have you guys read Macara Blues mangas? its a  sad and cute manga
seems like another talented writer was born here in AFF :D
hows the story going on lately?
yknow, im actually thinking that not all of the suubers are reading...it hurts me..i mean, out of the 22 subbers only 10 of them commented and some were not subscribed... please if you subscribe, comment.., itll make me feel better...
comment 'RAWR' if its fine 'ROAR' if its off and needs more creativity
the usual :)
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Ritsu's POV
its been almost a week, and i cant still get over that..., im not going to school neither...,*Sigh* whats wrong with me? its not like i own him..., and i think i pretty much hurt him the same way saying that me and Atsuki are dating..., i think i just paniced and thought of an excuse... i dont want to face him anymore...i rolled on my bed a few times
"hey, Ritsu~chan, is your head turning into a ball?"
"its not!"
"then why not go to school now?"
"im tired..., i might make it tomorrow"
"tomorrow is Saturday!"
"ugggh, i dont want to go anymore~"
"uugghh,~!"
"ugghh~!"
"ughh~!"
"ugh~!"
"will you guys stop doing that?!"
"hahaha"
its much fun here at home..., in my room than in school were i can feel so much pain...
Ryosuke's POV
She's not coming to school anymore...its my fault...uggh~ i want her back..., i dont even know hy..., we just fight but this fight doesnt seem to be just a normal fight because it still feels im losing something... something i want so bad... i want her..., but how can i face her? ugggh~!
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"hey..Ryo~chan..."
"i told you to NEVER EVER call me that" Ryosuke told her coldly
"ah.., yeah...im sorry i just forgot...it just seems that you werent paying attention to me..."
"whatever."
"are you still mad at me?"
"not really, anyway, dont think about it anymore, its over now...its all in the past..." he said as he pat her head
"un" she answered
After school...
"Ryo~chan i mean Yama~chan, since its Saturday tomorrow, can we go to the theme park today?"
"ok.., sure, im not that busy..."
"thanks a lot!"
"yeah." he answered coldly again...
Emi's POV
so he hates me afterall..., well it doesnt matter, its not like he can resist or whatever, ill just slice him up!...i hate myself....i hate my personality...i stopped at my tracks
"hey what's wrong?" he asked
"I HATE MY SPLIT PERSONALITY!" i shouted
"nothing's wrong with it.." as he patted my head
"you always pat my head..., why?"
"well, cos Ritsu feels safe whenever i.." he said slowing down as he looked in pain
"i see.., i feel safe too..., just being near you..."
"yeah.., i know" he just give me his smile
"ehe"
so after that conversation...we went to the theme park...
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Ritsu's POV
yay~ we are in a theme park today! haha, dont even know how we ended up here...just kidding! we are actually lost haha its pretty nice how we endep up in a theme park XD well...yeah.., haha we will have some fun! S..., were at the roller coaster at the moment! so fun XD well except Sou~Kun, hes reading some book down there..waaaah! this is so thrilling!! XD though it will end a few minutes from now.
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Ryosuke's POV
we had some awkward conversation about her split personality, that i dont even care about, but i think its best if she let out her feelings, and i cant believe her father treated her like that, so mean.., now were buying ice cream.., im seriously not in the mood. but ill just go with it...since shes pretty childish too just like Ritsu...ritsu again... it hurts me just remembering a part of her..
"is something wrong?"
"uh, no..."
"you didnt tell me what flovor you like.."
"vanilla,"
"ok"
So she bought ice cream for me... after that we went to have a boat ride...boat ride...boat ride..why the hell am i repeating it?!
Ritsu's POV
ok ok! the roller coaster ride was fun!! now.., we will wander around the park!
"her Ritsu!"
"what?"
"they have boats there! lets ride!"
"waa~h ugggh..."
I sure was excited but i saw Ryosuke with Emi in one boat...i lost my excitement...
"whats wrong? you dont wanna ride it?"
"i dont want to ride that, bo-ring, lets ride thrill rides!"
"ok"
despite that Yuki still looked at the boat though, seems like hes finding something
"wachha, findin'? i swear i just dont want to ride those rides"
"hnn..., i saw Ryosuke~kun in a boat with a girl..."
"who cares? i want thrill rides!"
"are you sure thats the only reason?"
"yeah..come on!" i pulled him to a more thrill ride
and we rode it, obviously...
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Yuki's POV
we went to the boat after the ride at the roller coaster, at first she was happy then she suddenly sounded disgusted turned arounf and said she wants to ride thrill rides..., i dont believe her though so i looked more and saw Ryosuke~kun in a boat with a girl, which i told her she just said who cares? maybe shes trying to move on? well, shes a girl... but i kinda noticed that Ryosuke~kun also looked back at us...
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Ryosuke's POV
I swear i just saw Ritsu there.., her wide smile..., i looked again and saw nothing.., maybe my mind and eyes are playing tricks on me... i really want her to be Emi..or do i want Emi to be her? nah, i just want to be with her...i really want to.., i looked again and still saw nothing....
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"hah! that was tiring!" Ritsu said exhausted
"i agree"
"then lets go home..., im bored"
"if you joined us you wont be!"
"whatever, lets eat somewhere, is that okay?"
"yup!"
there they saw Atsuki and Sho, Atsuki being a fake boyfriend went with Ritsu in a different table, Sho was in shock though he said 'what? you beat me to it?!" he asked in shock
"yup, pay."
