" MASON?! "

I picked him up and hugged him as tight as I could.
Found you.

" NOONA, LET ME GO! "

He squirmed in my arm and before he could get away, I tied the end of my dress to his hand.
Luckily I wore pants on the inside.
Now he can't get away.
But he wasn't running away. In his arms were a bunch of picked flowers, slowing wilting and I could see him trying to hold his tears.

  " Noona, my flowers. You squished them. Aish. "

He sighed as he dropped his head.

" Yah. How could you care about the flowers now? How could you leave like that? Do you know how worried I was, Mason? "

I asked him, crouching to his level.
From the corner of my eye, I saw Joon fidget awkwardly.

" I came out to take these flowers and you destroyed them, noona! "

Mason screamed before bursting out in tears.
I panicked for a little and then I eyed a flower shop.
I told him I could buy him new flowers if he was really that unhappy.
He sulked.

" Daddy says mommy likes flowers. He says mommy only likes flowers that are picked. It's mommy's birthday today. But the flowers are destroyed. "

Mason slowly told me as he hiccuped on his sobs.
I softened.
How could such a young child be so lovely?
I pulled him into a hug and kissed his crown.

" Mason-ah, I'll go follow you pick some more flowers, okay? "

I asked him and he happily nodded.
I signaled Joon to follow us and he just shrugged.
Mason egged me on and we reached a park where there were many flower bushes.
I helped Mason picked a few while he patiently picked the rest.

When I look at Mason, I feel filled.
Like I'm happy and excited when he's around.
He's the definition of happiness.
It's not a wonder how Khun could live.

I want a kid like Mason.
But a person like me, how could I have such an angel?

After collecting enough flowers, Mason got really tired.
It's normal for kid his age though so I carried him up.
Joon did offer to carry him but I didn't let him.
I almost died thinking we will never see Mason again. 

Reaching my doorsteps, Khun was already waiting outside my door.
He took Mason from me and thanked me.
Before he got away, I pushed the bouquet of messily picked flowers in his arms. 

" The whole day Mason ran off and we tried to find him. Turns out he's been picking out flowers for his mommy. He said it's his mommy's birthday today. "

I softly said as I brushed the sweat off Mason's forehead.
Nichkhun seemed surprised but he smiled wide.
I knew he wanted to cry but he held it in. 

Deep inside, I know, Nichkhun is just like me.
Just a young kid who grew too fast for our age.
He had to grow up because he's a father.
I had to grow up because I have to grow myself up.
I knew that Khun wanted to be carefree like young adults should be.
But I know too that he'd rather do this with Mason.
Live life with Mason that to live wildly but meaninglessly alone. 

" Tell Victoria that I wished her a Happy Birthday. "

I whispered to Nichkhun as I gave him a goodbye peck on the cheek.
He smiled and gave me one as well and a nod as he walked off.
It's the first time I said his late wife's name.

No wonder he had to rush somewhere without Mason.
He definitely went to go to Victoria's grave.
Mason doesn't know his mommy is gone, he thinks his mommy went to work far away.
I just wishes it was true.

The pain such a small little boy go through.
He would always ask me how does a mommy acts or what a mommy does.
And I am someone that replacement of a mother for him. 

I turn around to get back into my apartment when I noticed Joon.
Oh, . I forgot him. 

" Uh, thanks for finding him. Sorry for screaming at you just now. I was just a little worried you know. "

I explained and he just smile.
That cheeky smile of his.
Ah, this guy. I waved goodbye and was about to close my door when I heard him talk to me.

" I don't even know your name. " He pouted.
It was crazy adorable but I couldn't say that out.

" Minji. " I said, soft but loud enough for him to hear and smile again.