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thank you for the (wrong) information. [oneshot]Taemin let out a heavy sigh as he watched Onew goof around with Luna.
He knew he was supposed to feel happy for them but he couldn’t help but to feel sad and jealous.
He wished they weren’t together.
He wished they weren’t so happy.
He wished he’d never met Lee Jinki.
It wouldn’t hurt so much if I’d never met him,he thought. He felt lump in his throat.
He blinked hard,fighting back the tears which he was about to shed.
“Taemin-ah, what are you dreaming about?” he heard Key’s voice ask.
“Hyung! You’re here. How was it at Sukira?” Taemin asked, avoiding Key’s question. he turned away and wiped the tears off.
“It was good. Teukie hyung treated me well.” Key said, beaming. “I would definitely go again if I get a chance.” He added.
“Hmm..i see” Taemin responded.
Key sensed that something was bothering his dongsaeng.
“Taemin, are you alright? Are you not feeling well? Key questioned,touching his forehead.
“No, hyung. I’m fine” Taemin replied. “Just a little tired, I guess” ha added, giving Key a strained smile.
“Are you sure?” Key asked, filled with worry and concern. It was unlike Taemin to be so down. He was different from his normal bubbly self.
Taemin simply nodded.
Jonghyun, too, realized that something was not right with Taemin’s mood. But he didn’t want to bother Taemin by questioning him; instead he watched every move that Taemin made.
In the practice room, he caught Taemin staring hard at Onew and Luna.
He seemed very bothered by the two of them. Jonghyun could have sworn that Taemin was tearing before Key came and struck a conversation.
He couldn’t find a rational reason for his behavior.
Maybe I’m just imagining things. Taemin is a big boy. I’m sure he’ll be fine. Jonghyun thought, reassuring himself.
Key couldn’t stop thinking about Taemin. He was pretty sure that Taemin was troubled by something. Taemin hasn’t said a word since they came back to their dorm neither did he eat his dinner. That was really unusual as Taemin normally has very good appetite.
He was so absorbed in thinking about Taemin that he didn’t realize Jonghyun has entered the room.
“Yah, why so serious?” Jonghyun asked.
But Key was lost in thought.
“Kibum-ah, where did your mind fly to?” Jonghyun asked again ,waving his pillow to grab Key’s attention.
Key snapped out from his deep thinking.
“Oh, when did you come?” Key asked, startled.
“What were you thinking about? Why is your face so serious?” Jonghyun asked, ignoring Key’s query.
Key sighed.
Jonghyun raised his eyebrows, questioningly.
“It’s about our Taeminnie. He appears to be disturbed by something.” Key explained.
“Yes, I realized it too, but I can’t think of anything that could be messing with his head” Jonghyun said as he plopped on the bed, beside Key.
“I think I saw him tearing today. That kid’s mind is getting more complicated day by day” he added as clasped his fingers with Key's.
Key leaned his head on Jonghyun’s shoulder and said, “I wish he would tell us what’s wrong. I’m sure we can find a way to help but all he does when I ask him is smile or avoid my question altogether. Maybe he’s feeling lonely” he assumed.
“We should tell Onew hyung about it. I think Taemin will give in if Onew hyung confronts him. Or should we talk to Minho first? He may know something about this matter. What do you think?” Key asked.
There was no reply.
Key moved away from Jonghyun and looked up. Jonghyun was sound asleep.
“YAH!” Key bawled. “I was talking and you feel asleep?” he shouted, frowning.
Jonghyun woke up, shocked. “Sorry. You were saying something?” he asked, rubbing his eyes.
Key looked at him with disbelief, got off the bed and turned around to walk out of the room.
“You’re leaving already?” Jonghyun asked. “How about my goodnight kiss?” he added.
Key reached for the nearest stuffed toy and threw it at Jonghyun.
“Kiss that and go to sleep. Babo.” he said, slamming the door behind him.
Minho woke up beside Taemin the next morning. He turned towards Taemin and stared at his face.
He looked at Teamin’s tousled hair and gazed at his face. He lifted his hand up and touched Taemin’s face. How can someone be so perfect? Minho thought.
Taemin’s tossed a little, Minho quickly moved his hand away, and Taemin's eyes met Minho’s His He gave Minho a smile , “Hyung, you’re awake? Good morning” he greeted.
“Good morning.” Minho replied. “Did you sleep well?”
Before Taemin could answer, their room door opened and Onew’s head popped in.
“You guys awake? Let’s have breakfast together” he said.
“Yes, hyung. We will be there in a minute” Minho answered.