"later"
"haha"
So they were on their own table, chatting.
Ryosuke's POV
We were about to eat, shes tired she said, well, she rode thrill rides, som much for me to carry, so i just waited for her most of the time today so im not that tired. So we went into this random food chain. I have my disguises on so i guess its fine. Well yeah, as we sat on our tables, we noticed that Ritsu and others were in a different food chain, just the one beside ours, we..i mean i can see them clearly from here..., shes with Atsuki.., so im not daydreaming huh? it was true...the pain hurts...so much...
"Ryo~ch..i mean Yama~chan, you were staring at the other food chain just now, do you want to eat there?" she asked me
"no, its just that a cute dog caught my eye"
"dog?" she looked around
"i cant seem to see any dog..."
"maybe just my imagination"
You cant see any dogs because they arent allowed inside!
"hnn, im sure dogs arent allowed though"
so you know afterall...
"then it was just my imagination"
"i see..."
Ritsu's POV
I glanced to the neighboring chain.., and saw Ryosuke with Emi..., why does it hurt too much? We arent even together when i saw them..., does it hurt because she cut my hand or does it hurt because hes not with me? i think im thinking way too much, besides, Atsuki~kun is much much better than Ryosuke, hes kind, gentle, and everything!....wait...why did Ryosuke's image appeared when i said that?....arrggh!
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After a few moments..., they were already home...
"hey, im just gonna walk Kush..i mean Tenshi outside.."
"but its almost night.."
"Tenshi likes the sunset so.."
"ok then"
"are you going by yourself?"
"yeah"
So Ritsu took Tenshi and went out of the house and stroll around the streets
"hnnn, Tenshi.." Tenshi didnt respond..
"nn?, Kushi.."
"arf arf!"
"so you like Kushi better huh?"
"arf!" it barked while wagging its tail
they went to sat near the river..., a calm place...
"Emi~chan! you might fall!"
"i wont i wont"
"just dont run anymore!"
"taking care of Kat~chan is your job!"
"uggh! Kat~chan is even better than you"
"what?! im way better than Kat~chan!"
(KAT~CHAN, EMI'S ONLY DOG PET, A EURASIER, ITS VERY VERY CUTE! ^^)
"no you arent!"
"i am"
"no you.."
"arf! arf! arf!" Kat~chan woofed and struggled to get off of Ryosuke, she did and ran towards Ritsu's direction
"hey were are you go..ing?" he noticed Tenshi trying to bite her tail
"i think she wants to play tag!"
"nn, then i better run after her"
"ike!" she cheered
Ryosuke ran after her, the dog, after sometime Emi ran too
Ritsu's POV
feels like i heard people.., unwanted people...as i felt myself calming down... i heard a dog barked and is running towards me... shes so cute.., my guess, shes a Eura...Eura.. i forgot.., well whatever, shes so cute! i pet her and it seemed to be attracted to Tenshi..., but both of them are girls...looking at the dog again..., shes really a girl.., maybe she just wants a playmate? i dont mind..,i let them played together and saw that her master came towards us...i looked at him in shocked it was actually Ryosuke...
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"Ritsu.."
"Ryo~chaaaan!"
"hn?" Ritsu looked at Emi and suddenly her chest hurt again but still forced herself to smile..
"your smile..seems so forced..." Ryosuke said which made her chest hurt again
"im guessing youre with somebody, so im going now, come on Tenshi." Tenshi didnt follow her and continued on playing with Kat
"Kushi lets go now."
"arf arf!" Tenshi followed Ritsu..Ritsu was walking slowly at first then suddenly ran with tears in her eyes..
Ritsu's POV
why? why does it hurt too much? i ran to my room, bringing Tenshi along.., even i know Ryosuke is the only boy that Tenshi ever liked..when i got to my room, Tenshi growled at Yuki and Sou
"Ritsu...whats with this dog?" Yuki asked
"just get out of my room." i replied coldly
 "ha..hai?" i think theyre confused but whatever
they went out my room and Tenshi comforted me.., i feel like Tenshi knows how imm feeling... i guess she sensed it?
ugggh, THIS GOTTA BE THE WORST DAY EVER it really hurts...she actually calls her Ryo~chan...Ryo~chan is how i should adress him but he didnt likie it but know he lets a girl call him that..arrrggh! i want to say sorry but i shouldnt say sorry since hes giving me pain..but...what if im hurting him just the same?
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Ryosuke's POV
her smile was clearly fake...even if it looked so sweet to others, for me it was fake..completely fake....
i know im hurting her.. but i think she doesnt know that im hurt just the same...
ill say sorry on Monday...i swear i will
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IM VERY VERY SORRY!
IM SURE YOU GUYS CANT FEEL IT RIGHT? UGGH! IM SORRY IM REALLY REALLY SORRY THAT I CANT DELIVER THEIR FEELINGS WELL.
I JUST CANT KEEP MY MIND STABLE. SORRY ABOUT THAT! :(
ITS LIKE IM LISTENING TO A BALLROOM SONG BUT IM DANCING HIP HOP XD LIKE THAT HAHA :)

AND OH YEAH, IM ABOUT TO GO TO HIGHSCHOOL SOON!
ADVANCED OMEDETOU TO ME FOR SURVIVING GRADE SCHOOL!! :D though im a bit sad about it :(
NEXT CHAPTER: ADVICE :)
and, remember Kei's color XD