Difficulties

I wake up the other morning. Taking shower and got ready to deal with my day and went to work.. These days my life became so miserable that I can't even think of a way to make things work for myself....

I only got to work for not more than a week till I got fired because of the haters.. Not the haters to be exact.. They could do that. They should. I am the wrong one now. Whether they keep ruining my work place by screaming and yelling to me or Junsu's family and relatives are going to use their power to make the owner fired me.. They do all they can to get me out of this world.. And I couldn't do anything about it.. I do not deserve to make a choice because this is a debt that I should pay for my sin through the entire of my life..

But this day, it is much sooner than I expected it to be..

"You know what, she shouldn't work here in the first place..", the woman said.

"She was a murderer, a killer. She kill my son. She was so selfish. She never try to understand others.. All she know was she get what she want to... And my poor son did not see that.. He spent his life in vain because of this stupid girl... Because of her, my son died tragically.... MY SON!!!"

And I just stood there not knowing what I should do... I can't defend myself... It is true.. It is the reality that I was the reason why her son die....I only cried wanting he come back so badly so that all of this will not happen to me... He should not saved my life and make my life being miserable like this...........

I returned to my house after being fired.. I made my way to my bed.. I held the frame on a table beside my bed..

He was smiling back then. And he really loved to smile.. But the world these day can't see it. Because of my fault. My mistake. My dumb mistake.. And so, the world will never forgive me...

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yuu_sama #1 Apr 14, 2015 01:52:41

Author-nim? ^^
Where are you?
Are you still there?
I really miss your story so much.........
By the way, good luck for whatever you're doing outside AFF! ^^
I'll always be waiting.

yuu_sama #2 Feb 19, 2015 05:00:31

Chapter 8: Third... perhaps I want to tell you what I was thinking about the "form" of this story. Seriously, I'm fine with the "content" of this story, it's indeed amazing!!! But, if I may give you a few pieces of advice, then perhaps you can pay attention to what you type. Recheck the spelling, grammar or anything that needs to be rechecked. Please, don't get offended. I don't mean to hurt your feelings by any means. For example: "Suh went silence"... I think "Suh" must be "Suho", right? Then "went silence", I think it's better to use "fell silent" instead. Actually, I'm not an English native speaker myself, but learning from AFF authors who are English users has helped me a lot. I will not concentrate on grammatical structures because I basically don't care (hahaha), because I love your story the way it is and correcting grammar isn't my area. But yeah, I did notice some grammatical errors and I also make the same errors in my stories as well. Please, once again, I hope you don’t take this personally because I just want you to know about my opinion.

This story is special and I respect you for writing this. Nothing is perfect in this world, but we always have chances to be better, I believe that. I share this to you because I care, and because this story has a lot of potential to be greater and greater! ^^ Something in this story has emotionally moved me… and that’s why I’ll pay attention to its development in the future. Baekhyun and Jinri, arrgh, I really want them to start understanding each other and falling in love! But I’m also satisfied on the other side, because you didn’t make the story flow too fast! The fact that they’re still awkward to each other is realistic and reasonable, and I LOVE YOU MORE for that, author-nim! So, surprise me, shall you?

yuu_sama #3 Feb 19, 2015 04:59:22

Chapter 8: Author-nim, how are you? ^^
First, I'm gonna say thank you for the update. I know that you'd worked hard for this chapter, so thank you very much for giving this reader something to read~~ :)
Second... wow, this chapter is really full of pain, isn't it? EXO members finally found out what Baekhyun hid, but I couldn't tolerate what they did to Jinri. Why the hell were they still bullying her for something that they should have moved on from!? >.< I know they hate her, but Junsu's death can't always be their excuse to treat her so badly like that. Thank God that Suho was the one who stayed sane among them! It hurt me a lot to read the wedding part. Couldn't they just leave Jinri alone?? They'd gone too much~~! I feel bad for her! And Baekhyun... he did nothing to stand up for her! Okay, I know it's basically an arranged marriage, but still... Jinri was his wife and he should have done something for her! Gaaaahhh, that part really annoyed me! Seriously! I don't know what future holds for them, and since this is your story... I can't wait to be surprised by you, author-nim! ^^ Well, I love the story plot so far! And since I'm a fan of something "painful" like this (oh yeah, I'm a masochist), I give this story FOUR THUMBS!!! ^^

Hanna27 #4 Feb 17, 2015 21:29:24

Chapter 8: yeah!! I love it~ ^_^
UPDATE! UPDATE!

Hanna27 #5 Feb 15, 2015 20:22:43

Chapter 7: this story have a good plots and I'm really like it!!

yuu_sama #6 Jan 26, 2015 09:07:05

Chapter 7: Uwaah~!! >//< I'm so surprised with the so many updates in a row!
Thank you for updating, dear! They're all short and I could get the main ideas of every chapter very clearly.
It... was quite hurting that the whole world put the blame solely on Jinri.
I was wondering. If she didn't want to commit suicide in such complicated situation, then she must be really really really a tough girl. If I was her, I believed I'd try to kill myself... especially when I was the reason why the one I loved died.
And what happened to Baekhyun... I had sympathy for him.
For me, his father only thought of himself and his company instead of his son.
It wasn't completely Baekhyun's fault that he created chaos in the society. It's caused by the so-called fans!! >//< Seriously, I respect Baekhyun here because he stayed calm and maintained his self-control. He accepted his father's words instead of running away, and I was like... "Wow, Baek!!! WTH are you doing!!? You should reject it!!!"
But Baekhyun did it. Accepted it.
And now that Baekhyun was going to marry Jinri, I hope they could protect each other instead of only Baekhyun protecting her~~
This story gave me some feels I couldn't understand~~~ but I think it's mostly sadness?
Good job, author-nim ^^
And thank you for working so hard with these updates. Keep writing~~!! ^0^)/

yuu_sama #7 Jan 21, 2015 06:21:03

Chapter 1: Should I imagine Jinri here as f(x)'s Sulli? ^-^
Or is she an original character with the same name?
Hehehe~~ just want to ask. I have so many feels for Sulli (Choi Jinri), you know.
This fiction has an angst feel~~ so Jinri blamed herself for what happened to Junsu.
Poor her... but she should have watched her steps when she crossed the road.
>w< Urrghh...
She was going to marry with Baekhyun in the end, right?
I'm curious about your ideas in this story. What will happen to both of them~~? <3

Keep writing, author-nim! ^^
Every experience is precious and I'm supportin' you!