Slowly as I walked down the lonely road. Listening to the wind as if it's whispering to my ears. Softly touching my porcelain skin, helping me to dry the ruined mascara on my cheeks.

          While carrying the dry roses on my arms past happenings are running through my mind. Tears suddenly started to fall again, sobs attempting to be shouted out, and all I think is to end this.

          All the years I lived, I've been a good daughter and a good friend. I haven't done anything wrong to you to let me feel this emptiness within me.

          You confiscated the man that I loved the most. The man who deeply loves me and truly understands me. Oh dear God, why him?

          Suho ah, are you listening?

          I looked down and stared below me, that will be the reason for my death. I closed my eyes and let the roses fall one...by...one.

          Wait for me.

          I whispered the bittersweet words under my breath. It will sure be painful but I guarantee, I will be happy

           Suho-shi,

           This cliff is not that high but good enough to end my breathing system.

            I stared again the cliff. I should end this right now to already stop all the burdens.

           I'm coming.

Journal entry,
Park Chorong.
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