..
So she is still crying.. Whatever..
I cant believe that you text me back..~

~Why not... Long time no see..
I think it was enough...~ Meisa send to him and frowned to herself.. She received the replay fast

~Do you really miss me?
Like.. you want to see me?~

Meisa`s frown deepened.. She tilted her head rereading the message again and again...
'Do i wanna see you? Ahh .. .. Why i have to feel like that.. so stupid... I think.. I dont have to think about that... I just have to say 'yes'.. without thinking..' she thought and took her phone again

~Yeah.. I wanna see you..
I told you...
I miss you~

Gi Kwang went back in the room and leaned to Meisa from behind
"Who are you writing to?" He said playfully and winked at her "Tell me your address"
Meisa stared at him with wonder "And.. Why i have to?"
"Because .. My friend who you dont want to see want to come.. But dont tell him that i told you,okay?" he said and looked around
Meisa rolled her eyes and shook her head "You are right,.. I dont want to see him.. So.. Take the address from Rainie.. " she said and small smile came on her face
"I cant.. He said : 'Ask her for her address.. if she doesnt tell you.. go away'.. so i dont have to ask Rainie, couse its your choice" Gi Kwang said and pouted "Cmoon.. I didnt see my friend from a while too"
Meisa nodded "You can see him everytime.. Why you have to do it in my house?" she asked and lifted an eyebrow
"Isnt it obvious?" he replayed and lifted an eyebrow too "so.. Do you want to see him or not? I want to go back and eat but i have to call him back.. So tell me what is your choice" he said and rested his elbows on the back of the couch
Meisa sighed deeply and looked at him "Okay..." she said and smiled "Tell him to come.."
"Fine" Gi Kwang grinned "i will ask the address from Rainie, Bye Meisa" he said and run back to the kitchen
She stared at his back and shook her head
"Fool" she mumbled and bite her bottom lip.. Grin came on her face and she jumped on the couch...
'Surely.. I look very stupid now.. But.. Im happy couse i will see him.. Its wrong i know.. But.. After all... Im happy now... Ahh Doo Joon.. How can you make me fell for you.. Ahh...i Hate him for real... But i know one thing... Without care of my feelings.. You will be down in the end...'

Soon the doorbell rang and Gi Kwang run out of the kitchen along with Rainie.. He opened the front door and grinned
"Hey bro.. i forgot your face,man" he shouted happily and hugged Doo Joon
He frowned and patted his back
"You slept in my place before 3 days.." he said and pulled back
"but im used to see you and Jun everyday.. fine.. i wont be happy" Gi Kwang replayed and pouted
"Dont pay attention on him boo.. He is cold-hearted " Rainie said and hugged Gi Kwang from behind
"no he is not.. you dont know my friends" he replayed and frowned
Doo Joon rolled his eyes and sighed deeply.. He entered the house and walked slowly to the living room followed by Gi Kwang and Rainie who entered the kitchen still arguing about Doo joon..

'So.. my heart is beating like always-fast.. and more faster.. she is there.. and i hope she is okay now.. Two weeks without her were.. strange.. Like i missed something.. Spending time with her was changing something in me.. i was happy' he thought and entered the big room.. He looked forward and stared at the couch.. He saw Meisa`s back and gulped 'what i have to say now? sorry? hi?i really dont know anymore'

He walked closer and stood behind her ,silent.. his heart started beating more faster as he wondered what to tell her
"Mei Mei?"
Meisa bite her bottom lip nervously and slowly turned back.. She stared at his pretty face and sighed deeply

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'Ahh.. I didnt see him from long and now i think he looks very beautiful' she thought and smiled to him

"Hey.."
He stared at her face and stayed still , like her look frozen his mind and acts.. He nodded and blinked few times,staring at her

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'She looks like angel.. she didnt change.. but i see her different now.. in her smile.. there is difference.. she still cant forget my words..' he thought and looked down from her face..

