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It have been a month already since Baekhyun started to visit Yerin after school and everyone knows about it. The girls are starting to go crazy and annoyed by the fact that all of  Baekhyun's attention is for Yerin.They even question themselves of what they are lacking of because Yerin is nothing compare to them.To them,it's merely because of her sickness.It didn't take long for thw school to start talking about them,bad thing to be exact.Little did they know,their bad talkings hurt him the most.

FLASHBACK

(Baekhyun)

With a big smile, I greet her, "Hey Yerin.

“Hi.” was all what she said before asking me the same question she asked me before. Well as you can see, now I’m standing in front of this white lovely door while hoping to meet Kim Yerin who have been absent for 2 weeks now and she doesn’t even care to tell me why. “Can I come in?” I asked with a playful tone. She looked so unexpected to what I just said. Did I go overboard?

"Oh. Come in.” she said those words so simply yet it managed to make my heart race like this and I’m sure my heart is going to burst out of my body. When I was about to step my feet into her house, I can tell that the house is definitely a comfortable house to live in. The vanilla aroma gives me some relaxation therapy. While I was walking to the living room, I can see it white furniture and decorations. Mum definitely will like this house – no, she’ll be madly in love with this house because she really likes the colour white and wanted to decorate the house completely in white but unfortunately she can't because her sons plus her husband will make a mess. Living with 5 men in the house is worse than living in a house which is full of pets. True, I can prove it.

We sit down facing each other. “Do you have something to tell me or something to say?”

(Yerin)

"Can I come in?" he asked me and I have given it a thought or two because I honestly don't know. Unknowingly, I invited him inside. As he walks to the living room, I was behind him because I needed to calm myself. Before I could even settle down on my sit, he asks me, "Do you have something to tell me or something to say?"

Before I look up to see his face, my heart is pounding so hard and it was so nerve wrecking but I know, I don't have a choice other than to answer him."Okay." I said with my eyes closed I take a deep breath before I part my lips to speak, ."I'm sorry for leaving you without any notices or whatsoever and I'm  truly sorry for not to call or text you. I have my  reason.I'm afraid that you're going to leave me when you know  my condition is only getting worst every day. Look at me,don't you think I'm disgusting. Even  though  I'm getting treatments, I don't think I will ever recover from this disease. So, can you stop worried about me and just take care of yourself?" I look at  those beautiful pair of eyes that have been staring at me

His milky-white skin,those sprakling rosy-brown eyes,that pastel-pink lips; I couldn't help but  to stare He's pouting and it's not his usual pout, it was more to a sign of him being mad. I was too busy admiring his features to even notice that he is now close to me. He kneeled down and lock his eyes into mine while holding my hands. I gulped because his eyes, it look so sad.

(Baekhyun)

"Look at me, Kim Yerin."

I don't know if you remember it but did you forget the promise that we made." Have you already forgotten our promise? Do I have to say it again?" she looks down and I place my index finger under her chin, slowly pushing her face back up, "No matter what happens,  I will always stay by your side. Ignore what the people said, I always be there for you." I look at her, those hazelnut eyes are full of saddness.Both of us didn't say another word to each other and there were as if a pause in our conversation. Yerin hangs her head low again and I didn't bother to lift it back up because I know, she is having hard time right now.

"You still don't get it do you? I don't care anymore. I'm not mad at you no,I am so mad at you but the anger fade away when I saw you just now, safe and sound, just like I hoped you'd be.Yerin, I care for you. I care for you more than I care about myself. Forget about what they say because they don't see you like the way I see you. You're different. Stop running away from me because no matter where, I'll find you."

She smiled at me and it was more beautiful than I expected it to be. Her eyes are twinkling, her face is glowing and I couldn't help but to fall for her even more. I lean my forehead onto hers and I could feel her hot breath brushing onto my face. She's even more beautiful than I could remember.

(Yeriin)

This feeling feels so real. I didn't want to let him go, I didn't want this moment to end but I let go of his hand eventually because I can't get sink into the moment any deeper. I just can't, it's not right. I pull back and look at the clock. 5pm, "You should get going now. You must be busy." I said and looked the other way because I'm afraid that I might say something stupid to make him stay. He rubs the back of his neck and smile at me, "Oh. Okay, I'll get going now."

 We both went to the front door and I stopped by the door frame while he walks out the door. "Now that you know I'm fine, you accept my apologize right?" I look at him and turns around to smile at me. No, Baekhyun, stop. I can't resist it. He then gives me a white bag, "This is for you." and he smiled at me again. I look at him curiously before taking it from him, "What's this? You really don't have to give me anything. I don't like it when people do that for me." he laughs. It was sweet but naughty, "You'll know when you open it. I don't feel like explaining it. I'm going now, I'll come again tomorrow." he bid his goodbye and wave at me before walking away to the gates. How can he be so sweet yet so cute? I must be crazy.

