GDRAGON’s POV

My name is Kwon Jiyong.

As you all know, Jiyong is a guy’s name…

Therefore, the owner of the name must be a guy…

Therefore, I must be a guy!

Right!? Right!? Riiiiiight…

*heavy sigh*

This is really bothering me a lot lately…

This different beat my heart makes when he’s around.

My anxiousness whenever I see him coming…

The overflowing happiness I feel everytime he’s just inches away from me…

And these weird thoughts in my mind about him and me…

Aigoo!!!

*frustrated sigh*

Why am I feeling this way towards my bestfriend?

TOP…

TOP-ssi… I’m sorry… I’m sorry I have to feel this way towards you…

I never expected this to happen.

NO!

I don’t even want to believe that it’s really happening!!!

Because for one, I’m Kwon Jiyong, I cannot be gay!!

Secondly, TOP… TOP will never accept my love.

Or will he?

Will he?

Will he accept me if I tell him that I feel something for him beyond our friendship?!

*dying sigh*

I know he won’t.

Of course Choi Seunghyun is not gay!

He likes girls…

Girls like… like that girl he helped the other day…

I hate that girl!

Whoever she is, I don’t care!

And I won’t let her take TOP away from me!

NEVER!

Even if I can’t be with TOP the way I want to be with him,

Even if I won’t be able to intertwine my fingers with his and call him ‘oppa’,

I will never let him be with someone else…

Call me selfish, but that’s the way I love.

I will never admit how I feel…

But I will forever let him feel it.

I will forever be by his side and he will forever be by my side too!

That’s how we’ll be, I’ll be his secret lover and he’ll be…

He’ll be Choi Seunghyun aka TOP, yes! He’ll just be him, that’s all he needs to do! ^___^)

J

After a while…

AIgoo!!!

What am I thinking!?

Can I really be gay!?

If I am, then I must also be attracted to other men, right?

Not only with my bestfriend TOP!

Yeah!

That’s right!

I know how to find out what this really is!

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Jiyong was wearing a pink top and tight jeans…

He stopped walking in front of a glass window where he passed by and observed his reflection.

He still looked manly and strong.

His then turned his attention to his face, leaning forward to see his reflection better.

He massaged his chin with his fingers as he looked at his handsome face.

Yup! No sign of unmanliness…

When he got enough of him,

He  continued walking towards the place he never imagined he’d go to…

It was a gay club.

He went there only for one purpose.

to find out if he is also attracted to other men besides TOP.

You get the reason why, right?

He was standing in front of the entrance.

He stared at the big door and took a deep breath.

He must be going crazy!

If anyone finds out that Gdragon has entered a gay club,

He would be ruined for the rest of his wealthy life!

His family might even disown him!

But he needs to do this…

If he doesn’t he might get more confused…

And more confusion would lead him to wrong decisions.

Better face the truth now than later…

“Here goes nothing! Gdragon, hwaiting!!”

He took another deep breath before taking his first step towards the entrance…

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