And here is Sehun's POV as I promised early morning.

You can listen to EXO's Moonlight if you want to or any sad song.

Happy reading :D

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June 9

It was first day of school

And we met again

And it made me happier everyday

He is my bestfriend, Lu Han

I was happy that he still laughed at my not-so-funny jokes

We told each other's secrets as we promised each other

And  I never hid one from him.

There was one time that I started to feel something for him

But I was a coward.

Scared to be rejected and have our friendship stained.

And I can feel he loves someone and that's not me

I lied to him telling I like someone else

But he just smiled

I felt a pang in my heart

Because he didn't care at all

That my heart beats in pain

And it was meant for him 

 

June 23

He forgot to return the book that I lent to him

But I don't need it much anyway.

I had received a phone call from my mother

That my father died

My world crashed down

And tears started to fall in my face

We had an exam the next day

And I failed

I was embarrassed

In front of my classmates

Then I got angry at Luhan

I didn't mean to hurt him

It wasn't his fault

And my heart beats in pain

Because I hurted Luhan

And if something causes pain to him

My heart beats in pain

And it was meant for him

 

August 28

I was giving him glares

I was worried for him

And I was a little bit glad

That he has company

I don't want him to get worried

About my sulky condition

So I hung out with Tao and Kai

And pour it all out at them.

But I missed him

And the pain I felt

And my heart beats in pain

And it was meant for him

 

October 24

I can't see Luhan anywhere

He was nowhere

He was absent for a few days

I asked Lay and Kris where he was

But they didn't answered me

They walked away

And I knew I was a bad bestfriend

I sulked down at the floor

Because I lost my father

Now, I was losing my bestfriend

And my heart beats in pain

And it was meant for him

 

December 23

It was 6 months since my father died

And 6 months since the incident

I saw snow falling outside

But I wasn't in the mood

I called Tao over

Because I needed a friend

We were outside the porch

And I told him what should I do

To get Luhan back

After some talk

I hugged him

And kissed his cheek

At nightime,

I looked over at the dark sky

And

I accidentally break my glass

And that made me nervous

Because I was worried for Luhan

And my heart beats in pain

And it was meant for him

 

 

December 24

It was the day before Christmas

And I decided to reconcile with Luhan

To have a Merry Christmas with him

And wrapped my apology present

And bought a bouquet of flowers

As I also planned to confess to him

But things

Didn't go the way I planned

As I reached their house

His hyung punched me

And told me it was my fault

That Luhan's condition worsened

I didn't understand

Until Xiumin explained to me

That Luhan had a very rare heart disease

And each tear he drops

Means a second taken from his life

And he was crying for 6 months

That was meant for me

My world broke down once more

As he never told me about this

I sulked at the floor

And kept crying

Because it was his last day

His hyung left me at the house

And kept crying and crying

For how a coward I am

For how late I was

For how stupid I was

For not thinking his emotions

I felt he understand

But he misunderstood

I looked at the clock

And it was already past 10 in the evening

I saw my present and flowers

Blooming hope

So I ran to go to the hospital

My legs were giving up

But my soul didn't

I grip the present and flowers so hard

But as I ran

My memories with him flashed right before eyes

Tears just streamed down continously

I burst the door open inside the hospital

I ran to his room

And I opened it with force

He looked at me

With those weak doe eyes of his

And before I could say I love him

He muttered three words in Chinese

Wo ai ni he said

And I was too late

His family crashed down in tears

And so was I

But the difference was

My heart beats in a lot of pain

And it is meant for him