"I'm sorry, baby," I murmured softly, kneeling in front of her grave as tears silently rolled down my cheeks. "I shouldn't have left you alone,"

In my mind, I almost heard her reply. Almost. 

I looked down as my tears fell. Faster this time.

"Hyung," I felt a hand on my shoulder as I heard my dongsaeng's voice. "Let's go back,"

"Let me stay here for a little while more, TaeMin,"

"She can't hear you, hyung,"

"I know but I really want to tell her how I feel,"

"Okay then, hyung," he said quietly, his voice uneasy

"Jagiya," I said, biting my lip. "Why did you leave me alone?"

"Hyung,"

"What?"

"You left her alone and she did the same to you. It's just right,"

"You know that I hated the fact that I left her alone that night, right?"

"Yes,"

"Then don't remind me about what I did,"

"If you love her, you won't forget what you did wrong when you two were together,"

"TaeMin,"

"Ne, hyung?"

"How do you know those things?"

"Because I know how it feels,"

"From when you and NaEun broke up?"

"Yes,"

"Where is she now?"

"Tokyo,"

"You miss her?"

"Obviously, but I'm slowly getting over her,"

"How?"

"I don't think about the past, hyung. I focus on the present,"

"Just that?"

"Yup,"

"I've done that for six months but I can't forget her,"

"You loved her too much, hyung. You loved her much more than she loved you. That's not a good thing to do in relationships."

"You know a lot, maknae,"

"Hyung?"

"Ne?"

"She was your first love, right?"

"Yes,"

"That makes it harder for you to get over her,"

"What do you mean?"

"First loves are hardest to forget,"

"Jjinja?"

"Yeah,"

"I miss her,TaeMin,"

"We all do, hyung. She meant a lot to us, too, you know. It wasn't just you who has her in his heart. She was like a sister to us,"

"And NaEun?"

"She will always be my love, hyung. I don't care about the fact that she left, that I can't see her anymore. It's the memory that counts,"

"Son NaEun was.... Practically my sister,"

"I know. She was your best friend, hyung,"

"We spent a lot of time together before you guys dated,"

"Correction, hyung. You spent all the time together. Not a lot of time, you were always together,"

"Oh,"

"I wonder if you'll be able to get over her, hyung. I know how much she means to you,"

"I don't want to be hurt anymore. I want to get over her as fast as possible,"

"Hyung. Wae?"

"Losing her hurt me. I have to forget her,"

"If you forget her, you won't regret it?"

"No,"'

"Then I'll help you if that's what you want,"

"Thanks. I want to change my life. I won't fall in love,"

"That's a lot,"

"I know but I have to at least try,"

"Are you sure about that decision?"

"I'm sure. I want to change, and you're going to help me,"