“I was born to tell you I love you, and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine. Because every breath that you will take, while you are sitting next to me, will bring life into my deepest hopes… “

Spring, 12^th March 2013…

“ Oppa.. Look! it is raining  a lot there…. May I open this window “
Sungmin nodded and showing his happy face while looking at his girlfriend who got to excited with the rainfall.  
“ Oppa do you feel better now?? The air is so fresh, isn’t it?” 
Sungmin nodded again then grabbed her hand and headed her to sat down on his bedside  and held her waist. So that he could feel her warm and her scent. He leaned his head over her shoulder and took a deep breath. 
“Oppa why didn’t u just tell me that you got ill and need to be hospitalized?? Did doctor said something bad?? “
Sungmin chuckled,  “ It’s okay, baby. I’m alright. I just got to tired these past few days. I was overwork. There’s no need to worry”

She looked back and cupped his face “ But your face said a different words, oppa “ 
Sungmin smiled at her, then put his lips on hers. And held her tightly to his arms. He can felt her heart beating faster. He showed his gummy smile when saw her blushing. She took away her face from him.

“ I didn’t expect that. Someone who said he is sick still can do that??” 
Sungmin pursed his forehead and asked, “ Do What?? Do Thisss??”  He started to kiss her again.
“Oppa….!!! Stop Teasing me!!”

Sungmin laughed then got her back and leaned his head over her shoulder again. “ Why are you here?? You must be in campus right now. Don’t you have a class? “
“ I have something urgent, so that I skipping class ”

“ What’s that? “
“ You…”
“ Whattt?? Aiishhhh….”   Sungmin pinched her cheek . And  She  giggled.

“ I heard that you was chosen to be representative for your faculty and you have to go to other country with your team for observation. So when it be? “

“ You already knew that?? It’s surprised me! How could?? “
“ I heard that from him ..”

“ Who was that? “

“ Xiumin “

“ Since when you’re two getting close to each other, are you cheating on me with him? “

Sungmin laughed again , “ He is your friend, he is my friend too. Since, he’s your only bestfriend. I need to know him more. This is for our sake, for our future. “

As she heard the last word she turned her head and faced him “ Future? “
 

Sungmin nodded, and whispered to her ear  “ I do love You Lee Hye ra…”

********

Lee Hye Ra went in to his office and shouted, “ Oppa….. I Brought you lunch box “

Sungmin gazed up at the door that has half opened and her smiling face was hiding behind the doorleaf.
“ Why are you here all of sudden?? You often came to see me without telling me first.. “

Hye  Ra smiled and sat in front of him “ Surprise… ! “

“ I just wanna be a good wife for you, later. I’m trying to be… “ she added.

“Are busy oppa?? It seems like you had a lot of document to be fixed. Don’t push yourself too far. You have just hospitalized. Don’t be  overwork again, take some rest .”

Sungmin put off his pen, stood up and walked towards her. He grabbed her hand took her to the sofa.

sighed “ My wife was so fussy these day. I’m glad for that “

He smiled and kissed her check. “ What??? Fussy?? “ Hye Ra grumbled.

He chuckled and opened the lunch box . “Let’s eat, I’m starving”

Hye  Ra smiled, glued her eyes to his cute gazed when he was eating.

“ Oppa I’m going to US. My plane will take off tonight. Sorry I’m telling you right now. I don’t want you to worried me “

Sungmin stopped chewing his food and put off his chopstick.

“ so, it’s US? Where is it exactly? “

“ MIT laboratory in Boston. It’ll be my first time going away without you “

“ don’t show me that pitiful face, baby. That’s your dream to become a scientist. This is your chance. It’s okay everythings gonna be alright “

“ it will be fun if I have someone who can take care of me, oppa.. “  Hye Ra grabbed his waist and held him. Hiding her face on his chest. Sungmin put his arms on hers too. then kissed her hair.

“ Xiumin going there too right?? Just dated him and he’ll take care of you “

Hye Ra  raised up her head, “ what’s that..?? “

“ He loves you, doesn’t he? “

“ Cut it off, oppa! That’s old story. He confessed at me when I was ten. That’s old. Too old “

“ I’m the one who old here, baby “

“I even didn’t talk about age”

Sungmin laughed, and kissed her cheek. “ It’s okay for me. as long as he can take care of you. As long as this is  for your sake. I’ll be fine..”

“ what the hell of suggestion is that? U’re going to give ur girl to others?? Sounds like you’re going away”

“ you’re going away. I’m here. I’m not going somewhere.”

“ I know. I need you to know this oppa. I’ll be so busy in the laboratory all day long. I won’t be able to call you. But I  promised, I’ll always send you an e-mail everynight before I go to sleep. You don’t need to give me a feedback. i know you’re busy too. Just tell me that you’re alright and take some rest. Take care of yourself. I don’t want to hear you  being hospitalized again “

“ I got it my fussy future wife.!. Hold me more this time “ Sungmin opened up his arms and let her went in. 

“ I Love You “

**********

April 12^th 2013…

 

Xiumin took all of their luggages and carried it with his both hands.

“ Xiumin-ah, I can do this myself. You don’t need to carried mine “ Hye Ra tried to take of her luggage form her hands.

“ it’s okay. It’s man’s job. I will bring it to your home right away. “

“ I’m not going home. I want to see him first “
“ oh…. Okay then. I’ll bring it to your home. It’s okay. Just go and see him. You must be dying without him this whole month “

“ Really…??? Thanks a lot. You’re the best. I’ll call you later.”

