EUNHYUK POV

I stare at nowhere. My mind is full of Hae and what’s Shindong hyung have to talk with him about.

“yah, you!” I heard someone.

Of course I know it’s Xiah, so I just ignore him then sighed.

“Don’t be so lame… You want some steak?” he said, acting kindly.

I just shook my head. “Thanks,”

“aisshh… What are you thinking about, anyway?” he asked, but then grinned. "i thought pushing you to him will make your mood better~"

my eyes widened. "WHAT! So it's you who pushed me earlier?? yah!! damn you," I said, slapping his arm.

"sorry~~" he just chuckled, rubbing his arm. “Anyway, where’s your fake-boyfr—“

“He’s inside. And don’t mention the ‘fake’ word, I’m begging you.” I answered coldly.

He then nodded understand. “Okay, then…”

Ah, I’m feeling guilty. I just too sensitive right now, maybe because of worrying Hae too much. I should have fun here, in this party. But… wait, this is a farewell party of my own brother, so it’s ok for me to didn’t get any fun here. Arrgh… I didn’t feel well now… Hae, please come out quick!!

Omo—the time I was thinking about that… Hae came out, with Shindong hyung behind him!

I quickly ran into him. “Hae,”

He raised his brows, then smiled after realize it was me because I was too sudden. “Hi, Hyukkie.” He said, then put his hand on my head, messing my hair a bit then round his hand on my shoulder.

Wait! Why’s he………… killing me?!

“a-ah, Hae. Wait.” I said, then saw Shindong hyung walking from behind us, turn to me a little and then smile when he saw us.

What the hell is happened inside??

“Hm? Is there something wrong, Hyukkie?” Hae asked innocently.

I shook my head. “Um, no. Let’s eat.” I said, then dragged him to where the food belongs to, take some and then quickly move to a place where we both can be alone.

“hey? What happen?” Hae asked me again. It looks like he’s so confused of why I’m being weird. But I just curious, Hae is acting like there’s nothing happened.

“no, no. Just tell me, what’s Shindong hyung said to you before?” I asked.

“um, to take care of you?” he said without thinking.

“really?”

He nodded then smiled. “yeah, and I said I will.”

My eyes widened, but I can’t say a words. How come he’s been so charming like this?? He just act like a real boyfriend… even that can’t be true, I just think that he was so real, more than before…

“e-err.. did he asked you about this role? Did he recognize it?:”

He looks thinking for awhile, then looked at my eyes again. “mm, nope.”

Okay, now I just curious, what his plan about me? because even we’re alone now and hardly for the others to see us, he keeps on with his charm that makes me fly. Did he really want to kill me slowly? Or he wants to make me suffered by being so kind and so loving and that’s not true at all?

“hey, Hyukkie?”

I gasped. I was deep inside my mind and didn’t recognize him.

“y-yes?”

His expression’s changed to worried. “I’ve called you 4 times. What’s on your mind, Hyukkie?”

“Chinja?” my eyes widened. “I’m so sorry! What is it?”

Yeah, this is me, Lee Donghae… a guy that changes 180 degrees because of you. Are you happy???

“umm, no, I just… calling you.” He said unclearly, and just making me confused. What does he want? Can’t he just say it…

“Hae,” I called him back. “What else? The thing that you and Shindong hyung talked about,”

He just stared at me after he heard that question, and then smiled. “it’s unimportant thing that you can ignore. It’s not worth it in your mind. Keke”

I raised my brows. “yah, worth it or not, just tell me, stupid!”

“no, no, no… I can’t. this is a guy secret.” He said, grinned then chuckled.

“mwoyaa?? I’m a guy!! Don’t you see it? I’m a guy!” I exclaimed while slap his shoulder. What the hell??

But he just laughed and messing my hair that made a comfortable feeling, then nodded. “I know…” he said. “But sometimes I forgot it.”

Since I was speechless, I just slapped again on his shoulder, but this time’s harder. But man, why I was blushing??

“Heeey, I just kidding, okay? Don’t really mad at me…” he said, took a small sausage and then, shockingly, he’s like… feeding me. “if you not mad, say aaa please?”

Damn!! Why he’s so cute????? God T_T save me…

“aaa,” I unconsciously opened my mouth, didn’t care if I actually was mad at him. But I know, I can’t mad at him, it’s just a formality.

mmm… this sausage is different. It’s more delicious. But it’s just sausage. Ah, don’t care.

