Okay. Confession time.

Not really.

I'm known as the happy virus.

I hear girls screaming 

that nickname

every single concert.

I want to be happy.

For everybody.

But as the happy one,

I'm not allowed to be sad.

It's hard, you know.

Holding up the team.

And though they tell me

it can just be a cover,

that I only have to 

act for the cameras,

they don't know

just exactly how

hard it is.

When cameras

are pointed at you

when you eat.

When you play.

When you cry.

They are there,

showing the whole world

what your life is like.

Sure, it can be glamourous.

And I know just 

how lucky I am.

But sometimes,

in the middle of the night,

when cameras can't find me,

when fans can't see me,

I wish that

I could 

be normal.