Taemin silently nodded.
Onew didn’t understand what he did wrong. He realized Taemin has been avoiding him the whole of last week and now he doesn’t even want to talk to him.
He missed having conversation and playing with him. But he didn’t want to bring the matter up, afraid that it might make the situation worst.
He looked at his dongsaeng with concern,but Taemin avoided his gaze and looked away,making Onew anxious and uneasy.
Needing some time alone, Taemin asked permission from his manager hyung to leavr the practice for a while. His manager nodded with approval.
He stepped out of the practice room and took a deep breath. He felt guilty for ignoring Onew but he knew it was the best way to keep him self stable. He was certain that he’d breakdown and spill out everything if he talked to Onew. And that would be disastrous, he thought.
He’s recalled the conversation he had with Minho 2 weeks ago.
*flashback*
“Hyung, where is Onew hyung’ Taemin asked Minho.
“He went out with Luna” Minho answered.
Taemin was disappointed. “They both seem to be very close nowadays.” Taemin said,softly.
“Yeah,I noticed too.” Minho answered. “I think they are dating secretly” Minho whispered.
Taemins’s eyes grew big, “WHAT?” he cried out.
“Shhh..don’t be so loud. I’m not sure though. I’m just deducing based on my observation. I might be wrong” Minho said.
“Oh,I see” Taemin responded,in a low voice.
Minho saw Taemin standing outside the practice room alone and called out his name from far but Taemin seemed to be lost in thoughts.
Minho crossed the road and stood in front of his dongsaeng. He snapped his finger at Taemin’s face, “Dreaming again?” he asked, smiling.
Taemin looked at him, dazed. “Hyung,you came” he said.
“Why are you standing out here in the cold? Here, drink this” Minho said handing Taemin a cup of hot coffee he was drinking.
“Thank you, hyung” Taemin said, taking a sip of the coffee. “Hmmm...it’s nice. Let’s go in”
They entered the practice room .The other three members were practicing intensely.
“Minho, you’re here. Come and join us." Key suggested.
“Can’t we take a break? I’m exhausted” Jonghyun complained, as he back hugged Key.
“No!” Key and Onew said simultaneously.
And so they continued practicing and choreographing their new moves.
After a few hours of practice they were all worn-out.
Taemin fell asleep while resting. Onew watched him sleeping. So innocent, Onew thought.
He heaved a sigh. That is why I couldn’t help but to fall in love with him.
Taemin walked into the washroom to get his face washed. He splashed cold water on his face, he felt fresh instantly.
“You have to pull it together and keep going” he reminded himself. “You cannot let Onew hyung find out about anything” he said to his reflection on the mirror.
“Find out about what?” he heard Onew’s voice ask.
“Great. Now I’m even hearing voices. I’m going to be completely crazy soon” Taemin scolded himself.
“You’re not hearing voices” Onew said as he stepped out of the bathroom cubicle.
“Hyung!” Taemin exclaimed, in shock.
“Taemin-ah, what can’t you let me find out about?” Onew asked again.
Taemin shook his head, “It’s nothing, hyung. Let’s go and continue practicing.” He quickly walked out of the washroom.
“Taemin, wait.” Onew said , following Taemin out to the hallway that led to the practice room.
“I said wait!” Onew said in raised voice. “What is wrong with you? Why are you behaving like this?” Onew asked, as he gripped Taemin’s arm.
He pushed Taemin against the wall and blocked him from getting away. “You are not leaving until you tell me what is wrong. Now, spill it” Onew commanded.
Taemin hung his head down and teared.
“Taemin-ah..” Onew called in a soft voice.
“Hyung, I didn’t know how it happened. I feel so ashamed of myself. I know I shouldn’t be feeling like this. I should feel happy for you and Luna nuna.. not sad and disappointed.” Taemin explained, sobbing. “But I couldn’t control myself from feeling jealous.”
“Wait a minute. Me and Luna? What’s with me and Luna? Did someone say something to you?” Onew asked in confusion.
Taemin nodded. “I know you and nuna are seeing each other. I can see both of you are getting closer everyday. You even spend more time with her than you spend with me..i mean us..” Taemin said, wiping his tears.
Unexpectedly, Onew burst into laughter. Taemin was baffled by Onew’s reaction.
After a few minutes of continuous laughter Onew finally calmed down and looked at Taemin.
With a smile plastered to his face he said, “Taemin, Luna and I are only friends. We were meeting up a lot recently because she wanted me to share my experience about musicals. She’s like a little sister to me. Nothing more, I promise.”
