With heavy steps i drag myself to my apartement. I placed the pink box that she gave on the table, then i throw myself to the couch beside it. I look at my white ceiling pointlessly while my mind wandering think about her again.

What’s wrong with you Tae? Why you doing silly experiment again? Why you run away again? Why you leave me again? Why you doing this again? Did i do something wrong? Did i hurt you? Did i neglect you? Did i—sigh.

I admit Tae.. I’m blind, i’m dumb, i don’t undestand you, but i try to understand you. But why you keep doing this? Why you not saying what you want? Strightforward  with me Tae, don’t be like this.. because i don’t want to indirectly hurt you again.

I can’t say we’re  just a bestfriend, we’re more than that. You’re important for me and i don’t want to lose you, i don’t want you leave me again, i don’t want you run away again, please talk to me, what’s wrong? What’s wrong?! I don’t understand your mixed signal!

Now my eyes feel like burning and i know i’m crying because of you again.

I don’t understand why you doing this again, run away from me and watch me from a far. I know you said ‘I need to run away to know whoever run after me, wait for me, or even didn’t know that i left’, but that’s wrong Tae you couldn’t keep doing that because you know i can’t run after you.

The reason why i always waiting for you comeback, i don’t run after you, i don’t hold you back, i don’t searching you