It's already 10 in the evening and I'm alone in my room tweeting and listening to EXO's songs when my bestfriend texts me. 

Ugh... I feel so bad about not going with her earlier... 

She really is the best. She knows that I'm having a hard time since the "11 members" issue about EXO started. And since then, I can't spazz the way I did before. I still find it hard to be 100% happy... I don't know what to say and how to thank her for being so understanding and for always cheering me up.

And that's how our convo ended. It really is getting late but... thinking about their concert tomorrow with just 11 members... should I be happy or should I be sad? I've seen so many previews and fancams of their previous concerts and it really feels different to see EXO perform with just 11 members. I wonder how Kris is feeling about this? Are they still communicating with each other? There are so many questions inside my head right now.

Should I give up or should I still hope for OT12?

I went through my bedtime routin