All I want is for them to understand that I am special, they will most likely never understand why I write but none of them have really tried to understand. Luhan may be my best friend but not even he, who I thought would understand the most just refused to except that maybe there was something wrong. The fact that I slowly distanced myself away from the Korean members ever since our debut was overlooked by all except one. The member who I had been closest to before our debut, which was Chanyeol. My heart was breaking a little from ignoring the person who had helped me the most but I was afraid to tell him my thoughts. I gave in and gave him what I wanted which was my time and attention, and he began to understand me more than he ever used to.