I have been used.

I have been used to fill someone else's loneliness.

I have been used for someone else's goals.

I have been used to replace someone.

I have not been seen as a person for who I really am.

And those who do see me for me,

I have no courage to be closer to them.

Because I'm afraid they will use be too.

I've been keeping the walls around me for so long.

I've been used to distancing myself for too long.

Now, I'm not sure what to do anymore.

To open the doors or leave them shut.

It hurts.

I've wanted to disappear for so long.