I have been dating Jackson for almost 2 years now. We started out wonderful. We took baby steps, knowing that relationships are about trust, honesty, reliability, caring, selflessness, effort, and most importantly... love.

Everyone around us saw us as a 'perfect' couple. We were almost inseparable. We lived at each other's houses basically. We called each other's parents mom and dad.

We always wanted to be together, you couldn't get us away from each other long enough to ask us to do something.

But, we started to somehow drift apart. When Jackson became a JYP trainee, nothing really changed, we still wanted to be together. We called each other everyday, we hung out whenever we could, we still were tightly knit. But, somehow... everything changed in the last 2 months of our relationship.

I found out that Jackson met a girl training and they became closer. I had another friend who was training as well and told me about everything. She sent me pictures and updated me whenever she could. During this time I had tried so hard to get Jackson to do things with me, but he declined. He always said that we was busy with training or had meetings with his future members. I knew about everything though. But, I had prepared myself to end the relationship, but it wasn't easy when it came. That day was painful...

Let me tell you about it...

My last day with Jackson...

Jackson agreed to meet me at a park, a park that we both love and hold close to our hearts. The park we always meet up, where we swing, have fun, sit under a tree or even under stars. Sometimes he shows me his front flip and things he has been practicing. But today isn't one of those days that is going to be filled with smiles. In fact, it will be the most painful day of our relationship. Today I am breaking up with my boyfriend of 2 years. In 4 days it will be 2 years, but I know for a fact we will not make it there.

Sitting on my favorite swing I try going over everything. My heart begins to thump loudly and hornets pound against my stomach. I feel the prickling in my eyes as tears threaten to escape. Nobody is here to watch me in my weak an emotional state.

Swinging back and forth lightly I try to calm my breathing, but it feels almost impossible. With what I am about to do when my soon-to-be ex-boyfriend comes, I am afraid. I am afraid because there will only be one thing for me to do. To run away from this place. To leave all of my memories behind me. When this is over I am escaping to America, where I will restart my life.

"Eun Ae." A familiar voice calls. It's slightly raspy and very masculine. It's Jackson.

My head shoots and my lips roll in, making a tight line. "Jackson..." I whisper sadly.

"You said it was urgent so I rushed here. It's my day off so-" I cut him off.

"Jackson." I begin. "We need to break up. That's why I asked you here today. I have watched us over the last 2 months and we are simply drifting apart. Believe me I don't want this but I don't have a choice." My voice breaks. "Jackson, I love you, I do. But I don't believe you feel the same way. I have a friend that trains at JYP and she showed me pictures of you and another girl. I broke when I saw those. And, you don't visit me anymore, or call me, or text me..." I feel the tears escape their prison and run down my warm cheeks. "Jackson, I can't tell you how many times I text you, try to call you, but you n-never respond." I pause to catch my breath. "A-and I know in 4 days it's 2 years for us, but we can't make it. Jackson... I'm sorry. But, I'm breaking up with you. Good-bye." I burst into tears and stand up.

Trying to walk away a strong hand grabs my wrist, leaving tingles on my skin. "Eun-Ae. I don't know what you're talking about. I'm not cheating on you with anyone. I would never." I hear sadness in his voice. "Eun-Ae you're my first love. But, I am a trainee. I don't have a lot of time for things now. Right now all I literally have time for is training, sleeping, eating, and bathing. On my days off I want to hang out but-" I cut him.

"But nothing Jackson. I haven't gotten anything from you. Jackson I love you, but I just can't do this anymore." I burst.

I free myself from his strong grip and sprint away. I risk turning back to look at his face, I instantly regret it. His face looks just as broken and hurt as mine and I swear from this distance I can see glistening tear drops.

Good-bye Jackson...

Jackson's P.O.V.

I have been waiting to see Eun-Ae for a while. I have been so busy with training that I don't even have enough time to reply to her. I have strict orders to only call family, unfortunately. It hurts me actually. I want to talk to her but my schedule just doesn't allow it. Today is my day off, so I am super excited to talk to Eun-Ae. I want to explain to her and tell her about everything. Training is hard and to be honest, I want to debut so badly to show Eun-Ae just how hard I have been working. I feel bad since I haven't had enough time to go visit her. but, I have spoken to a few people and they said that they would give me a few more days off since I have been working very hard the last few weeks. I can't wait to tell Eun-Ae. I even have something planed for our 2 year anniversary. I plan on taking another picture with her in a couple outfit. I secretly bought us a couples outfit for that day.

Walking into the park it doesn't take me very long to find her. I walk over to her quickly, but I slow down when I notice something off about her. Her head is down and her breaths are very uneven. She sounds like she's crying?

"Eun-Ae!" I call over to here.

When she looks up there is pain on her face. Her lips are rolled into and form a strait line. Her eyes are glossy, she looks like she is ready to cry. "Jackson..." I hear her whisper.

"You said it was urgent so i rushed over here. It's my day off so-" I get cut off.

"Jackson." She begins. "We need to break up. That's why I called you here today." As soon as those words left her lips I felt myself slowly and painfully become undone. "I have watched us over the last 2 months and we are simply drifting apart. Believe me I don't want to do this but I don't have a choice." Her voice begins to break. "Jackson I love you, I do. But, I don't believe you feel the same way." Those words stab my heart and cause a familiar prickle behind my eyes. "I have a friend who trains at JYP and she showed me pictures of you and another girl."

What? I was never with another girl...

"I broke when I saw those. And, you don't visit me anymore, or call me, or text me..." A tear runs down her red cheeks. It takes everything I have to not break down into my own tears. "Jackson I can't tell you how many times I text you, try to call you, but you n-never respond." she stutters, losing her composer. "A-and I know in 4 days it's 2 years for us, but we can't make it. Jackson, I'm sorry. But, I'm breaking up with you. Good-bye." She bursts into tears and stands up.

As she trys to walk away I grab her wrist, ignoring those amazing sparks, trying to stop her. "Eun-Ae. I don't know what you're talking about. I'm not cheating on you. I would never." I can't help but allow the sadness to over-come my voice. Eun-Ae you're my first love. But, I am a trainee. I don't have a lot of time for things now. Right now all I literally have time for is training, sleeping, eating and bathing. On my days off I want to hang out but-" She cuts me off yet again.

"But nothing Jackson. I haven't gotten anything from you. Jackson I love you, but I can't do this anymore." She bursts right then.

She frees herself and runs off. My composure breaks and tears flow from my eyes. My breaths become uneven as the pain of her words sink it. "It's my fault..." I whisper. The tears continue, so I sit down on her favorite swing and grip the chains tightly, right where she always would place her hands.

That was the day I lost my first love... Park Eun-Ae