My names Nickhun

I'm Handsome? yes.

I'm Appealing? yes.

I'm Confused? yes.

I'm Afraid? yes.

I was born beautiful but it brought me insecurity, being beautiful comes with a price right?

My life revovled around the fact that I had to be safe.

I could never enjoy myself.

I could never live normally.

My past is black and my future?

Doesn't exist.

That girl.

The one I loved.

She was bewitching, angelic, gorgeous.

But life made me realize that beautiful people usually harbor something ugly inside them.

She was like me.

Even when we both knew where life would have headed we still were addicted to each other.

Even when I treated her the way I did when no one looked she still had devotion.

But she was just as dangerous.

Even when she did the things she did, the things that hurt me and gave me scars I still yearned for her.

This infatuation, this passion, this lust.

It was the one that destroyed me.

Not the fact that my life had turned upside down.

It already was to begin with.

It was her, she broke me.

She changed me.

I have no advice.

How can I give advice when it never helped me?

False hope?

All I can say is that love is a monster.

Its a drug.

Not something that can be messed with.

I still remember her words.

Be a rose.

Not a thorn.

~Mr. Narcissistic