“oh, you’re not mad then~ do you want more?”

I stare at him. His eyes didn’t looks like he was acting… since… the others were so busy with themselves too. No need to act, but it seems he was real… not acting.

“hm? What?”

I quickly looked away. “uhm, no, just… I’m not too hungry.”

“hey, but this is nice.” He said, then eat another sausage.

“no, I’m fine.”

Suddenly he stopped eating, and stared at me. his expression’s so flat… hey, what happened? Did I said something wrong?

“What?” I asked.

He sighed. “Don’t start, Hyukkie. We’re fine now right?”

Oh, I got it. Maybe he thought I will mad at him again…

“what? Do you think I’ll mad at you?” I asked.

He nodded a little.

“hmph, no I’m not, Hae. I just wondering…”

“Wondering what?”

But then I realize that I shouldn’t tell him, and shook my head quickly. “no, it’s not important.”

“really? It’s not important?” He asked with his childish voice tone.

“uh-huh. It’s not...” I said, but my voice is sounds hanging the sentence.

He then sighed. “okay, um, tomorrow, you’ll accompany Shindong hyung to the airport, won’t you?” he asked.

I nodded. “of course. You too, right?” i muttered. “Maybe... there’s my mom and dad picking him up too.”

His eyes widened. “really? Your parents? They come from Europe?”

“yeah. Just... Stay calm there, okay.”

“okay...”

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DONGHAE POV

Ah, it’s the day. Today, Shindong hyung will be going to Europe to continue his treatment. Yah, you know, he has a blood cancer, that’s why. I hope he’ll be okay...

I started to prepare myself, then called Leeteuk hyung, because I know he wants to Shindong hyung’s departure too.

“yoboseyo, hyung?”

“ne, Hae. Where are you?”

“i’m still in my house. Shindong hyung will be off to airport in an hour, hyung.”

“arasso, I’m on my way.”

Then he hung up the phone.

Ahh, suddenly I remembered about Hyukkie. His parents will be there at the airport to only accompany Shindong hyung’s home. But I’m a bit… Nervous. Wait, why would I nervous? I’m not his boyfriend or anything like that. It’s weird…

My phone’s suddenly ringing. As I thought, it’s Hyukkie. How come he call me when I was thinking about him?

“Yoboseyo?”

”ne, Hae?” said Hyukkie.

“what is it, Hyukkie?”

“uhm, where are you?” he asked me. “you’re accompanying Shindong hyung, won’t you?”

“oh, yes, I’m almost ready now, Hyukkie.” I said while sipping a carton of strawberry milk I took from my fridge. I was re-stock it days ago.

“hmm hmm, that’s good then. I’ll wait. Don’t forget to eat, Hae.” He muttered.

My heart was beating faster. He’s more caring than before. I kind of... like it, don’t know why. Maybe it’s just because... it’s just because he always being mean.. to me? Ah, whatever.

“I will, Hyukkie. You too, ne?”

He said yes, then we hung up the phone.

I should get ready now. I sort of missed him already too since... I drank this strawberry milk. It makes me remember about him. I think I was kind of weird nowadays... What’s got into me, anyway?

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-at airport-

“Oh! That’s my parents” Hyukkie yelled after seeing a middle-aged couple with a formal clothes standing right at the departure’s gate.

“really?” the others muttered while eyeing around that place. There were whole Fox, and Rox except Kangin hyung, and HanChul hyung couple. They were all busy now...

Hyukkie then walked towards them with Shindong hyung. We just following them behind.

“Hi, omma, appa.” Shindong hyung said after we facing their parents.

Their dad, who’s standing in front of Shindong hyung just nodded with his serious expression, then staring at us.

“oh, hello, dad.. this is... this is my friends... they wanna accompanying Shindong hyung..” Hyukkie explain awkwardly.

Their dad is surely serious person, huh...

“annyeonghaseyo, ajusshi...” i bowed to him, and he just nodded while staring at me.

“ah, this is Donghae, dad... he’s my friend.” Hyukkie said to his dad, which i think how he said ‘friend’ is kind of… bitter. But I know it’s just my stupid thought.

“uhm, dad.. what time is the departure hour?” he asked again.

“we will departure in 30 minutes, so we will enter the waiting room now, son.” His dad answered, followed by everyone’s ‘oh’.