"How are you?" he asked simply and moved around to sit next to her
"Um.. Good.. What about you?" she replayed and sighed nervously
He stared at her face and his lips "why does it have to be .. awkward?"
"I dunno" Meisa said and giggled "Its stupid.."
"Yeah.." seeing her smile made him better.. He smiled back and nodded "It is"
Meisa nodded too "Um... So.. Can.. can i hug you?"
"Sure..you can..if you want" he replayed nervously and lifted his eyebrows
Meisa nodded and moved closer to him.. She hugged him tightly and sighed deeply
"Its nice to see you.. i thought.. that you`re not receiving my messages.. or.. you just didnt want to read them.." Doo Joon said calmly and frowned to himself
"I didnt read them.. Except the last.. " Meisa said and pulled back a little to look at him "I think it was enough..."
He nodded and sighed deeply "Im sorry.."
She nodded "Yeah.. Me too.."
"Im sure you have reasons.. for what you told me.. i deserve it.. So.. dont tell me this now.. i was out of my mind.. But now you know me.. its up to you if you want me around you or not.. I cant say anything more" he said sadly and bended his head down
Meisa stared at his face and tilted her head.. She trailed her hand against his cheek and smiled "Its okay... I can forget it... Just... Dont let me fell for you... I dont want to be like her... Its not fair..."
Doo Joon quickly shook his head and looked up at her face..
"I wont do it with you.. im not lying you" he said and took her hand , pressing it against his heart "I dont want to lie you.. you`re not just a joke for me.. Whatever i did with the other girls.. it wont happen with you" he said honestly and looked down again
Meisa bite her bottom lip and nodded "I will believe you..." she said with low voice and stared deeply in his face "Just dont forget these words.."
"I wrote some of them in the messages.. if you didnt delete them.. you can see that im not lying you.." he said without looking at her and frowned "Can we just... be happy again?"
"I think yeah..." Meisa said as sad look came in her face

'No... We cant be..' she thought and quickly hugged him

He returned to her hug and pressed his cheek against hers "Thank you" he whispered and closed his eyes
Meisa just nodded , letting herself in his hands...

"Oww.. So cute" Rainie said and clapped her hands
"Yeah.. They are cute together.. From the first day.. He said.. the purple girl is mine.." Gi Kwang said and blinked few times with smile on his face "What luck is that? I found you.. he found Meisa.. Like someone sent you here to us.. dont you think that its strange?" he said and grinned "But im happy now.. very" he mumbled and hugged Rainie
"Yeah.. Its like a present from God.." Rainie replayed and giggled
"Yes..I have to thank Him then.. You`re the first girlfriend that i actually like.. Couse you want different from me" Gi Kwang said and grinned
"Yes.. I want very, very different things from you" Rainie said and laughed "Its really strange"
"Lets make something cool" he said and lifted an eyebrow "All together, are you in?"
"Yeah.. I am" Rainie replayed and looked at Meisa and Doo Joon "Hey babies.. Are you in?"
Doo joon pulled back from Meisa and looked at Rainie with wonder
"Is she stupid like him? Couse i cant understand what she is talking now" he said to Meisa and frowned
Meisa laughed "Yeah.. They are the same"
"Mm.. i know how to talk with her then" he replayed and turned to look at Rainie again
"We are in.. whatever you say"
"Okay Doo Joon.. We too" she said and grinned "Cmoon Boo.. Lets go"

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LAter....