 

I open the white box and it was a music box. It was beautiful white music box with a flower, a ballerina, a moon and stars inside it. In the center there's a word 'ONE' in the colour dark turquoise.  It is really pretty that I'm so excited to open it. .When I open it I saw a letter "Open this letter when you truthly  need something to be explain or you search for an answer." it reads.

I put the letter aside because I decided to open it later. I then put the music box beside the letter when I'm done examining it. I sit on my bed and stare at the music box that is not far from my bed. I couldn't help but to smile and to think of him. He gives such impact in my life.I'm thankful because he showed me that the world is still safe for a person like me, a monster to be exact. I look at the clock and it's time to take my medicine.

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Day by day, Yerin and Baekhyun became closer and closer and  fell in love with each other eventually without them knowing it.  Baekhyun always come to Yerin's house after school.He would give her the notes he took in class and homeworks that the teachers have given.To Baekhyun, Yerin is now his responsibility. He would always  tell a stupid jokes to Yerin so that she won't feel lonely. Occasionally, he would bring yellow roses for her or food that he knows Yerin would enjoy eating. But all the time they would spend their time together and it made their hearts flutters and they would fall harder with each other but they were too egotistic to confess.

 Both of them can't wait any longer but they are too scared to make the first move. Baekhyun is scared that his past will hunt him again but he is anxious to confess. He wanted her to stay by his side and not be scared by his confession.

(Baekhyun)

"Kim Yerin,  you might think this is a joke but listen carefully to what I'm about to say." I take a deep breath before continuing, "I like you. A lot."

We are standing in the living room while facing each other." I like you since the first day I talk to you."  still no response from her. I'm getting more scared because maybe she will reject me.I don't know what's inside Yerin's mind because she doesn't show expressions easily and she is difficult to read.  I place my index finger under her chin and slowly push her face up, " Anywhere my feet touch  I'll think of you and every time i look at you,the world that I once knew  it stopped because you're so alluring that I want to pause time so that this moment won't end. All I wanted now is just to enjoy this moments. Every moment I ever had with you, I'd like to treasure it. So now, all I want to ask you is," I take a deep breath before I continue, "Will you stay with me?"

 

(Yerin)

"Will you stay with me?"

 Those words that I didn't expect to  come out from him. I'm scared.What I do now? What if he suddenly change his mind when he see me at a critical condition? What if he leave me just like that and what if this is just a joke to him  I silently and slowly take my hand from his grip and look at him. He look surprised when I backoff."I I I,maybe I need time to think about it" Between the words, I try to breat as normal as I can. " Maybe time will be the best answer now Baekhyun". I leave him alone in the living room and go upstairs.Before I enter my room I can heard the front door opens then it closed again.

I sit down in my bed.The air gets congested and hardens that i can't even breath properly . I feel my heart still in a surprised condition.I put my hand to my chest and I feel a little bit relax. I look at the window and see him then dissapear just like a wind.If only everything stops in place.I'm going crazy over the fantasy that seems like reality.The fantasy that Byun Baekhyun confess to me but in reality he did confess to me. Im confused and don't know what to do.

Already 3 months and Baekhyun never contact me neither came to my house.Searching for my handwatch because I forget where I put it then my eyes lay on the music box that he gave me. Suddenly the letter memory began to recall in my mind. I sat down on the sofa wwhile holding the music box. I open it and the Beethoven Moonlight Sonata started to play. My hand directly reach the letter and I open it.

Hey Kim Yerin

By the time you open this letter, I think I already confess to you.Well if not let me said it again. I like you.Since when? Since the first day I step into the school. I saw you walking in the corridor and I already fallen forr you. I know it's cheesy but you look so beautiful that time.It's like a first love feelings.I don't want to be a friend since the first moment I saw you.I want to be a man that can protect you. But I guess you will be so surprised by my sudden confession and I understand that. Unfortunately, I don't have any enough time now and I have to go.You open this letter when I already gone right? I leave to give you a time to think and I leave you for my future. Not only mine but our future also. Just don't be sad and live happily.Remember to take care of yourself and went we meet I hope I can heard the answer that i've been waiting for.

                                                                                                                                                                                      xoxo Byun Baekhyun.

Tears starting to drops one by one. I can't believe ehat just happen and I can believe how stupid I am letting him just like that. I should just anwer the question and maybe we will stay together now. What Im suppose to do now. He promise to stay by my side but he left. He left just like a thunder. Leaving me behind and the worst thing alone.How can I face the world when he the one who always cheris me everytime. Maybe I have to follow what he said. Live happily and maybe one day I will forget him