“o-okay dad…” then Hyukkie walked towards Shindong hyung who’s standing a bit far from us, Shindong hyung said something to Hyukkie, then he grinned with his own words. He even bothered to stare at me. what is he talking about, actually?

Not long from that, the rest of Fox and Rox who’s coming is followed Hyukkie to Shindong hyung’s place.

I just stared at them blankly, and when I about to approach them, his dad surprised me with his voice.

“is he doing good?”

“a-ah?”

Dang! I don’t know what to answer since I’m just woke up from my unconsciousness…

He sighed. “my son,”

“Oh! Y-yes… he is,” I said, embarrassed. Aaah what the hell…

He then just nodded understand and as I’m not expected, he smiled to me. his smiles is… like a dad who’s really care to his son. I felt warm when sees it, makes me envy he’s not my dad…

“I know it,” he said with his heavy tone. “I can see you are all good friends of him.”

I just smiled by his words. He then stepped closer to me and tapped my shoulder like a father to his son.

“I’m counting on you to makes him happy here,” he said. After my nod, he release his hand and then back to his wife’s place.

“yah! What’s my dad said to you?” Hyukkie said, followed by Shindong hyung and the others. They’re walking to me.

I chuckled. “nothing,” I muttered. “ah, Shindong hyung…” I then said, hugged Shindong hyung and he hugs me back.

“don’t forget your promise, young leader.” He whispered, so Hyukkie and the others won’t hear it. I smiled and nodded.

“I know. I’ll protect him with my life.”

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EUNHYUK POV

We were on our way back from the airport, and heading to Hae’s super big house. Me, Hae, Kyuhyun and Sungmin hyung are using Kyuhyun’s car now, with his private driver. Surely most of Rox were super rich, huh?

Wait. Since when Hae’s house is Fox’s place too? Ah, never mind. He’s my servant.

“I hope Shindong hyung will be fine there..” said someone beside me, Sungmin.

Ah, I just realized that Shindong hyung’s not here anymore and already back to Germany. Somehow, that makes me feel sad… So I just nodded by Sungmin’s words.Ugh, I wish I could go there... but our parents... they will mad because they’re busy enough..

Suddenly, I felt a warm hand rub my back, since I’m not leaned to the seat. I gasped, but not turned because I know who it is. Donghae.

“Don’t be so sad, h….master. He will be fine.” He said slowly to me. Even that simple words can makes me blushed…what the hell!

But why I prefer him called me Hyukkie, for now? I just… When he almost called me that, he hang the ‘h’ like sighing. Maybe he’s tired of being my servant… But!! It’s the only way I could get closer to him T_T

“and Sungmin don’t say words that makes him sad, please” he muttered to Sungmin  beside me.

“aaah, sorry, Eunhyukkie..” Sungmin pouted from being scolded and then he muttered. I just chuckled by his expressin. “that’s fine, Sungmin ssi.”

And then we just all keep silence in our own thoughts.

I leaned to the back and sighing. My thought is still at Shindong hyung so I didn’t really recognize Hae beside me. And when I stared at him, I was shocked like hell.

Omona he’s sleeping…………….cutely.

No, of course there’s no sleeping cutely. But his face when sleeping is just… Damn cute…

I yawned. Why suddenly I felt sleepy by saw him sleeping? Aissh…

How dare him….

Infect… me…

“thank you, Hae.”

As long as I can remember, I lost my consciousness on his chest right after I said that, and I felt familiar warmth on my back. Again.

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SIWON POV

Today I Shindong hyung’s departure to Europe. Honestly… I still kind of missed his appearance in school. I mean, in Fukuura. He often visit Rakooga too, but now seems different since…. He’s getting sick and Eunhyuk, his brother came and took my heart.

“Siwon ah,” I heard my master, Kibum, called me. We’re at his apartment now, after back from the airport.

“yes, master?” I said, tried to calm myself. He just sighed and sit beside me with his worried expression. “what’s the matter?” he asked.

I gasped slowly. Why… why he so care with me? My thoughts always to Eunhyuk but he keeps on care with me, even I’m his servant.. Aisshh.. I’m such a bad guy.

“Siwon ah?” he asked.

“ah, yes, master. I’m okay. What’s wrong?” I asked him back, because I don’t want him to worried about me.

“n-nothing,” he said, looked down to his lap, maybe.