"Bye guys.. Me and Rainie will leave you.. Couse she is scared from the monster that is hiding behind the building" gi Kwang said and poked Rainie`s waist
"Heeeey... Im not scared.. couse there is no monster" she shouted and frowned
"Ow its right next to you" Doo Joon said and pointed at Gi Kwang "Dude.. Go and sleep some more.. your eyes are puffy"
"They are not.. aish.. go away" Gi Kwang waved in front of his face and hugged Rainie "LEts go"
"Bye guys" Rainie said and waved to them
"Bye baby" Meisa said and smiled
"Bye Gi" doo Joon said and slid down the window of his car.. he looked at Meisa and smiled "LEts go to my place"
"Lets go" she replayed and looked at the road

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In Doo JOOn`s place

"So.. Its relaxing now..." Doo joon said , lying on his bed and stared at the ceiling "What you think now?"
"mm... Im thinking.. How happy i am now.. Here with you" Meisa replayed and hugged him "Im really happy"
"Then i can say that im more happy than you.. Can you imagine how happy i am?" Doo Joon asked and giggled
"Mm.. No.. Tell me" she replayed and smiled
He rolled himself on top of her and pinched her cheek "Very.. Very happy.. Like never before" he said and kissed the tip of her nose
"Really? Prove it to me" Meisa said and giggled
He lifted an eyebrow and stared at her smiling face "how?I cant prove you with words.. But im not sure that you will want me to prove you with acts.." he said softly and kissed her cheek
"Oww you are wrong.. I want it" Meisa said and pulled him closer.. She pressed her lips against his and kissed him with passion
Doo Joon immediately returned to her kiss and started kissing her more aggressively
"Mm.." Meisa mumbled against his lips and caressed his jaw line
Doo Joon nodded and smile appeared on his face "do you believe me now?" he asked and brushed his hand over her lower stomach, lifting her shirt up
"Yeah... I believe in you" Meisa replayed and trailed her hands against his cheek
Doo joon nodded and stared at her face for a while..

'Im not scared to touch her anymore.. Couse now.. She is not only a stranger girl here with me.. i think now.. she is like.. my girl.. And i need my girl.. i hope that she feel the same about me' he thought and lowered himself down .. He lifted her shirt and kissed her lower stomach 'If she want me the way i want her.. It will be amazing'

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Dailycommenter 98 streak #1
I am trying to find an old story on here but I cannot remember the title so I am going through all the story links I found this sounds interesting and has a nice description Will read soon
summer-star
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Visiting old fics!
summer-star
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Visiting old fics!
fdjkaljgnfdaklgnj #4
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lilovski #5
OMG. I just spent a whole afternoon reading your fic and just finished it. And I loved it. At first I thought it was too messy and complicated, but as the story developed and feelings started to bloomed your story completely captured my whole attention. I'm glad I decided to keep reading it. It was really cool. I reaaaaly love the beastly hotties: Junhyung, Kikwang and Doojoon. Thank you for writing such a moving fic! :D Bye *
Naeyan
#6
Wow it was an amazing story! I like the way they make it up with each other! Almost Meisa an Doo Joon very romantic! Rainie and Gi Kwang was very cute! And it's really surprising to see Eun Hye and Jun Hyung together! Thanks for sharing with us this story, I really like it!
Yeolb2utiful #7
Wah the ending was so cute, the only thing I didn't like is that Junhyung called Dongwoon ugly lmao, Dongwoon is amazingly hot, Jun needs his glasses again. :P I'm so glad you made it a happy ending, and LOL Du Jun doesn't call Gi Kwang ugly anymore lool, I'm glad for him. :P
Yeolb2utiful #8
Omg that chapter was so sweet, I had no idea Jun was so sensitive inside! He had a really good reason for telling them not to trust girls. Du Jun calling Gi Kwang ugly is so funny, I can imagine it happening in real life! :P Dayum, he loves Meisa? Wah I so hope that they do get back together, or that they fully move on... in the beginning I hated them but now that I know what really happened I can't help but pity them. :( Can't wait for the final chapter, and you're very welcome! :D
MireTo
#9
Nope :D 2 chapters more :) thanks for the comment
Yeolb2utiful #10
wah~ PLEASE don't tell me that was the ending?! All four of them are unhappy! T_T I hope they can get back together now that Eun Hye is finally over him... Lol what's not to like? It's got hot guys, cute girls and rated scenes in it; it's like the perfect fanfic! ;)