It’s the first time that I’ve spended almost a month without talking to him I was feeling really bad

*He was thinking about me when he did that right? It was for my own good …*

I went to Xiumin’s house, I rang the door bell then the door opened ,

It was Xiumin, he looked at me not saying a word

“Hi “ I said

“Hi,... oh, come inside” he said still wearing his surprised face

I went inside

“Let’s go to my room” he said

“Oh Luhan!  It’s been a long time” Xiumin’s mother said coming out of the kitchen

“Hi how are you madam?” I said bowing for her

“I’m fine “ she said smiling so wide for me and patting my head gently

We went to Xiumin’s room I wanted to act like nothing happened and Xiumin was waiting for me to talk

I cleared my throat

“Are you going to the party?” I said

“Yes, I’m going and you?”

“Yes, Haneul wants me to go there”

“Do you love her?”

I was surprised for the sudden question I kept silent for few seconds

“I… I..”

“See..” he cutted me off  “I’m sure Haeri popped in your mind when I asked you”

I was true I thought about my feeling for Haeri,

“Haneul is different from Haeri” I said

“You still love Haeri don’t you?”

“No…”

He kept looking at me with doubt I tried to look away but it’s like he is looking through me

“I don’t know… but I like Haneul as much as I can’t give up on her”

“Does she know about Haeri?”

“Of course not! She will think as you if she knew”

“I hope you’re not using her to fulfill your emptiness”

I glared at him, but he is saying the truth *am I using her? …*

“Of course I’m not!!! I like Haneul as Haneul not Haeri” I stood up and went in front of the window looking outside

“I’m sorry Luhan I didn’t mean it”

“It’s okay… I have to go now I’ll see you at the party”

“Okay”

“I’ll come to pick you up” I smiled for him and went out

I felt relieved after talking to Xiumin I missed him so much

Hours later I called Xiumin to come out,  he was wearing a tuxedo, he looked elegant

“Trying to make girls fall for you?? Hahaha” I said

“Hahahah yeah why not?”

I drove to the place where the party was held It was already full of people I looked around,

*She’s not here yet*

“Let’s sit there” he said I followed him

We sat and I kept looking at the door waiting for Haneul

30 minutes later, … She came

My eyes winded, *Haer…Haeri*  She looked exactly the same I distinguished her by her friends I can’t tell whether she is Haneul or … Haeri

Her hair was down and she is wearing a beautiful beige long dress, I stood up

  “I’ll be back” I said the left Xiumin

I walked to Haneul and stood in front of her but she was looking around and didn’t notice me, so she bumped into me

 "Oh! I'm so sorry I didn't.... " she said

"Can I have this dance? Beautiful" I said looking at he

"What about the family gathering?" she asked

"I...I will travel tomorrow …You look very...beautiful" I added and took her hand and dragged her  to the dance floor .

I felt like my mind is not working properly, I can’t think straight

"and you look handsome" She smiled and putted her hand  on my shoulder

 I slipped my arms around her waist , we  were too close, I saw her getting nervous she looked beautiful and cute, I smiled seeing her like this , I kept looking in her eyes then I remembered Haeri  .

I remembered how I used to dance with Haeri, then my body started moving without my orders.

Few minutes later the music changed so we went where her friends were sitting, they kept talking, and I kept thinking Haeri kept popping in my mind and I kept looking at Haneul but I’m seeing Haeri

I looked around and I saw Xiumin, I stood up and went for him

“Let’s go have a drink” I said

We went to the bar

I started drinking and drinking, “stop! You’ll be drank, it’s your third glass” Xiumin said

“I’m very stupid and weak” I said sipping my third glass

“What?? Why??” he said looking at me

“why?? Why!!! Haneul… Haeri… Aaah!!!” I said ruffling my hair

“Stop it people are looking at us” he said taking my glass away

“I don’t care! From all the days why does she have to look exactly the same as her?? When I started forgetting about Haeri, when my feelings started to grow for Haneul…” I looked at Xiumin ‘ I want to see Haeri… I miss her” I mumbled

“Haneul is coming be quiet or she will know everything”

“Where is she?” I said trying to stand up

Xiumin pulled me back to my seat “She is not Haeri , she is Haneul try to remember that”

After drinking two more glasses and getting absolutely drank I went back to the table where Haneul and her friends were sitting

Kris was sitting next to her, I was really angry seeing him next to her so I sat on the other side and putted my arm around her waist and pulled her closer to me and away from

She stiffened when I putted my head on her shoulder,   "relax darling" I whispered while taking her hand and planting a kiss on it.

Her friends went somewhere trying to leave us alone, I got up and looked at her big brown eyes  " I was waiting for you... I thought that you'll never come" then pulled her into a hug

I was seeing Haeri… I can focus or think, looking at her brought memories back and I felt like crying

"I miss you" I said putting my hands on her cheeks then I leaned in giving her a kiss, then I pulled her closer and caressed her long hair, like I used to do to Haeri

Few seconds later I pulled back and hugged her

"Don't leave me, I can't live without you, please tell me that you won't leave me" I said in a crying tone

"I'm here by your side, I won't leave you" she said hugging me back

*Haeri you promised that we will never be apart but you didn’t keep your promise…*

The next day, I woke up due to my headache, I was trying to remember what happened yesterday but I couldn’t, all I remember was when I saw Haneul and how beautiful she looked

“We’re late wake up and get ready our flight is in two hours you have only 30 minutes to get ready wake up NOW!! “ my mother said entering the room and opening the curtains

“I’m already awake” I said getting up

I went to take a shower then I wore my clothes and headed to the living room with my luggage

Before riding the car I took my phone out and called Haneul  

She picked up

"Good morning Luhan" her voice was not normal

"Good morning princess, sorry for waking you up"

"It's okay! When is your flight??”

“In one hour”

“So you’re already in the airport??”

“Yeah, with my parents”

“Oh ! so bad I wanted to see you”

“I’ll come as fast as I can”

Haneul wasn’t normal I was worried, did something happened yesterday?? Why I can’t remember anything??