Then awkward silence caught us. I really don’t know what to do or say, so I just keep sat silent.

“I won’t give up,” suddenly I heard him muttered, very slowly. I blinked and then turned to him, didn’t really understand what he said.

“s…sorry?”

But he just shook his head quickly like he’s regretted saying those words. Aisshh, did I hear right? He won’t give up for what? Kibum’s surely makes me a bit confuse…

Or.,,, Does he likes me?

Aarggh, why I’m so over confident??

But… But… he’s cute when he’s like this. His face’s reddened, makes me want to pinch his cheek…

Oh holy shisus! Don’t say that I’m starting to like him? So unfaithful me… But, Eunhyuk is not even my boyfriend or what… He even pretend to be Donghae’s that actually makes me… Aissh, no of course I don’t hate my own leader just because…

That… Ugh…

I stared at Kibum. He still with his own thought with his red face. I grinned. This Fox’s vice… I didn’t know he can be this cute.

Even I know, a servant must not doing this, I messed his hair.

He gasped.

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KIBUM POV

I gasped.

Siwon messed my hair…. Is this even true?? He never want to touch me before…

I turned my head to him, and stare at him, not bothering my already flushed-red face. HE SMILED TO ME. And that’s my favorite smile. How could this happened?

I thought… I thought…

“is there anything wrong, master?” he suddenly woke me up again, makes me feel embarrassed more. I shook my head heavily and stop staring at him, but then I heard him chuckled.

Mwoh??

“…what’s so funny?” I asked, still not staring at him.

“you.”

I turned, and how shocked I am when his face’s already so close to mine, and with that innocent expression he rub my forehead.

“omo…” he put worried expression on his face but I still caught his smirk, “you’re hot, master. Are you hurt? Are you feeling okay?”

I sighed and nodded, try to avoid his eye.

Suddenly, he picked me up and put me on my bed. OMO WHAT HE’S GOING TO DO—

“sleep well, my master…”

He said, rubbing my forehead gently and then walked a few steps to take a small chair, bring it to the bedside, and then sit.

Geez… I thought he was going to do something else…

“I said sleep, master.”

I pouted. “why?”

“because you didn’t look too good.” He said, smiling.

Tsk… is it wrong to love this guy? He seems like he’s so… yah, whatever. I better close my eyes before he I get madly blush again.

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I woke up, and as usual, I stare at my watch. It’s 0.30 AM and that means I woke up in the middle of night. I turned, trying to get myself comfortable again when suddenly I felt something on my bed, beside me.

OMFG IT’S SIWON! He’s sleep sitting and I can say it’s really not comfortable at all, with his hand and head on my bed while still sat on that small chair. Awwww I feel bad to let him sleep like this…

“si… siwon…” I shrugged him, tried to make him wake up even just for a while to make him sleep at least, beside me. Just for tonight… because he seems so tired.

But he just moved a little, and muttered something.

I tried to shrugged his shoulder again slowly. “Siwon ah, wake up…”

“uhmm,” He just make a sound. Is he really tired?

“Siwon….”

“hm… hyuk,”

My eyes widened. I felt my heart breaks and I just stare silent for I don’t know how long. He just called Eunhyuk hyung’s name….

Why did I expect much, myself?

I feel pity for myself… even.. even I know, he still love Eunhyuk hyung but Eunhyuk hyung belongs to Donghae hyung… and that’s why I want Siwon to be.. mine…

But I realized too, that Siwon has loosen his feeling, even a bit. He didn’t show it, but I just know. Because he seems different than before.

I sighed.

I know he won’t give up…

But I…

I won’t give up too.

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NO ONE POV

Kibum turned so he don’t facing Siwon when he sleep. He felt so hurt and so tired suddenly. He couldn’t even try to wake Siwon up again.

Just about 5 minutes later, he already drowned into a deep sleep again. But still, there’s something he don’t know and he don’t recognize it because he’s already sleep.

Siwon moved again, still in his deep sleep. Don’t know what he’s dreaming about, but he’s smiling a little even his position of sleep is really uncomfortable. Then he murmured something behind his smile.

“k—bum…..”

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[A/N]: yayayay SiBum moments! XD kyahaha.. poor kibum actually.. (based on title XD)

anyway! chapter 20?? my god! i don't expect it..*blaming Hae for being in super denial*

ahahah XD thank you everyone for keep following my story!!

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