“Really?” Taemin asked doubtfully.
“Yes, really” Onew answered.
Taemin felt a gush of relief. His heart felt so much lighter. He looked up at Onew and smiled, embarrassedly.
“But why would you feel sad, disappointed AND jealous even if me and Luna were together?” Onew asked, knowingly.
Taemin felt his face become hot. He bit his lower lip, wishing he hadn’t said anything.
“Tell me” Onew insisted.
Taemin shook his head and tried to escape but he was trapped by Onew’s arm.
Onew cupped Taemin’s face with his hands and leveled his eyes with Taemin’s.
“Taemin-ah, the first time I saw you, was here, in this dance studio, you were lost in your thoughts. You looked like an angel. That is when I fell for you, at first sight.” Onew said, Taemin’s cheek.
“Hyung…” Taemin said in low voice, tearing up again.
Onew brought Taemin to his embrace. “Saranghae.” He whispered. “Don’t worry Taemin-ah, I’m always yours.”
Taemin hugged Onew back tightly. “Saranghae, hyung” he said.
What is taking him so long? Maybe I should go and check if he’s is alright, Minho thought.
He walked towards the washroom but as he was nearing it, he saw Onew and Taemin in a tight hug
He was stunned. Seeing Taemin in his hyung’s embrace, broke his heart. He felt a sharp pain in is chest.
“Saranghae, hyung” He heard Taemin say.
Taemin felt extremely blissful. Everything seemed perfect. Being in Onew’s arm felt like sheer heaven.
Onew pulled back from the hug and planted a kiss on Taemin’s forehead. “Everything’s going to be fine.” He said assuredly.
Taemin beamed in delight and nodded.
As they turned to leave, they saw Minho standing behind them.
“Hy..hyung.” Taemin stammered.
Onew was astounded. He wondered how long has Minho has been standing there.
“I came to check on Taemin” Minho said, calmly. “Taemin, are you okay?” he asked, uneasily.
Taemin nodded.
Minho nodded back in approval, “Hyung, let’s get back to practice.” He said to Onew.
“Yeah, sure.” Onew responded, feeling relieved. “Let’s go” he said as he led the way.
During dinner, Taemin couldn’t stop smiling. He was back to his normal self and was happier than ever.
Onew had other schedule so he couldn’t join the other members for dinner. Just thinking about Onew brought a smile to Taemin’s face.
“Taemin, what are smiling about alone?” Key asked, with raised eyebrows.
Taemin immediately shook his head and looked down,covering up his smile.
Minho shifted uneasily in his chair knowing exactly why Taemin was in a good mood. “I’m full” he said as he stood up, cleared his dishes and headed to the kitchen.
“Me too” Taemin said, standing up. He scurried behind Minho to the kitchen.
“Hyung, let me do the dishes” Taemin volunteered, taking Minho’s bowl.
“Taemin-ah, are you happy?” Minho asked.
Taemin didn’t answer.
“I saw you and Onew hyung today. I heard what you said to him.” Minho said in a low voice.
Taemin stood motionless, not sure how to respond.
“You love him, don’t you?” Minho asked.
Taemin turned to face Minho. He studied Minho’s face, hoping to read what his hyung was thinking. But he couldn’t.
“Yes,hyung. I do.” Taemin answered. “I wasn’t going to tell anyone about but I had no choice when Onew hyung confronted me. I couldn’t hold it in any longer.”
“How about Luna” Minho asked.
“Onew hyung cleared that up. He said nuna and him are just friends, they meet up a lot because she wants his advice about musicals.” Taemin explained.
Minho felt guilty for making wrong assumption about Onew and Luna. He felt worse when he thought about the pain he caused Taemin.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry for causing you misery. I didn’t know…didn’t know you had feelings towards Onew hyung” Minho apologized.
“No, hyung. There no need for you to apologize. Nobody would have guessed.” Taemin said, understanding that his hyung felt guilty.
Minho dropped his head down and rubbed his forehead.
Taemin sensed that Minho was upset. He touched Minho’s shoulder. “Hyung,it’s really okay” he said.
Minho looked up at Taemin. It’s true, he was upset, not only because he had saddened Taemin but also because he knew he’d lost Taemin forever.
Taemin suddenly pulled Minho to his arms. Hugging him tightly he said, “Don’t be upset anymore hyung. Please.”
Minho nodded, “Hmmm...araseo.” He said.
“Hyung, I have a favor to ask from you.” Taemin said. “Please don’t tell anyone about what you saw and heard earlier today.” He pleaded.
