You’re my Love Sick

“ARGH. Nothing’s coming!” I exclaimed miserably, flatting my palms forcefully on the table. I massaged my temples, trying to relax a little, while I look at my netbook. The Microsoft word document is waiting for my report. I stared at it, until it came to sleep mode.

“ESH!”I shouted as quietly as possible, minding my parents at the living room.

They’re coming here… they are here! And I wont be able to see them.

I covered my face, feeling the tears coming. I wailed.

I cant concentrate! BAP’s here in the Philippines today for the Dream Concert… they’re in Manila now. Probably having their fan-meeting.

I gasped miserably. The more I think about this, the more I feel pained. I live in a province not so far from Manila, but far enough that distance is a hindrance, not mentioning the price of the ticket.

I wiped my eyes, hearing my phone ring.

“Hello, Chanyeol hyung?”

“Oh? Dongsaeng, why are you crying?! Suho hyung! Our dongsaeng is crying!”

Argh. My EXO hyungs really tend to over react. I almost rolled my eyes.

“Hyung, it’s ok. I just… it’s just that…” hearing them fuss a lot concerning me suddenly made it harder for me to suppress my tears.

“Why?” Suho hyung’s gentle voice soothed me a little.

“BAP hyungs are here in the Philippines. And I wont be seeing them!” I cried freely now, not caring anymore if my parents heard me.

“Is that so, dongsaeng? Don’t worry, I’ll buy you a ticket.”

“It’s too late, hyung!” I said, my tantrum getting the better out of me now.

EXO has been my hyungs for three months now, and to answer why will take much time. They’ve been flabbergasted to know that my idol isn’t them, but they respected that and loved me still. I don’t know why they are wasting their precious time checking on me everyday, I guess, they miss my eccentricity since I left Korea to continue my studies.

Now don’t get angry, I love them, too. And so much at that. I respect everyone of them, I idolize them too, but not as much as I admire BAP hyungs.

“What can we do?” I heard Kris hyung’s low voice.

I suddenly realized I’m being unfair, putting them into the position where it’s hard for them.

“Uhm. Look, hyung. I’m so sorry. I’m being unfair again,” I sniffed, gathering my strength, I tried to cheer my voice up, ”How are you?”

“It’s ok,” I heard DO hyung say, “We’re your oppas, right?”

“But I cant help but feel jealous,” Baekyun’s voice chimed in.

“Oh, come on, hyung!” I giggled, “No matter what happens, you’ll always be my boyfriends!”

They laughed heartily.

“Ya! You’re too young to think about those things,” Sehun’s voice came to life.

“Ya, Oh Sehun. Don’t get all oppa on me. you still don’t beat me in scrabble. Oopps. Kidding, hyung. Saranghae!”  I am laughing hard now, and hearing them laugh harder too is rewarding.

We talked about their schedule in Korea for a few minutes, Suho hyung helped me do my report, though it was kind of hard because it should be Filipino, and the English words he uses are very… nose bleeding, to translate.

After two hours of talking, they said good bye.

“Bye, hyung! I love you. Good luck for your work. Work hard!”

“Yes, thank you, dongsaeng. Take care!”

I watched the screen of my phone as the call ended.

I sighed, putting my chin on the palm of my hand. BAP… I managed to smile.

It’s ok, I tell myself. You’ll see them when the right time comes.

And besides, I’m already lucky. I have my EXO hyungs. And they’re more than I deserve.

But still… I know there’s a reason why I cant let BAP go.

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