Love.. what is love for you?

Is it a game that you play

Where I surrender to your rule

Where I play to your pace

Where you play hot and cold

Where you play my heart

And still have me crawling back to you

Love.. for me is something beautiful

But full of so much hurt

The beauty of your smile and laugh is life for me

But the way you move them away from me is a stab to my heart

The way you play the string of my heart, oh so beautifully and so painfully

Make me beg for your love and attention.. crave it.. need it.. live in it

Then you take those away and give them to another person

Expecting me to wait and pretend that I am not dying inside

How long have we danced to this routine

You.. Me.. Her.. and Them

This complicated steps we have

I want to run away from them

Still you always catch me back with your sweet words

Whispered promises that will be broken

Tight hugs that cage me away

Kisses that bind me to you

Loves that you will take away again

Maybe I love the pain

In loving you.. in believing you

I should step away from the very first time

But I come back from more

Cause your love is necessity for me

Your love is my breath

And I feel lost without them

Now.. it happens again

You and I.. we tried to leave this sickening game

And I thought finally..

We can love the right way

No more play.. no more her.. no more them..

Just You and I, together, against the world

I fool myself, don’t I?

I know you but I blind myself with hope

You. Will. Never. Change.

Cause you live with the satisfaction seeing me writhing in pain

Seeing me crawling back to you even after you cast me away

No more.. no more..

No more this push and pull

Go. Go away.

Go to her. Left me behind

Let me breathless

That’s so much better than having a dying heart

Scarred of broken promises and grieves of disappointment

Let me be selfish and love myself more

Your birthday

My last time.. my last kiss.. my last love

My last wish

From me.. for you

I let you go.. I let you fly

To her.. to your other place

And in return let me go

Let me fly away from your cage

Let me find my own happiness

Be happy without me

Happy birthday, Jiyong

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first time writing fic.. kyaa.. >.< there are bound to be mistakes in spelling and grammar.. I don’t know if this good or confusing.. I just want to let it go since last night events..

not going to lie, I feel bitter and upset.. even if I know that’s their life and I should be happy whatever happen and blah blah blah.. cause I have hoped and wanted to believe in nyongtory quite strongly so when the hope is shaken, cannot help but feel bitter.. kkk

It is written to portray Seungri’s though.. it can be right or it can be wrong, the ones who know what happens between them are they themselves.. maybe right now, instead of feeling sad and heartbroken, he is laying somewhere on the beach in Bali, sunbathing, having fun, or maybe charming the ladies.. kkk

I don’t know.. just a little something to let my mind rest.. please do comment.. thank you :D