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Listen to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3V_Abx5ov0 or https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVLxRXoLaas

And start reading once the part where the vocal line starts to sing or the vocal line starts to sing respectively.

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June 9

I still remember how we met

We were childhood friends at that time

And it made my life even better.

He is my bestfriend, Oh Sehun.

Oh how I appreciated his company and his jokes, even though it ain't that funny.

We told each other's secrets as we promised each other but I kept one.

Only one but that won't hurt him anyway.

Our relationship was perfect and there was a point that I thought that can we be more than this?

But I was a coward.

Scared to be rejected and have our friendship stained.

And he love someone and that's not me.

I don't want to show that I was hurt when he told me that so I smiled at him that time but deep inside, I was crying.

When I was alone, my tears started to drop.

And it was meant for him.

 

June 23

The time I came home, I forgot to return the book I borrowed from him.

I thought that he won't need it that much so I decided to return it to him the next day.

Turns out his day was worst than I thought to be.

He failed an examination, the teacher embarrassed him in front of the class because he didn't have his book with him

Because its with me.

I said sorry to him after I knew what happened.

But he was angry.

And angry Sehun is a Sehun I don't want to see.

We didn't talked for a week but I knew we couldn't last this long.

Or I thought so.

I was accompanying myself alone when I saw him laughing with our other friends, Tao and Kai.

It looked like he didn't need me or that we were bestfriends for a long time.

The sight caused another tear drop on my face.

And it was meant for him.

 

August 28

Until now, we didn't talk but I can notice his glares at me.

I was with my brother, Xiumin every break time.

And so does Lay and Kris.

They were comforting me.

We had our own faults

And Sehun has his part.

I remembered it all

And that caused me to cry once more

And it was meant for him

 

October 24

Xiumin hyung was becoming worried of my condition

Because the effects were coming out.

My pinkish and fair skin became paler and paler each day.

I lost my appetite to eat.

I couldn't sleep.

My sight was getting blurry.

I collapse at some point.

I was getting weak

Then I remembered Sehun.

He was happy

And if he's happy, I'm happy.

I don't want him to get worried about me.

And it caused me to break down once more

My tears started to drop

And it was meant for him

 

December 23

It was now December

And I saw snowflakes now dropping

But sadly,

We still haven't talked for almost 6 months

And my time was getting nearer

I was about to make the first move

After such a long time

I saw him at his porch

Then started to approach him

Until I saw him kissing someone

And that made run away

I went back to my house

I ran and ran

I wanted to go to my room

But as I reached my house

My breath gets thicker

My chest getting heavier

My heart was giving out

My knees were sloppy

My hands trembling

Then I stumbled

To the ground

The last thing I saw

Was my hyung

Shouting

Crying for help

Then I remembered Sehun

The kiss that I saw earlier

And before I lost consiousness

I let a tear drop

And it was meant for him.

 

December 24

I woke up

In a hospital room

And saw four shadows outside

My hyung entered the room

And my parents came right after

And I saw them crying

He hugged me tightly

I knew what I should do

I told them

To give me a paper

And a pen

And a small bottle

That can be hung around in a neck

At night

My hyung got what I needed

And put it in under my pillow

I saw his hands bleeding

But told me not to worry

Then I started to write.

After finishing writing the letter,

Tears started to stream down on my face

I put some tears on the bottle

And thought of every thing

Me and Sehun did.

The Happy 

And Sad memories

I held the letter on my chest

And my eyes started to feel heavy

I could hear my parents

And my brother

Telling me to wake up

Before I could close my eyes

I saw someone

Barging inside my room

And I knew from that moment

It was Sehun.

But it was too late to talk now

I closed my eyes

Let a tear drop in my face

So I mouthed three words in Chinese

With a smile

And it was meant for him.

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