The idea for this story came out from when I watched an episode of Hello Counselor. I can’t remember which episode exactly but I do remember it was the episode that Infinite's Sunggyu and Woohyun and Rainbow's Jaekyung and Jisook guest starred in. There was one segment about these two brothers who were unhealthily obese and I just started tearing especially when the MCs and audience laughed at their weight, making jokes about it. Then there was one comment that the brothers’ friend made. He said, “you’re going to die” or something like that and the whole studio just burst out laughing. It really hurt me because this isn’t really a joking matter. It’s true.

I think it especially hit a sore spot for me because some members in my family are obese and I see how much they suffer because of it. At the same time, it’s so hard for them to lose weight because some people just don’t have body types that allow them to burn the fat off and it becomes such a struggle to them that they feel like they just want to give up.

This is also an attempt to get people to understand when goes through these peoples’ minds when they make hurtful comments. I see the look on my brother’s face when someone jokes around about his weight and he is hurting. I am also not the size that society idealizes so I also feel insecure sometimes when I look in the mirror but I have to learn to accept myself for who I am.

I really wanted to make this after I read a few fanfics here about girls who were overweight. I noticed that a lot of those fics are about girls who are overweight and don’t actually get noticed by the guy until after she loses weight. For me that hurt because even though the original intent of the author was to make people feel confident in who they were, the actual story said otherwise because it only further proved that you couldn’t be accepted for who you were until you achieved this specific image.

Basically, this fanfic has two goals.

1. To the people out there who see others who do not necessarily fit your idea of “beautiful” or “handsome”, please understand that your words can hurt a lot so please be careful of what you say. Like what Amber said, “It’s not right to hurt other people because of your own standards.”
2. To the people who feel insecure, I know that it’s hard because it’s something I battle with, too, on a daily basis and it’s so much easier said than done but we have to learn to realize that we are beautiful or handsome. Don’t change who you are to fit other people’s tastes because then you lose who you are.