A Night of Reflections
Description
This is my first ever fanfic, so everyone please be patient with me. I'm not good with summarising or descriptions either, so forgive me if it isn't all that good. So I shall resort to begging methods, please read this. Please. Thank you ^^
Foreword
It is currently 12pm. My parents had retreated into their bedroom some time ago, sounds of my nephew's wails had ceased and from the room beside me, faint snores - signalling the arrival of slumber upon my brother and his wife - could be heard. A rather peaceful silence had cloaked the house - silence that can only be found after everyone had gone to sleep.
Which is why I lay awake. At 12pm. Bathing myself in this wonderful tranquility, eyes closed, just thinking. With nothing to hinder my thoughts, nothing to corrupt my on going stream of memories as I lay here, I can finally breathe.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
It seems it has been a while since I could take a breath that deep, as it lets out all my stress and worries and fades away into my surroundings. I open my eyes. Perhaps I should cry. Perhaps not. It has been a while since I cried, properly that is. So why is it so difficult? I could take a deep breath, and I haven't done that in a while. So why can't I cry?
My pillow is wet. I look towards it. Tears. Am I crying now? Yet, I feel nothing. I thought extreme emotions caused people to cry. Happiness, anger, fear, sadness. I feel none of those things. Yet, I can feel tiny droplets streak down my cheek. What is it?
I lay back down to think again. Oh. I know. I'm alone. Even in this big house, where I can feel the presence of people in the rooms near me, I'm alone. But why should that make me cry?
And it dawned on me. I'm missing him. I'm missing you. How are you? Where are you? What are you doing now, or more importantly, do you miss me? Do you think of me? I know it's selfish but please, think of me. Your smiling face, with your perfect white teeth invade my mind.
I miss you.
I'm sorry.
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