“I beg so that my prayers can reach the heavens
I hope for this cruel love that I can’t stop anymore”

- a winter story (the one)

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He walked his foot nowhere. His view was so empty but we could see there were tears on his eyes. He tried to hold back the tears to not fall wetting his pale skin. His tiny pink lips was quivering. With his unsteady step, he followed where his footsteps would take him because he didn't know where he was going. All he knew was someone told him about his currently condition. And how to convince himself that he was okay –he was not okay. 

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" God, I know You hear me. Please, give me a second chance to meet him again. Eventhough it just for a while ."

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" I know fairy tale doesn't exist. But please, let me be selfish for wanting a happy ending eventhough i know i will not going to have it. "

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" Am I being selfish because in fact, i never can stop loving you ? Am I being selfish to still loving you ? "

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" I know this is so wrong, but can I have him for once ? Just this once until I'm gone .. "

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"You know what i wished back then ? I wished we would be together forever. I will always love you eventhough I'm not in this world anymore. I wished we would spend time together. Reminisce about our lives. How we met when the first snow fell. How do we start our love story. How we started our childish quarrels. How can we reunite.  I wished we share the warmth in the winter. Sharing the saddness and happiness.  I wished we could be like that when the first snow fell. And you, did it. Im very grateful for that. Thank you very much. But on top of that, I am also doing my wish. To make confession to you that i never regret to meet you, to know you, to love you. Thank you ."

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" and my last wish, i will die on winter with you by my side. i will die when im still loving you. because i always love you. thank you. "