Hye Ra give her cute smiled and left with her taxi from airport.

*********

“ Oppa….!! I’m Home.. Surprise..!!! “ Hye Ra openend his office door and shouted like always. She expected sungmin will run to her. But what she got on her eyes is totally different.

Sungmin stood up near the window with a pretty woman in front of her. Both of them immediately look after her when she opened the door. She thought it was his secretary, but she wasn’t. She was pretty, taller than her and look so mature. Hye Ra felt dried up. That girl looked at her, then turned her head to sungmin.

“ It looks like you have a guest. Well I’d better  going home. I’ll make supper. I’ll cook your favorite. “ she said.

“ thanks, I’ll go home earlier today “  he smiled.

“ see you at home “ she took one step closer to him, kissed him on lips and left.

Hye Ra’s eyes got widened. She must be blinded. What have just happened  was like some words from other world that can’t be understand by her. She needs a translator to tell her what the hell was going on  with her life today. She could  feel something inside her chest was breaking, she  felt it was burned and turned to ashes within 60 seconds. was muted. As she knew tears was dripped from her eyes.

Sungmin walked towards her and grabbed her shoulder “ Hye Ra-ya…”

But she repulsed his hand and took a step back.  “ who is that girl..??! “

“ Hye Ra, let me explain it to you “ sungmin tried to be calm

“ Who is that Girl..?? Who The hell is that girl!! “ She shouted.

 Sungmin took a deep breath and sighed “ She… is… My Wife”

Hye Ra covered her face with her both hands as heard his last word.

“ You must hate me. Call me a stupid jerk.  Call me whatever you want. I have no  choice Hye Ra-ya. Because of the circumstance of my company I have to marry her. I have to fulfil the chairman’s will. I’m so sorry I’ve put you as a victim. I know you love me so much. That’s why I have no strength to tell you. I Wish you’ll find a better guy than me.”

Hye Ra lost her defense. Her Body was trembling. And fell to the floor.

“ Lee Hye Ra!! are you alright?? “ Sungmin immediately grabbed her hands.

“Don’t worried me. I have my consciousness with me.”

“ Do You love her?? “   she asked with a whispered voice.

Sungmin sighed “ it would be better if I love her, I was the one who married her “

“ I see, I got your point. “  She stood up, washed her eyes with her hands. Then Run out.

She run, run, and run.

She was running through the rain. Hoped that the Rain would wash away her tears. Washed away all memories that she once had with him. she gripped her both hands. She can’t feel anything. Even the cold of the water that fell from the sky.. She was feeling Numb.

***********

“I covering my tears, to listen to you. Shutting my eyes to imagine you. You have slowly become blurred. You have slowly left me. with this unstoppable memories. Our memories that having once loved…”

Autumn, 22^th September 2013…

 

And I was born to tell you i Love you….

Sungmin lied on his bed, humming her favorite song. His face turn to the window and his eyes glued to the rain that fell down outside the hospital. He heard a sound of his doorleaf opened and someone walked in to his room.

“ It’s raining a lot” He  whispered. Then turned his head to someone who has just sat down on his bed, beside him.

“ How’s everything Xiumin-ah?? She must be happy. It’s raining. She Loves Rain ”  
Sungmin Showed a smile on his pale and lean face. 
 

Xiumin look after his pale face and asked “ How are you Hyung?? “
 

“ Everyday In paradise ” Sungmin replied with a smile.

“ Don’t you have any other word to tell me what you feel??!  How  exactly your condition hyung? Stop Saying those words just only to pretend that you’re alright. I don’t believe you! “

Sungmin chuckled “ Why are you so mad? I never feel this better, don’t think too much “

“Stop play around with me Hyung, Stop play around with our life!!” 
Sungmin Sighed and grabbed Xiumin’s wrist. “ I’m not playing around Xiumin-ah. I trust You. That’s how I give you my life “

Xiumin stood up “ Is that make sense?! You’re a liar! You lied to her. You told her that you married someone else. You hurt her !! “

“ I trust you, Xiumin-ah with  all of this courage I taken. I believe in  you ,you’re the only who can heal her pain. I know you can protect her. I know you can stay by her side. This is all I can do, to make her Hates me. So that She’ll run to you and fall in love with you. This is your chance “

“ How if you’re wrong? How if it doesn’t run like how you had expected? “

“ I know it wouldn’t. I did this for her sake. You’ll never know how precious her life for me. She is my life. And I Give my precious life to you. You should thanked me. “

“ Why Hyung??!! Why you gave me your life “

“ Because I have no time to make my life with her, to make her the happiest girl in the world, I have  no ability to do that. But you have.  And you’re the only one I can Trusted to. So, would you like to do me this favor….?? “  Sungmin looked inside Xiumin eyes  like he was begged on him.

Xiumin closed his eyes as tears falling down on his cheek.  He tried to hold his tears and gripped Sungmin’s hand as he opened his teary eyes.

“ I will marry her, hyung” 
 

Sungmin Smiled. Then Closed his eyes as he wishpered   “ Thank You Xiumin-ah “
Sungmin was slept, Slept with a pretty smile on his face. His face looked even better than before.

It was so silent after all.
 And all of sudden  the heart detector beside his bed was stopped.

*End