Minho simply nodded, smiling.
“Kids, I’m back!” Onew’s voice called out.
“He’s here.” Taemin said with a glowing face and rushed out as Minho watched him leave.
“Hyung, you came” Key welcomed Onew. Onew nodded at him.
“Have you guys eaten?” Onew asked fixing his eyes on Taemin. Taemin blushed.
“Yes. Have you?” Jonghyun asked.
Onew shook his head.
“But hyung, there no food left. We thought you would have eaten out.” Key explained.
“We are out of ramen too” Jonghyun added.
“Yah, you guys are so mean. How can you eat everything finish? I’m starving.” Onew complained.
“Sorry, hyung.” Minho said as he came out of the kitchen.
“Oh,Minho...” Onew said feeling slightly awkward.
Sensing the discomfort, Minho immediately went into his room.
“Taeminnie, follow me to the restaurant.” Onew called out.
Taemin was surprised when Onew called him.
“He has already eaten” Key informed. “I think he worked out his problem. He ate more than usual today and was smiling alone like a crazy person” he added.
“Hyung!” Taemin exclaimed.
“What? Is it not true?” Key asked.
Taemin smile sheepishly.
Key was glad to see dongsaeng smile and back to his normal self. Although he still wondered what his problem was in the first place.
“Taemin-ah, you follow Onew hyung to the restaurant okay?” Jonghyun asked.
“Me?” Taemin asked, feeling panicky.
“Why are reacting as though we asked you to do a strip dance?” Jonghyun asked.
“It’s not that hyung,i….” Taemin started explaining.
“Lalalalalalaaaaaa…I don’t want to listen anymore. Taemin-ah, be good boy and follow him.” Key ordered.
Taemin knew he can’t argue with Key. He grabbed his jacket and followed Onew.
They got into the elevator. Taemin felt unusually nervous.
“You look nervous.” Onew said, smiling playfully.
“No,I’m not.” Taemin replied, wiping his sweaty palm on his jeans.
“You’re sweating.” Onew said. He took his handkerchief and wiped Taemin’s forehead.
Taemin was startled by Onew’s gesture and moved back.
“Why are you so jumpy? You think I’m going to eat you alive?” Onew asked.
He moved closer to Taemin until he was only inches away from his face.
Taemin’s heart was pounding onto his chest.
The elevator door opened. Taemin felt a gush of relief and rushed out of the elevator.
Onew followed him grinning. He walked beside Taemin and held his hand. Again, Taemin was baffled. He tried to let go but Onew was grasped his hand hard.
“Don’t try to run away. You’re mine now.” Onew said bringing Taemin’s hand to his chest.
“Hyung…how if someone sees us like this..holding hands?” Taemin asked, worried.
“They’ll think its fan service.” Onew replied, mischievously.
Taemin smiled, amused by his hyung answer. He nodded.
“Let’s go eat ice cream.” Onew said.
“But hyung, you said you haven’t eaten. Aren’t you hungry?” Taemin asked.
Onew smiled wickedly. “Hyung, what's wrong with you?” Taemin questioned.
“I’ve already eaten. I lied that I didn’t so that I can bring you out alone.” Onew answered.
“Hyung, why did you do that? You made me feel bad for eating more than usual.” Taemin said, sulking.
“Mianhe. I had to. If I told the others that I’m going to eat ice cream, they will want to follow along.” Onew explained.
“Hmmm…” Taemin sighed, pouting.
“Okay, how about I buy you an extra ice cream? Will you forgive me then?” Onew asked.
Taemin smiled in agreement.
They walked towards the ice cream shop hand-in-hand.
“Hyung, does this mean that this is our first date?” Taemin asked, excitedly.
Onew looked at Taemin. He stared at his face before nodding. “Yes, it is.”
He was pleased to see Taemin smile so cheerfully. He held Taemin’s hand tightly, determined to not let it go forever.
Minho tossed and his bed. He stared at the empty space beside him.
Lee Taemin, he thought. He missed him. He missed watching Taemin’s face every night before sleeping, like a lullaby. Since Taemin moved into Onew’s room, Minho has been having trouble falling asleep.
And when he wakes up in the morning, his heart breaks all over again when he looks at the empty space.
But he knew he had to let Taemin go even though he’s hurting so much.
He had to because he wanted Taemin to be happy.
He had to because he loved him.
i was wondering if i should do a sequel. i'm not sure if it's a good idea.hope i can get some comments reagrding this.
thank you for reading~!
dr_elf15
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